My diary (Martti Koski)

The purpose of  this diary is to make the world to know what happened to me and the other victims of  the electronic mind-control. Just in case on future we are not able to speak anymore. Idea is to also tell, how we did try to defend ourselves, and how our torturers work, and  how different institutions, police and justice system just turned their deaf ear into our complaints

17^th.  January 2012. The previous piece I wrote ended on November 27. Since has happened is that they have introduced a pain in buttock on  nearly  every day . It makes me sitting very uncomfortable. I have discovered a new kind of shield material freezer-bags. I believe the effect is same as there were water inside, but on these bags the liquid is very handy package for use for shielding.

28^th. of  November. I got sleep perhaps two or three hours. After four a.m. I did not get sleep. In the morning about ten o’clock a.m. they delivered a very dangerous feeling pain on left side front of my head.

29^th. of November. They caused some spasm on legs. This  torture they call   “ moon swimming”. After the spasm ended , I got sleep perhaps hour or two. They awakened me , couple of times and after three o’clock ,I did not get sleep. Perhaps I slept three hours as a whole.

30^th of November. I went to sleep half past nine p.m. They awakened me half past eleven. After I am  not sure, that I got sleep at all. They tortured me  with a sharp pointing pain, back of the head, either left side or right side, depending which side I tried to sleep. I believe I slept about two hours. 

1^st. of December. I went to sleep half past nine p.m. The perpetrators awakened me  after half past ten p.m. This time they were very nasty. They told me that they have several “heads” - as they call victims they torture and experiment with – and my end would come, because I am not usable anymore.

I believe that idea behind this nasty speak was to get me angry response, and start conversation. For all these years they have tortured and manipulated me, I have learned that more useful than think what they are saying - is rather think, why they are telling this to me – what they count to gain by telling this particular think to me.

I massaged my neck, and after that, their tone became usual “everything will end soon” type talk. Sometime before one a.m. they manipulated my heartbeat. I remember, I was awake after one ‘o’clock a.m. , and I was awakened about five a.m. , so I believe I slept between three and four hours.

2^nd.  of December. I slept about hour or two. Again they used pains on  side of my head, among other things to keep me awake.

3^rd. of December.  I went to sleep half past nine. I was awakened first time half past ten. Second time I was awakened around four a.m. After I did not get sleep.  Daytime I had a rather severe pain around my right eye. Pain eased on afternoon, but after that started usual itching and tingling sensations around my head.

4^th.  of December. I got sleep about four or five hours. In the morning there was a very heavy manipulation session. They told that the operating principle their manipulating machine is very near operating principle of sonar. I have heard this same thing before, years ago. So if it is true, and they call their manipulation for “ blood filming” , my imagination would make concept where on my blood is inserted  some (radioactive?) radiocontrast agent   substance, and “picture” is made from head, similarly as sonar makes picture for environment. The scan must be done  for some hundred times of second, or  so, that difference in blood circulation and pressure is visible. This youtube-film support the sonar theory. The type of transmission that Alan Yu explains his document,also  support the sonar type of transmission theory. It is also true that their manipulation is sensitive for position and movements. They sometimes call their manipulation also “lung filming”.Perhaps this expression has come from reason that blood marking substance, has come into blood by inhalation  trought lungs, when  breathing.  One of radiocontrast agents is barium fluoride, that is also found on chemtrail contrails like this youtube film shows .  Rather than make any serious conclusions, I would test victim’s blood, for any foreign substances, including radiocontrast agents.

 Sonar theory   does not fully explain their manipulation technique. Also I have to count possibility that they are purposely lead me into wrong theory by their stories.

5^th. of December. I was awakened after two a.m., and they kept me awake until six a.m. After that I got couple of hours sleep. As a whole, I slept about five hours. In the morning they spoke their planning about supporting my mother. I am afraid this means doing evil things to me. Daytime I had normal itching and pain on buttock.

7-11 of December.   These day were very similar. I got sleep about four or five hours. Daytime there were more or less itching and twinkling sensations, and pain on buttock.   As a new kind of pain , they also introduced a pain on left knee. On their speech they told that they are building “human operating system”. I believe this time was something between two projects.

12^th. of December. I was awakened after two a.m. , and second time after four a.m. I believe I slept three hours.

13^th. of December. I went to sleep after ten p.m. They awakened me after two a.m. After I did not get sleep. I slept about three hours.

14^th. of December. I went to sleep around nine p.m. They kept me awake about hour at least before I got in sleep. They awakened me about three a.m., but I was so tired, I got some sleep after that. I believe  that I slept five hours or more.

In their  opening of the day  they told that Putin has made public Soviet Union invention on mind-reading machine, they invented 1970. Later I checked  it from Moscow News, and I found that their story was not true. Incidents on US-Moscow embassy around 1970 , means that this story of invention is true, and Putin would easily tell it, because  Soviet Union does not exist anymore. However electrical mind-reading and mind-manipulation technique, gives controlling elite weapon, to control masses, and publishing the weapon, makes them more difficult to use it after that. I believe that is the reason, why all the few  countries, that have this weapon, try to keep it secret. 

15^th. of December. I went to sleep before ten p.m.  They awakened me after midnight. After I had a short period a kind of half-sleep on which I had a dream. As a whole, I slept between two and three hours. In the morning they started aggressive verbal manipulation. In the afternoon about half past four p.m. they started a pain both sides of head, and a rather strong nausea.

16^th. of December. I went to sleep half past nine. They awakened me after one o’clock a.m. I  stayed awake around sixty hours with only six hours of sleep.

17^th. of December. I got normal seven hours sleep. In the morning they started a sharp strong pain on left side, about centre of my head. It continued whole morning more or less continuously. Later started a pain on buttock that continued until night.

18^th.of December. I awakened a cold feeling on head, and a strong headache. I massaged my neck, and found several sore points on it. So I realized that they have disturbed my head blood circulation, and caused temperature of head to go down. On other words, this was normal after sauna torture , except it was heavier than usually. I had also some nausea. After massaging my neck, my  feeling went better, but still I had some nausea and headache whole morning.

19^th. of December.  I got sleep between two and three hours. After three a.m. I did not sleep. In the morning, after seven o’clock,  they started pain on the right temple of my head. This I felt especially , when eating or speaking.

20^th. of December.  I went to sleep before ten p.m. and got sleep perhaps eleven o’clock. They started torture after one o’clock.  They caused a strong pain on specific place on head. If I moved my head, the pain followed on  the same place on head, with some delay. I told them, that they are cruel torturers, who suppose to closed in prison. After that there were some minutes pause, before torture and manipulation continued. I slept perhaps two or three hours.

21^st. of December. I got couple of hours sleep, before one a.m. After that they kept me awake until three or four a.m., and again I got hour or two sleep. I slept between three and four hours a whole night. On daytime, I got more or less continuous pain on right temple of my head.

22^nd. of  December. I went to sleep around ten p.m. They awakened me after three a.m. I got sleep perhaps four hours.  They threatened me that they will kill me by heart attack. Afternoon after four p.m. there were some dangerous feeling sharp pains on left temple on my head.

23^rd. of December. I was awakened around two a.m. However  I got sleep again, and I slept so long time, I was late on work. I got sleep perhaps seven or eight hours. In the evening around six p.m. they started a pain on right eye, and it continued a whole evening -  more   occasionally, after I shielded myself around the right eye. Verbal manipulation continued intense, whole time. Also pain on buttock started after six p.m. and continued whole night.

24^th. of December. I got sleep around five hours or less. They awakened me around four a.m.  , and after, I am not sure, if I slept at all. They used all kinds of pains, to prevent me to fall asleep again. I remember specially pain on buttocks and a sharp pain on back of my head. There were also a long period, when I felt that I did not get enough air on my lungs. I believe that they can control amount of carbon dioxide on my blood or something comparable, to cause that feeling. On the afternoon and evening, they caused a strong pain on my right eye. I was visiting my mother on Christmas, so I did not have same possibility to shield my eye than home. Pain ended around eight p.m. After that were only normal itching, and verbal manipulation.

25^th. of December. The night was very similar, than night before. I was awakened around two a.m. After that my feelings were manipulated, and they caused a sharp pain on head for a while. However they let me sleep normal sleep, perhaps, because I did not have to wake early for work, but I had an opportunity to sleep long. On the evening started pain on buttock, and it continued until night 

26^th. of December. I went to sleep after midnight. I was first time awakened after three a.m. , and second time after six a.m. that after I did not get sleep. They also caused, that some reason, I did not feel sleepy, although I got sleep only five hours or less.

27^th. of December. I got about normal sleep. On afternoon and evening, I got several fast sleeps, while I watched the television. I found that after fast sleep, I got several sore points on neck. I massaged the sore points out. I figured out, the template, how they worked. First  they cause fast sleep.  After I awake from that, they start intensive talking, on this time, also sore points of neck also come.

 When I massaged out the sore points, the intensive talking also ended.

They caused  pains on buttock on rest of the evening. It  made my sitting very painful.

4^th. of January 2012. I got about normal sleep. Pain on buttock started before I went to sleep.

5^th. of January 2012.  I slept perhaps hour or two. They caused pain on back, which kept me awake, among the other things. They caused also a odd pain on stomach,  and they told that instead with my brain they will experiment with my body. They also gave indirect death threat, by telling that soon ‘I will have “silence of grave”

6^th. of January. 2012. I went to sleep very late, about two o’clock a.m.  , because I did not feel tired before. After I had gone to sleep, they caused a sharp pain on heart, like a small heart attack. The attack continued, normal itching on head verbal manipulation etc. I was that scared, that I did not get sleep before six a.m.  I got sleep around four hours, and after that I did not feel myself very sleepy at all, so I believe they had manipulated  me  do not feel sleepy. I got a small pain on heart, on day, that came after their heart experiment. Daytime I felt again a pain on buttock, that made my sitting painful.

7^th. of January 2012. I got about five hours of sleep. In the morning was a kind of new odd feeling on head. About noon they caused a fast sleep, which was followed a kind of dizzy feeling.

 8^th. of January 2012. I got about three hours of sleep. After I was awakened, they started a repetitive voice attack,  on which I felt they had some new method, that made it more effective than  before. However, I was able to defend myself  with loud music,  partly at least. Daytime there were some itching, and also pain on buttock, that started on evening.

9^th. of January 2012. I did not sleep at all. They used pains on head and body to keep me awake. They also caused that I did not feel very tired. On their verbal manipulation, they spoke that “building the temple, has gone too far”. This is a indirect expression, that real meaning is unclear to me. On the evening, they put me several times for fast sleep.

 10^th. of January 2012.  They awakened me at one a.m. After I did not get sleep.  In the morning they told me that when their experimenting with me ends “death comes from another door”. I got about three hours of sleep this night.

11^th. of January 2012. Last night they awakened three times during the night. However, after each time,  I was able to catch sleep again. I believe, I slept about five hours. On afternoon, quarter past one p.m. ,  they started a repetitive voice attack, this time by calling my name. They succeeded get my left ear partly sensitive, before I got started  loud music for shielding.

12^th. of January 2012.  I did not get sleep at all, whole night. They told me that “they will clean my board”.  After six a.m. in the morning, I got about hour of sleep, or kind of  half-sleep, that caused I was late on my work.  Daytime they started pain on buttock,  that continued more or less permanent, until night. They told some indirect threats like “lady dressed in black will come to meet you” 

13^th. of January 2012.  I went to sleep around ten p.m. I got sleep around eleven p.m.  They awakened me about one o’clock a.m. After I did not get sleep.  They also tried to control position, which I was lying on bed. They did not like that I slept on my back, so they caused a backache  if I tried to sleep on my back.  I discovered, that they did not like my position because of position of my head. I moved to sleep on my side, but so that the position of my head, was same as lying on my back.

After that move, they tried verbally get me to change the position of my head. I did not move my head.  They did not let me sleep. I woke up on four a.m. I believe I slept only two hours.  On next evening, I had had  only two hours of sleep on last sixty hours.

14-15^th. of January 2012.  I got verbal manipulation, and itching on head, and pain on buttock on daytime, but I got about normal sleep at night. This perhaps because of weekend, and I had opportunity to sleep at daytime, if necessary.

16^th of  January 2012. I went to sleep after eleven p.m. They awakened me after two  a.m. and after that I did not get sleep. I slept perhaps two hours. Beside verbal manipulation, they used pain on back of the head, to keep me awake. In the morning opening, they told that they will torture me until my death. Daytime the were pain on buttock, and they caused a fast sleep around four p.m.  while I was on work.

17^th. of January 2012. Very unclear night, I am not sure, if I slept at all. If I slept it was hour or so. About eleven p.m. After I went to bed, they caused a kind of small heart attack. About four a.m. I started to make diary from my notes, because I felt this is a part of the reason, they do not let me sleep, and torture so cruel way. I planning to put it out half-finish, this night, and make hyperlinks, and correct grammar, later after I have got proper sleep.

I have had trouble with my e-mail. It comes instantly full of junk-mail, so I have not received all the letters, people have sent. I feel I have corrected this problem, at least temporary. My mail is working again.

27th. of November 2011. My previous piece of diary ended on fourth of October. On last month I was afraid that Eleanor  White is killed. Now I  know it is not true. This is her new website.

This month I have got more death threats. Threats have also changed In quality, now they speak “lead poisoning” , and “nickel poisoning” when before the perpetrators suggested more exotic ways to end my life.

I have got some feedback that asks, why I do not write more, how they manipulate me on daytime. The reason is that daytime manipulation does not bother me same way as night manipulation, when they do not let me sleep.

I know  reading my records of night torture is boring, but I believe that someday mind-reading, and mind-manipulation equipment are known for  public, and I live in  hope that then these crimes against humanity, that scientist  have committed during the development on  this  coming mind manipulation technique, will be investigated.  I wish also that  people who have committed these crimes will be prosecuted. For that purpose I have tried to make my record accurate for what has  happened to me.

I hope that after mind-manipulation became public; there will come  enough public pressure for investigation of  these crimes, and prosecution for people, which  have committed these crimes - even if victims are dead, or live in  condition where they cannot claim their rights during the time of investigation.

 I get daytime nearly continuous verbal manipulation, when I am not doing something active on my brains, like reading. Verbal manipulation usually explains, that torture will end soon, after half year or so, and after I will get compensation, from what I had suffered on last thirty years, when they have manipulated me. They like to talk compensation I get . What is the base of my compensation, is it based on hours, I have been subject on their manipulation, and how much for hour etc.

  When I  ask, do I get these criminals prosecuted, that have tortured me and ruined my life on last  thirty years,  their answer is not so clear, and they do not like talk this subject.

Actually I believe, that they just try to keep my hope for   freedom, that will come in future,  alive. If I had a mental breakdown, or became severely depressed, I am less useful for them. I believe that even if they get caught, it is not sure that they will be prosecuted. United States and Canada, has very dark history  on legal handling of criminal human experiments , when illegal human experiments have - for reason or other - became public , not police or public prosecutor have acted. Not a single U.S. government researcher had been prosecuted for illegal  human experimentation. This  means that  scientists  are not afraid to continue their illegal  experiments.

Even in case of improbable event, that these crimes are exposed in public, there is  perhaps similar outsourcing trick than some  other torture cases, where the actual crimes are done from foreign organization, and base organization has just given funding, to get results.

Besides of continuous talk , perpetrators manipulate my daytime  feelings and memory , I am not able to recall some words in these occasion. Actually what happened for Rick Perry on this article , was a typical trick they do for me . I do not say that Rick Perry is a victim of mind manipulation, memory  blackout could happen sometimes  in natural reasons like, high tension.  They also  often they try to replace my verbal output , from their verbal output, and  sometimes they  succeed on this.

5^th. of October. I went to sleep early, about eight p.m.  They kept me awake about hour or two. After I got sleep, first time, they, awakened me f after midnight. I also remember, that they caused that my head felt cold on sometimes on night. I got however sleep and slept until four a.m.  I believe I slept five or six hours. Next evening started pain on right temple of my head.

6^th. of October. I went to sleep half past nine. They awakened me before one o’clock a.m.  After I did not get sleep. About three a.m. they started “sharp stones under head  torture”. After I wake up from bed, the pain on the right eye started. It continued with some breaks a whole morning. Actually they call it for macular filming. I do not know if they ge visual  information my view, or it is just recording how my eye is working.

9^th.  of October. I got sleep about three or four hours. They caused a feeling that my  head was cold among other things, to keep me awake. After I woke up, there were a pain on right eye, so their “macular filming” continue. I was so tired, that they were able to put me on fast sleep couple of times during the day. There was nearly continuous itching somewhere on head .

  10^th of October. After midnight they caused a sudden strong sharp pain  on center of my head. This is what they call moose rifle. I was able to get pain weaker by pressing water back on place of the pain. They told that this is revenge, that I have broken some instruments by massaging my head, with my hand held massager. They also told that I cannot do such calculation I did my previous piece of diary. I guess they mean that probability count which   was just rough estimate, that is based right way to calculate, how much illegal human experiments USA actually do in other countries .

The pain was weaker, when I lied in my back, but they caused a strong backache for me, in that position, so I could not sleep on that way.  I do not know how long I was asleep, but I was bed on ten hours, because I did  not have to go to work.

10-13^th. of October. These days and night were very similar. I got sleep between three and five hours. Usually I got two or three hours sleep. After they awakened around one or two a.m.  Another sleep period was after six a.m. Between that they caused pains here and there, and coughing, that is very unpleasant if one is wearing c-pap machine, like I am . There were also sharp pain somewhere on head and occasional feeling that air was full of smoke. I massaged my neck about three or four times on night to reset their manipulation. I stayed long on bed, but got only little sleep. Daytime they caused two of more fast sleeps.

14^th. of October. Last night one of the perpetrators told his future plans. He said he lives in Sweden, but is planning to move back to Finland, in reason for  children education. He also said that , when I am not useful for them anymore, they just stop to manipulate  me,  and continue with other victims.

 I slept about eight hours, and awakened with sharp pointed pain, that they call nickname “moose rifle”. My theory is, that they tried to wipe out yesterdays conversation. I am not sure if,  the conversation was their experiment, or just pure mistake. Actually I was not able to recall it yet, but about two hours later.

15^th. of October.  I went to sleep about midnight. They awakened me after hour’s sleep, and kept me awake until six a.m.  After I was able to sleep about half past eleven a.m.  On night they told that I should be happy that I can sleep. Many of the mind-control victims are tied to bed and  cannot defend themselves on any way. Again they used a same sharp pain than yesterday night. I massaged my neck, and it stopped the pain.  I believe, it was not massage, but their decision to stop pain, after massage. Otherwise the night was similar itching on head, and back pains, than earlier nights. On afternoon started a pain on right eye, and continued for night. Again they told that they are filming ocular fundus.

16^th. of October. Heavy pain on right eye, that started on evening, continued until four a.m. I got sleep about five a.m. and they awakened me about ten a.m. So I got sleep about five hours. In the morning there were day opening. the perpetrator told that they will torture, and experiment with me, all my lifetime. As an excuse they told that he told that he has children, and he has  to make living for his  family. I told him that he makes living his children  from my suffering, and he ruins my life to get his family happy living.

17^th. of October. I got about one hour sleep. They caused sharp pain on center of my head. I had to sleep on my back, to keep pain tolerable. After one o’clock a.m. I did not sleep at all.

18^th. of October. I went to sleep before nine p.m. They let me sleep one hour, and awakened me after ten p.m. I got sleep again about three or four a.m. So I  got about three hour of sleep, before I had to go to work about five a.m.

19^th. of October. I went to  bed after nine p.m. They awakened me half past ten. I got next time sleep after six a.m. I slept about three hours, and   went late to work.

20^th. of October. I went to bed after nine p.m. They awakened me first time about half past ten, and after several times about hour between previous awakenings. After one a.m. I did not get sleep. This time  they called it “stress test”. They threaded that “wolfs” will come next.

21^st of October. I went to sleep after eight p.m. They kept me awake with pains and verbal tricks and by manipulating my feelings. After one a.m. I put music on my earphones loudest possible. After that I got sleep, and slept more or less until six a.m.  Usually one could not sleep with heavy noise, but if person is very tired, the noise does not stop his sleeping.  I believe that loud music actually interfered their manipulation, that they used to try to keep me awake.  In the morning there was a odd feeling on back of my head, but no actual pain. On next day, there were occasional verbal manipulation, and usual itching, and twinkling sensations, mostly on left side of head.

22^nd. of October. “ The stress tests” continued. They kept me awake until about four or five a.m.  I explained them, that sooner or later electronic mind manipulation will be recognized as fact.  Then my story will come public. After that there will come an investigation, and they will be prosecuting their crimes whether I am alive or not. Their attitude was, that because they are already responsible for death for some people, one death more does not make much difference. They trusted that they will never be prosecuted from their crimes. United States and Canada has in past failed to prosecute people that have violated human rights in form of illegal human experimentation.

 I was able to sleep long, because it was Saturday.  I believe I slept about four hours.

23^rd. of October.  I do not know how much I slept last night. I believe it was between three and five hours. They used pain on ear to get me take out earphones, without success. Next evening they put me on fast sleep . This usually means, I do not get sleep on night.

24^th. of October. They let me sleep about hour. After midnight they kept me awake until about four a.m. After I got sleep about two hours, before I had to go to work. I slept about three hours as a whole. In the morning they caused a pain on butt when sitting. Actually they have done it often last days.

25^th. of October. This was a very unclear night. I was awakened several times, but I was able to get sleep again. Most for  me bothered their  sharp stones under head torture . I was able to weaken it, with water backs, but it forced me to sleep on position, that was very uncomfortable. I estimate I slept perhaps two or three hours.

26^th. of October. Similar night than yesterday. Only difference that pains were wider variety I slept perhaps three or four hours.

27^th. of October. I went to sleep after nine p.m.  They awakened me at half past eleven p.m.  They kept me awake the whole night, except a short period between three and four a.m.   I got sleep about two hours. I was so tired I got a couple of fast sleeps in the morning. Daytime there were normal itching and a kind of aggressive talk from them.

28^th. of October.  I went to sleep after nine p.m. They awakened me several times, but I was able to get sleep again. I believe I got proper six hours sleep. I got even some dreams. I hoped  the “stress tests” were over.

29^th of October.  Again they awakened me several times, but because it was a holiday, and I did not have to go work, I was able to sleep long, and I believe I  got sleep five hours or more, although I am not sure for that.

30^th. of October. I believe, I slept about five hours, difficult to say. There was a pain on right eye, when I went to sleep, and it continued on wake-up. On daytime there were occasional itching on head, and verbal manipulation.

31^st. of October. Last night I sleep around ten p.m. I was awakened after midnight. They kept me awake over three o’clock a.m.  After I got couple of hours sleep. They used sharp pointed pain to keep me awake. In the morning there were occasional pain on left side of my head.

1^st. of November. Very similar day than yesterday. I slept about hour, after I was awake  about three o’clock  a.m. and after that, I got couple of hours sleep. As a whole I slept between three and four hours.

2^nd. of November. I went to sleep about ten p.m.  They awakened me about three a.m. and after I did not get sleep. I believe I slept about three or four hours. On daytime, there were occasional rather strong pain on side of the right eye, among the verbal manipulation.

3^rd. of November. I got about normal sleep. There were pain on right temple on daytime.

4^th.  of November. They awakened me before midnight. After they did not let me sleep. I slept hour or two, this night. In the morning they threatened me for hearth trouble, and that  my life will end for that.

6^th. of November. They got me very tired about nine p.m. I went to sleep. About one a.m. they awakened me, as I had thought. Because it was Saturday, I went to sauna, and after that I got very tired again. I went to bed, and woke up with terrible headache on forehead. They made a normal after sauna torture. and this was reason they let me sleep. The headache continued for afternoon.

7^th. of November. I slept for two hours. I was bed about ten hours, but most of the I was a kind of euphoria state, where I repeated over and over again imaginary piece of my life. Actually I remember that in thirty year ago in Alberta, Canada they often kept me in similar state, where I thought over and over again similar piece of life that caused pleasure. It was a kind of narcosis without drugs. Sometime on night, I also felt a

taste of blood on my mouth.  In the morning they told that they have taken “one tooth of my mouth”, that is their jargon,  exact meaning I do not know.

9^th. of November. They let me sleep for  two hours. Again they told that they are taking another “tooth” out, from me. If the pain marks the place of “tooth” the “tooth”  was this time left side back of my head.  To analyzing their language, perhaps brain has functions or organs  they call nickname “teeth”, and perhaps they could disable them parts of them. They have told that they can also replace “tooth”  with their artificial “gold-tooth”. However it is useful to think, why they want to let me know  this.  Apparently what they want cause for me, is fear and sadness.   On their speech – verbal manipulation – they have very rich vocabulary for indirect expressions, by using it,  they can cause fear and hope, give presents and punish. They can “give heart cut” , “take out tonsils” , “shave beard”, and many other expressions that could have something to do with real life, or have nothing to do with real life – who knows. So to stay reality, is better count what they do for me, than believe, what they tell ,  they are doing  for me. If I discount their talk, last night, the real problem is that   they did not me sleep for more than two hours. This is not good for my mind and body.

10^th. of November.  Last night, on start, I got about one hours sleep. After they kept me awake until six a.m.  Then I got sleep about ten a.m.  So I got about five hours sleep. Daytime there were usual itching and twinkling sensations, among the verbal manipulation.

11^th. of November. Very similar day, than day before. They kept me awake until six o’clock a.m.  After I slept half past eleven. . Daytime they caused a pain on left elbow, among usual itching and twinkling sensations on head.

13^th. of November. I got about normal sleep. Not their normal after sauna torture, that they do after sauna. In the morning opening,  they explained that all the torture will end. However on daytime, there were normal itching and twinkling sensations, so perhaps it was not true. There were also normal “we take a new tooth out from your mouth” threats among the verbal manipulation.

14^th. of November. They did not let me sleep at all.

15^th. of November.  They disturbed my sleeping, by awakening me several times, and trying to start conversation. However I got about five hours of sleep. Daytime there was an  odd shrinking feeling on the back of my head.

16^th. of November. I was awakened several times. After three a.m. I did not get sleep. I slept perhaps three hours, and I was very tired  a whole day.

17^th of November. I slept over  three a.m. Perhaps I slept  five hours. In the morning they started a pain on right eye. They call it sometimes for filming of  ocular fundus. The pain continued more or less, a whole day. While I was walking home around six p.m. the pain went very serious and covered for whole forehead. After I got home, I massaged my neck, and short after that the pain stopped. After half past eight they put me into fast sleep, that continued about quarter past nine. I believe that one purpose of their fast sleep is to let me sleep a while, when it is easier for them to keep me night awake.

18^th. of November. They awakened me after midnight. After I did not get sleep. They showed me all kinds of pains, they could cause. They can cause a pain even sole of my foot , if they want to. If they keep me a whole time half asleep, I cannot do very much. That way I am very vulnerable.

19^th of November. They awakened me after one o’clock a.m.  After they kept me awake, with pains and talking. They tried to get me sleep on right side with pains, but I found that causing pain on side did take a rather long time for them, and after I turned other side, the pain vanished, so I turn back to left side. They did not like to do it very many times, but let me sleep on left side. I slept perhaps two hours before one a.m. I was on bed until ten, but I was not sure if I slept at all. Anyway, when I woke up, half past ten, I did not feel tired. Daytime was  very normal itching twinkling sensations and verbal manipulation.

21^st. of November. I went to sleep about eleven o’clock.  I had to wake up at five a.m. to go to work . I was awakened during the night several times. I believe that I had about three hours of sleep.

22^nd. of November. I went to sleep around ten p.m.  They  started to cause a pain on my butt. Actually they have done it often, for last week, and it makes me difficult to sit down. I have thought that purpose is just cause pain, but while I am sleeping, pain on butt has no purpose, so it must be a side-effect of something they do for me. The night was unclear, I believe I slept about two hours, there was many long times, I was a kind of half sleep. After three a.m. I did not get sleep, and I went up four a.m.

23^rd. of November. They awakened me several times. They used pain on head and side, and as new form of pain, pain on sole of foot to keep me awake, while their verbal manipulation was continuing. Daytime they put me some fast sleep, and evening, they caused pain on butt.

24^th. of November. Again I was awakened several times.  I got some sleep after I went to bed, and some sleep before I had to go to work.  I believe I had sleep about three hours. Daytime, while I was attending to meeting, after two p.m. they caused me a fast sleep. It caused some embarrassment and certainly made no good for my career.

26^th. of November.  I was awakened first time after midnight. I did not get normal sleep after that. They did not like my sleeping on back, or right side, so they cause me backache while sleeping on back, and a kind of earache when I sleep on right side. However, some time on the morning, I decided to sleep on back, even it causes some pain. I am not sure, if I was asleep. However I had a thought about my old schoolmate, that remember, was invalid, later on I remembered that he is not invalid.  It was not actually full asleep, but I believe, they tried to feed me memory item  that is not true. In the evening around six p.m. they caused a pain in my butt, and I had some difficulties sit for a while. However, after seven p.m. the pain went away.

-I have found there are some net-writing about me, this is a typical example. It has many inaccuracies. I believe, the writer has mixed me from another person. I have never resided days under bridge, and my photo was never  in newspaper on Canada.

There are others stories about me, that have  no factual errors. Many of them, do still have a kind of logical errors. The most usual is view me as isolated case.

 If person tells Hiroshima nuclear bomb, or six million mass murder of Jews, and only for this person particular story is viewed and no other evidence that is out of case , the observer would believe that with these evidence, person who is observed , has a  paranoid delusion that millions of Jews has murdered.  Similar conclusion could come  person   who views only my story, and excludes the  fact that there are at least ten organizations of victims of electronic manipulation, and membership for them is several hundreds of  people  The observer should  ask , are these organizations and people who have similar symptoms, just a  collective paranoid delusion, or is something real behind it ?

Eleanor White has come to same situation. This is her way to say  the same matter:

One of our more difficult challenges is overcoming the natural tendency of nay sayers who feel they can "explain" our troubles by looking at each different harassment type and offering alternate theories.  A day ago I had another "it-is-just-poltergeists" explanation come to me, triggered by my description of the  frequent remote physical manipulation effects. I'd like to offer here a common sense analogy  which we can use when dealing with this very flawed approach.  We can answer:  "It's just like a computer image, made up of thousands of pixels.  "If an observer sets up a microscope in front of his screen, and looks at every single pixel,  one at a time, he will not have the slightest  idea what the image is about.   "If he finds, say, that 19,221 pixels are flesh-coloured, he could declare that the image is of a belly dancer, when in fact, it is a portrait of George Washington.

I have found no appropriate investigation from authorities, or educational institutions electronic mind control victims cases. Perhaps reasons are  similar, that  there were no investigation about rumored Jews mass murder  in 1940 Nazi-Germany. The only rational  investigation I have seen,  is made by one of the victims,  before mentioned Eleanor White.

John J. McMurtrey has done remarkable job for collecting all those bits and pieces, that are available in public, to prove that mind control machine exist. This is his research paper, that really proves that mind reading of verbal thoughts is reality.

I personally believe that machine that is used for reading my mind, and my mind manipulation is different that one that J. McMurtney describes. In my guess the machine that is used my verbal mind reading is just a kind of interface from another person brain to other person brain. The difference is same that is difference in acoustical world  between word recognition machine, and a simple  cell-phone. There are lots of public research papers about word recognition for mechanic way from brainwaves. I still have not any papers from attempt to collect information brain use for verbal output of words, and send this information into another person brain. I believe this is some way possible, and this is  where the secret research is done.

John McMurtney kind of mind reading machine is coming in future , and it is usable  for mind-control of masses.  In future these machines could be hiding on airway-stations and similar places, and they would scan  if anybody has “dangerous” thoughts , a bit similar way that agencies are mechanically listening cell-phone conversations in some countries, and alarm if example word “explosive” is heard in  conversation.

I have followed with great interest Occupy wall street group movement. They get through the media resistance fact, that one percent of people in United States owns 44%  value of property, and average people has lost some purchasing power in last twenty years, while on same time  one percent of rich people have accumulated it.

Group has a  a demand that maximum allowed contribution one person  for election campaign, is a hundred dollars. This is good demand, but it does not stop all the indirect advertising that is done in form of positive publicity in mass-media.

With present winner take all, election system the only way  that Occupy wall Street movement would perhaps get member in Congress that would represent them , is to move all living on same geographical area. Instead on proportional election system, which Finland has,  they could have a fairly good change to get representative on congress whichever area they live.

United States election system is made two hundred hundred years ago. It would  be best, in society without telephone, fast transportation , and mass-media. Now it is as outdated as is T-model Ford. Example every state in United States, has right to elect two members in senate. This means that person that lives in half million people Wyoming gets more than twenty times power from his vote, than person who lives 35 million people California -  while voting members to  Senate.

Two party  governing system  has same problems - corruption, human rights violations, and discrimination of minorities - than one party  system, although less severe. Actually problems are very similar, than problems of monopoly and oligopoly in corporate world.

Fourth  of  October  2011 4.50 a.m. . My last note on previous writing ended  on 16th. of August . On 17^th.  of August they awakened me about ten times on night. However, because I went to sleep very early, before eight a.m., I got about four or five hours of sleep. On the afternoon there were a kind of shrinking feeling on my head, like I had slept head on sharp stones.

18^th of August. I went early to sleep. They awakened me around three a.m. I slept five hours. On afternoon about half past three p.m. they did a  a repetitive voice attack. Later on  about quarter to four p.m. there was a sudden pain on center of the head.

20^th of August. They awakened me after five o’clock a.m. At first I believed that it was a normal morning opening, but later I found that my left ear felt different than the right one. It was sensitive for voices. Effect was similar than after repetitive voice attack. Actually I felt a bit like wound on left side of my head. I slept five or six hours this morning.

21^st. of August. Last night was very similar that on night on tenth. of August. They started a pain on center of the head. It was on large area, feeling like head had been  sleeping on sharp stones.  They gave different explanations what they were doing. They told that I have my mathematical ability, but my ability to express myself with words, will come  weaker. They also told that I will lose a part of my memory. I slept perhaps five hours. On  daytime I had a different feeling on head. It felt especially when cough . I believe that my blood circulation on my head was reduced.

23^rd. of August. I went to  sleep after ten p.m. They awakened me after two o’clock a.m.  I got sleep three or four hours.

24^th. of August. Again I went to sleep after ten p.m .They awakened me after tow o’clock a.m. I got about four hours of sleep. They caused similar feeling on head, than 21^st. of August, like I had slept head on sharp stones. Feeling was on large area center-, and back of my head.

25^th. of August. They awakened me around two o’clock a.m., and started similar “sharp stones under head” torture than before. I massaged my neck to reset their manipulation, and put a small tire, filled with water around the manipulation area. With this , and combined with water containers, I was able to stop part of the sharp feelings. However they would not let me sleep, so I slept about three hours, also this night. The perpetrators identified themselves again as “Cancer station graveyard shift”.  In the morning there were occasional shooting pains above the right eye. On afternoon the pain on the right eye became permanent.

26^th. of August. I went to sleep about nine o'äclock  p.m. They awakened me around one o’clock, and started “sharp stones under head” torture. Again I massaged my neck and arranged similar shield than last night. It did not work as well as before. However I got two short periods of sleep. I slept perhaps four hours this night.

27^th of  August. I slept in two parts  last night eight to eleven p.m. and about four to eight a.m.  Between that there were a repetitive voice attack about quarter to three a.m.  They got my left ear partly sensitive. However in the morning the ear felt about normal.

28^th. of August. Last night in sauna, they did some unpleasant thing to my body, I would rather not tell. I went to sleep about four a.m. and got awake eight a.m.  on their morning opening. their story  was, that they are stopping the torture. Later on I found it was not true. I got sleep about four hours.

29^th. of August. I got sleep about four hours. They started to talk after three o’clock  a.m. This time they introduce themselves as representative from Finland ministry of Foreign Affairs. They said they were evaluating my possibility to survive after the experiments end. About ten a.m. started a pain on right eye, that after while, went  all over right side of head.

30^th. of August. I went to sleep after nine p.m. They awakened me after midnight. I massacred my neck with my hand-massager, to reset their manipulation. Actually they have told that the interface, of their manipulation equipment is fastened  on their throat. They kind of hear victims  (verbal) thinking on their throat, and this same way secretary manipulate victim verbal output. I believe that is the reason that massaging my neck has some effect. Of course, we have to take account possibility that their story is not true.

 I am not sure, but I believe, I slept hour or two after massacre. If so, I slept about three hours that night.

31^st of August. I went to sleep before eight p.m. They awakened me several times, and caused all kinds of pains, expecially pain on back, that made my sleeping very painful. I felt I slept about three or four hours. While on their manipulation, there was a incident I want to make a record. The secretary  tried to vocalize my thinking, and  mask so that I would accept his verbal output as mine. However he used wrong words, that I myself I would never use. I found that, and I told this to perpetrators.  They went very angry, and told I should have not make my secretary ashamed, he is just university student who is  starting to learn this dumping. I told the perpetrators, that they have tortured me over thirty years, when they will come angry for my position of life.

In the morning they started a heavy pain above the right eye.

1^st. of September. Last evening they told me, that they will bring me to “Himalayas”.  On night they caused that I felt that breathing was difficult, like air was a full of smoke. Their explanation was, that they were “burning” my lungs. After their torture, I was still able to walk, but breathing on lungs really felt different. I massaged my neck to reset their manipulation. After that their story went a bit less aggressive. They identified as gate-crashers, and told that their idea was to cause me to loose weight, and this “burning” of lungs cause, that I have to use more energy for moving myself. I was able to sleep about one hour after their “treatment” . In the morning there was a rather heavy pain above the right eye. It felt like somebody has hit the eye. There was something wrong with my breathing a whole day.

2^nd. of September. I went to sleep early, after eight p.m. They awakened me first after ten p.m. and after that about five or six times. After three a.m. I did not get sleep anymore. I massaged my neck many times during the night, to reset their manipulation. It helped always for a while.  I estimate, I slept two or three hours.

3^rd. of September. I went ot sleep after ten o’clock. They awakened me around two a.m.  I believe, I did not get sleep after that. I do not remember, that I  slept at all. They used all kinds of pains, where there were no good water shielding touching tmy head. They also made a kind of  tingling sensation, of  center of my skull , on large area. I was able to resist that by sleeping on back. Sleeping on back, made them to cause backache, so I did not sleep at all. Because I did not have to go to work, I slept very long, until noon. Partly I slept long because I was afraid to come out from my shield, and because I was tired, although I did not get sleep.

When I finally game out from my shield, I used music on my earphones as a kind of shield. I got very heavy verbal manipulation, and different itching, tingling, sensations, and pain.

4^th. of September. I got perhaps four hours of sleep. After they started heavy verbal manipulation, companied with tingling and itching sensation on center and back of my head. When I massaged my neck, I got the itching reset for a moment , but it started again after a few minutes. Their manipulation was weaker, when I slept on my back, but then they caused a backache. I was on bed long, because I did not leave my shield.

5^th of September. Very similar day that fourth of September. I slept  about four hours, and stayed under my shield long, because I was afraid for their manipulation.

10^th. of September. I went to sleep after midnight. They awakened me after five a.m. After they used different burning and itching sensations, among backache and verbal manipulation to keep me awake. Like previous night I slept about four or five hours.

11^th. of September. It is impossible to say, how much I slept. I was awakened some times on morning, but I did not notice what time it happened.  After I did not get sleep. They tried to keep me on left side, and caused pains, if I turned right side. In the morning they started general itching around my head. Later on it became pain on the right eye, and area around the right eye. This continued until night, and became even more severe than in the morning.

12^th. of September. This night they had some kind of  torture an manipulation and a show  that was a part of their 9/11 “celebration” program. Without knowing what they actually did, they caused heavy pain on my right eye.  I have started to believe that perhaps  I have a implant on right eye.).

They told that planes fly on high altitudes, so if their speech holds true, they are experimenting mind-control, and electronic torture from airplanes, and actually presented of their capabilities, but because they do not have real terrorist they torture me.  I asked them, do they feel they are big heroes, when they torture innocent civilian, that cannot defend himself. After that, they went very angry, and told me that I am a game animal - free to hunt. Later they started repetitive voices, and all kinds of pains.

I got sleep about hour before they started to torture me after midnight.

13^th. of September. I went to sleep after nine p.m. They awakened me after two o’clock a.m. I got sleep about four hours. After two a.m. I did not get sleep. They used pains and verbal manipulation to make my sleeping difficult. I massaged my neck couple of times, to reset their manipulation.

14^th. of  September. I went to sleep half past nine p.m. I was awakened five times, at least. I interpreted wrong time, from my alarm-clock. Later the perpetrators told that they have manipulated my eye, information and caused that I believe the time was much more, than it actually was.  I believe that I slept about five hours, but I am not sure for that. On daytime they caused several occasional short term pains, around my head.

15^th. of September. I went to sleep half past ten p.m.  They awakened me first time before midnight and after  several times. There were different itching and tingling sensations, among the verbal manipulation. They threaded to “bring tombstone” to my grave. I slept two or three hours.

16^th. of September. I went to sleep after nine p.m.  They awakened me first time before midnight, and after midnight they awakened several times. They gave several indirect death threats during the night. I massaged  my neck  for a couple of times to reset their manipulation, and I was able to sleep hour or two after three a.m.  I even got some dreams that I partly remember.

Daytime there were occasional pains on several points of my head, mostly on right temple of head.

19^th. of September. This night they awakened me first time about midnight, next time around two a.m. and next time after four a.m.  I slept about five hours. This night their threat was that “they will cut my hawthorn fence” ,  whatever it means, I do not try to translate these unclear indirect threats, because I feel their main purpose is to get me think what they mean.  Evening they caused fast sleep and some itching and tingling here and there.

20^th. of September. I went to sleep half past nine.  They got me awake before one o’clock a.m. After I did not get sleep. I massaged my head couple of times, and they did not like it. There  was a new kind of pain on  exactly center  between right side and left side of skull.

21^st. of September. I went ot sleep early, before eight p.m. I was awakened several times during the night, but because I did not have to go to work, I had possibility to sleep longer, and I got about normal amount of sleep. In the morning between seven and eight a.m. there were a kind of shooting pains on left temple. Usually there are pains on right temple and right eye. Also pains were different than usual. They were occasional, short term, and rather strong.

23^rd. of September. I went to sleep about ten p.m. They awakened me after midnight, and kept awake a hole night. After three o’clock a.m. they caused feeling that air that I breathed was no good. Later they started torturing a large area center of the head. I put a piece of sheet metal to cover the place they tortured, so the feeling was not normal tingling effect, but just pain. I slept about two hours on that night. On afternoon, there were occasional burning feeling on center of my head once a while.

24^th. of September. I went to sleep before ten p.m. They awakened me half past eleven, and next time after midnight. This time my mouth was also dry. This is not normal, so they did something to cause dry mouth. I was awake after three a.m. when they again caused feeling that air was difficult to breath. This all among the heavy verbal manipulation. I got some sleep before four o’clock a.m. , but they awakened me again after seven a.m.  and caused backache, and all kinds of pain to keep me awake. It is difficult to say, how much I slept , but I believe, I slept less that five hours.

25^th. of September. I got sleep about three hours. Last days they have threaded to arrange me to a hospital, where they come to “meet” me.  So they did last night. It is very dangerous, if they can get me closed Into hospital. There can be one or more their “agents” and they can even try to murder me some medical way, or cause many kinds of other harm for me. Even that my last hospital visit, there did not happen anything harmful I know, I try to avoid hospitals, so long it is possible. If I sleep my home, nobody can come into house, without breaking something. In hospital I am vulnerable for many kinds of attacks.

26^th. of September. I went ot sleep half past  nine  p.m. They awakened me after one a.m. and after I did not get sleep. They told me that they have orders, to let me sleep three hours per day, but otherwise they can keep me awake. They used all the normal tricks to keep me awake, pain on back, verbal manipulation etc.

27^th. of September. I went to sleep half past nine p.m. They awakened me first before midnight, and second time after one o’clock a.m. After that wakeup , I did not get sleep. They caused feeling, that the air I breathed was bad, kind of dry and smoky. They also caused all kinds of pains, and heavy verbal manipulation. I believe I got this night sleep  only this three hours, that is their new standard. I just wonder that what three hours daily sleep cause my brains, body and lifespan. Already I know, it ruins quality of life.

On lunchtime and evening they caused a couple of fast sleep. I just lost my consciousness from some minutes.

28^th. of September. I went to sleep before eight p.m.  On start, they caused me to stay awake. They were very aggressive, they threaded to “broke my nose” whatever it means. However something changed before midnight.  I went to sleep, and slept until five a.m.  about five or six hours.

29^th. of September. On night they awakened me for ten times at least. I know I was asleep for a while, but not very many minutes. Perhaps I slept two or three hours, very difficult to say.

30^th. of September. I went to sleep about eight p.m. They awakened me first around ten p.m. , and the n before midnight, that after I did not get sleep. I told my opinion on their position on society, that my tiredness had some effect. I told them that they are like  blood sucking parasites, which get their power from healthy and useful part of society. They did not like my analysis, and make wound on forehead, on left side. The wound felt open until afternoon. I slept about two or three hours.

1^st. of  October.. I went to sleep half past nine. They awakened me several times before midnight. I did not sleep between one and four a.m. I massaged my neck several times on this time. After four I got some sleep, because I  did not have to go to work.  I believe, I slept five hours or more.  On afternoon there was a continuing small headache on forehead. On evening it became pain on right eye , and continued on late night.

3^rd. of October. I went ot sleep after nine p.m. I used earphones to get sleep. They caused left ear pain., I put earphones of the head, and after a while , I  put them back. The pain diminished. I use c-pap machine while sleeping. The air felt very cold. I massaged my neck, and after the air felt normal. These are typical little tricks they have. I believe they cause pain, by controlling blood distribution, I am not sure although. They can also control body temperature, or at least feeling of cold and hot I  slept about three hours, mostly after one a.m.

4^th of  October. I believe I did not sleep at all. They caused all kinds of pains, mostly on ears, but also on some points of head around midnight, Now later the pains went off, but I  just cannot get sleep. I believe, that they try to delay publishing this part of diary, so I put it out half ready, and check  errors on grammar, and make links later when I have got some sleep. Otherwise they would keep me a whole week without sleep.

United States has a long history of illegal and unethical human experiments in foreign countries. Recently found Guatemalan syphilis experiments were just one example. There are also LSD- experiments in France, that caused some loss of lives, and several mind control experiments in Canada.

We do not  know the exact amount of   illegal and unethical human experiments that United States has  in foreign countries. One way to calculate a rough estimate, is to multiply experiments that are for some reason became public, for probability that leaks  for secret human experiment occurs . I estimate by that way,  that there are at least 300 similar unethical human experiments that United States government agencies have carried on foreign countries, where about one percent of them is partly  public now.

There is no reason to believe that unethical human experiments on foreign soil have ended. Only difference that I believe had happened, is a kind of outsourcing part of  illegal and unethical state activities.

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16^th. of August.2011. 4.30 a.m.  My previous writing ended on second of July. The first note after that is on sixth of July.

6^th of  July. They awakened me  on night by causing falsified audio-effect of somebody knocking the door. After that they tried to start talking, and tried also to make wound on left side of my head. I was able to defend myself by putting a water bag about thirty centimeter thick on place, they tried to make a wound. I believe I slept four or five hours.

In the morning they started a headache on forehead, similar than after sauna torture. The headache continued whole day, except a pause on afternoon. There were also some sore points on neck in the morning, that I tried to massage out.  About six o’clock  p.m. there were a conversation , I  made a wrote down, because it helps understand their attitude, and thinking. Question was their crimes against humanity. They insisted that they are “normal” people, and so it wrong to put them jail. I argued that people that commit crimes, should get punishment, and punishment should not get for person’s normality or abnormality, but every person has right to be so “abnormal” he wants to be. This thinking is very easy to find everywhere their thinking. They feel that their mission is to to  all people who are not “normal”  - meaning people who think or live different way than they live – and turn them into “normal” people.

This basic attitude is often visible of their thinking. They do  not feel that people that live or think differently than them, are not fully human, but think them “expendable” some kind of livestock, they would do everything without punishment.

9^th. of July. They awakened me sometimes on night, and started to make a  wound on left side of forehead. I tried first to massage my neck to reset their work. Later I put my left side of  forehead downside, and put a water back over it. They started to tease my right side of forehead, to get me turn over. I did not turn, because, I knew they had a plan to make wound on left side of forehead. However I could not sleep rest of the night. I guess I slept perhaps four hours this night.

11^th. of July.  Start of the week torture.  They awakened me after three a.m.  Later I did not get sleep. I slept about three hours.

12^th. of July. I went ot sleep early, because I had not slept well last night. I was awakened after midnight. They used cough and verbal manipulation to keep me awake. Sometimes on night, they also tried repetitive voices , but I got it down, with water backs on my ear. I got sleep again, and I was awakened next time after five o’clock a.m. I believe I got sleep less than five hours. On daytime, they put me some times fast sleep. Otherwise it was itching on head , and verbal manipulation, like every day.

13^th. of July. I slept about hour or two.  They caused a feeling of loss of air. Actually the perpetrators told that it is not lack of oxygen, but effect is done, by controlling the level of blood sugar. I am s´not sure that they spoke true. They also threaded  that they will invalidate me so, that I cannot walk normally. I believe this is normal intimidation, that they try to cause fear for me. In addition they did everything, to keep me awake, pain on back etc.

14^th of July. Because I was tired, I went ot bed before eight o’clock p.m. They awakened me first after ten p.m. They caused a pain on knee, and threatened to make me unable to walk. They also caused a pain on back etc. to keep me awake. I was awake until five a.m. After I got couple of hours sleep, and wake up late to work. On morning I found a pain on my left knee, that felt especially, when climbing on stairs. I wonder, how they caused it.  Did they cause real damage on my knee, or did they cause only feeling of pain, without real cause.

 I have slept about four hours on last 60 hours. In the morning they caused a pain on right temple of my head  that continued until evening.

15^th. of July. I got about normal sleep on last night. On daytime, there were occasional tingling sensation on head. Half past one p.m. started repetitive voices  on left ear. They were able to get my left ear, mildly sensitive for certain frequencies. Also there were  still occasional pain on left knee. Quarter past five p.m. they were able to make a small wound on left side, center of the head.

17^th. o July. I was awakened on night, but I got about normal amount of sleep.  On daytime I got rather heavy verbal manipulation, and some pain on head.  Evening there were tingling sensations on head, and some odd shrinking feelings on head also, like head was dried or so. This shrinking feeling was on center of my head.

18^th. of July. Start of the week torture. I slept perhaps hour. They used all kinds of pains, and verbal manipulation, to keep me awake. I tried to reset their manipulation by massaging my neck.  I found that  Canadian mind-control victim  Eleanor White´s website  is not open anymore. The perpetrators joked about prize of pork, that they said has gone up.

19^th. of July. I got about normal sleep. In the morning started a rather heavy pain on above the right eye. I found that Above Stop secred had published that –Eleanor White has disappeared. I found also that her  another website http://www.multistalkervictims.org is unaccessible..On the conversation below the news  , I felt ,  it could be manipulation from  secret service,  or some other similar organization. I have opinion that ordinary readers of “Above top Secret” do not have opinions, that majority of comments concerning Eleanor White’s website were.  Anyway I was able to save couple of her last documents from her old website.  They are my website bits and pieces area.

Especially her document about electronic countermeasures I feel, is important. Everybody does not have to make same experiments that she has done, because the results are documented. Perhaps Eleanor found something important and was then eliminated. I have done same observation that faradays cage does not stop signal, but water, or liquid  near the head does make the signal weaker. So it is not ordinary frequency modulated , or amplitude modulated radio signal, but something new.

20^th of July.  Last night, there were heavy pain, on right eye, after eight p.m. I went to sleep early. I was awakened after three a.m. so I got sleep about five hours, which is not catastrophic, although it is not enough. In the morning there were a kind of pinching feeling on center of the skull, once a while. Lunchtime there were a repetitive voice attack on left ear.  They succeeded partly to make it sensitive for noise.  On evening about quarter to nine started a pain on side of my right eye.

21^st.of July. They awakened me after two a.m. and uncomforted my left ear, they had made sensitive for noise earlier. I got about four hours of sleep. After six a.m. they started a heavy pain on  right temple of my head.  The pain was feeling always I moved my mouth eating, speaking etc.

26^th. of July. They awakened me after midnight, and kept awake with pains and talking. However I got sleep about one hour in the morning. I believe I slept two hours.

27^th of July. I went to sleep early, after nine p.m. They awakened me first after ten p.m. and after several times.  After two p.m. I did not get sleep at all. I believe I slept about three hours.

28^th of July. They awakened me couple of times on night, but because I was very tired, I was able to fell asleep again.  I believe I got about normal sleep.

29^th. of July. They awakened me around three a.m. with a kind of burning point on center of my head. I f I moved my head, the pain disappeared, but it found me again, after a minute or  two. I remember, they have used this kind of torture, couple of times before also. I did not get sleep after. I slept perhaps three hours that night.

30^th of July. I went to sleep after midnight. They awakened me before four a.m.  and started repetitive voices  on left ear. I got  a bit sensitive, but I put my left ear on ground side, and in the morning there were no special feeling on ear.  They also threaded me, that they will kill me, because I am not useful for them anymore. Another threat was that "before you have had only boys sauna, now you will ha men’s sauna” . Later in the morning, they kind of changed side, and warned about unknown people that knock the door. I believe that the purpose for all that , was just to get me afraid. I am bit worried still, because Eleanor White from Canada, has disappeared, and her website is diminished.

31^st. of July. I  got about five hours, or less sleep last night. They used all kinds of pains, among verbal manipulation, to disturb my sleep. After started more permanent pain on temples of my head. On the evening, it became a pain on the right eye. They told me that army use every person on fully. They will use my body for experimentation until my death. I hope this, was only intimidation.

2^nd. of  August. They awakened me several times, and disturbed my proper sleep. However I got sleep about four or five hours. After one o’clock a.m. There started shooting pain on right temple of head. Before two a.m. , they got me into fast sleep . that lasted some minutes.

3^rd. of August. I slept about one hour. They let me understand, that it was a revenge for that I put Eleanor White’s paper on website. In the morning they told that Eleanor White is dead. I hope it is not true. On night they used pains  and all kinds of tricks, among the talk, to keep me awake. A new kind of trick was, that they made my breathing difficult. I got feeling that air was no good. However with oximeter, I found that I had enough oxygen on my blood. In the morning about twenty past ten a.m. There were a sudden heavy pain on right side front of the head, that went fast  away.

5^th. of August. I went ot sleep, about half past ten p.m.  They awakened after three a.m.  After they used all kinds of pains, and manipulation, to keep me awake. I slept between three and four hours.

8^th of August. I used hand massager on my neck to stop their itching on my head.  Their revenge was a sudden sharp pain on left side, I believe in heart.

9^th. of August.  They awakened me after two o’clock a.m.  and kept awake until six a.m.  I resisted their manipulation, by massaging my neck couple of times, with hand massager  - the procedure, I have found gives some relieve. After six , they let me to sleep,  but awakened around nine a.m.  I believe I got four or five hours of sleep.  On the morning, they started a pain on the right eye that continued until evening.

10^th. of August.  They told that they have “sauna” for me. When I went to bed, they started a pain on center of the head. It was on large area, feeling like head was sleeping on sharp stones.  They gave different explanations what they were doing. They told that I have my mathematical ability, but my ability to express myself with words, will be weaker.  They also told that in morning, my vision would have trouble. I would see all the things with two. They disturbed my sleep many ways, but because I did not have to go to work, I had enough sleep.

11^th. of August.  They awakened me about five times on night. They told same story as before, that my mathematical ability, will not change, but I will lose some ability to express myself with words. I calculated that this is what they want me to be afraid. What will happen in reality is different thing.

12^th of  August. They awakened me after two o’clock, and kept awake until six a.m.  I massaged my neck couple of times, for trying to get some relieve, for their manipulation. I got sleep about three hours. I awakened with heavy pain on forehead, that later became a pain on right eye, that continued on afternoon.

13^th of August. I awakened with half past three a.m.  for burning feeling on left side of forehead, just above the right eye, my shield, I use when I am sleeping  – was open, and they were making wound  there.  I covered it, and after they started a normal attack, a different pains, tingling sensations on head, and verbal manipulation.  I got perhaps two hours of sleep, after six a.m. , but after nine a.m. they started again backache and verbal manipulation.  Of course they irritated the wound they have made, above the left  eye,  all the morning. In the evening after eight p.m. started pain on right eye that continued until night, They also threaded that I will have a “smoke sauna”.

14^th. of august.  I got some ugly  manipulation of my body on sauna, but otherwise I got normal sleep, usual itching and verbal manipulation in morning.

15^th. of August. Start of the week torture. Night went unclear. I awakened after three a.m.  and I got sleep about three hours. After nine a.m. on work , they started a very unpleasant pain above the right eye.  that disappeared afternoon about one o’clock p.m. Before two o’clock a.m. they started repetitive voices, that ended soon.

16^th of  August. They let me sleep about one hour, and started after pains and manipulation. Actually they caused that I did not feel sleepy. I decided to write this chapter end , and put it into net, and check it later after I have got proper sleep, and correct the  mistakes, and put hyperlinks, to get it to more readable condition.

On my previous writing 17th. of April, I described  how people in United States are not equal before the law.

The Human Rights Watch has asked Obama administration to start  criminal investigation   for George Bush, and his senior administrative officials about ordering torture.

 So far There are no news for start of  any criminal  investigation for that case. Also American mainstream  media  has ignored this Human Rights Watch report,  British quality newspapers like Guardian, and some other less commercial  news media have however  published the news.. It Is like invisible hand had stopped  not only criminal  investigation, but  also publicity , that there is a need for such investigation.

 It is interesting to know, how this “invisible hand” is operated, but even more interesting is to know what other dirty matters  this “invisible hand” has stopped,.Cases from we do not know anything at all.  It is very  important for public to became aware of the existence of such “invisible hand”, that stops police for investigating and cause  prosecutor for not prosecute crimes , and stops also media for writing one word about this.

Most of the American people  support the  principle that everybody is equal before the law, but  when comes need to implement this principal in real world  - and the  person who had commit crime is former president of United States -  all that legal machinery just halt.

 This is not the only case, when police does not investigate and prosecutor fails to prosecute, and media is silent for matter . Other similar crimes one can find by studying history, how illegal human experiments are prosecuted in United States.

Third of July .2011 11.30 p.m. The  main difference for earlier months, is that they primarily try to deactivate me. They awaken me several times of night, but often let me sleep after. I  have found that massaging the neck works as a kind of reset of their manipulation. I believe their in implant is somewhere between nose and ears and teeth., and vibration causes temporary interference for it.

19^th. of April. They awakened me at least three times this  night. After four  o’clock a.m. I did not get sleep. I believe I slept about three hours.

20^th. of April They  got me awake me after four o’clock  a.m. I slept about four hours. Later they had rather heavy verbal manipulation, especially on morning. Whole day were occasional itching and sharp shooting pains, example pain in my  right eye on half past eight.

22^nd. of April. I went to sleep late, about midnight.  They awakened me after four a.m. and started a pain on the right eye, verbal manipulation, and also caused pain on my  side right, and on my neck. This caused, that I got no sleep after. Pain on the right eye continued for a  whole day.

24^rd. of April. They allowed me to sleep about five hours. Daytime there were some pains, mostly on forehead, and heavy verbal manipulation. After six p.m. they put me on fast sleep, and after I woke up, they started strong continuous pain on forehead. About quarter to nine p.m. they started to manipulate my heartbeat. Pain on the forehead continued whole evening.

25^th. of April. They let me sleep about five hours. In the morning there were a pain on forehead and  a sore neck, that I massaged out with my hand-massager. The pain on the forehead, moved later on to my right eye, and diminished on afternoon. These sore points came several times on this day, and several times I massaged them out.

26^th. of  April. They awakened me several times on  night, and tried to start verbal  manipulation. However I believe, that I got about five hours of sleep. In the morning they started again pain on the right side of my head. It made my working on the office, not very effective.

27^th.  of April. Start of the week  type torture. I did not sleep at all. About two o’clock a.m. hey made an experiment that for me felt like a light-bulb had lighten up in front of my right eye. My theory is that it is someway connected to that they try to translate thinking that is not verbal. I have found that they at least some times they do not understand my nonverbal thinking. They have went over it by access the mechanism that cause the victim to verbalize his thinking. I have found that they made errors when they try to guess what I am doing. Other possibility is that they just want to cause artificial visual effects.

Quarter after three p.m. they disturbed my work in the office, by causing pain on the right temple of my head. Half past five I found a different pain, that felt on head especially when coughing.

28^th.  of April. I got about five hours of sleep. They awakened me at four o’clock  a.m. On daytime, I got  a kind of shrinking feeling on the head , and pains here and there. They put me  also  fast sleep several times on day and evening. On the afternoon they started a pain on forehead, that became  very serious after seven p.m. , very much like after sauna torture. After eight p.m. I founded several sore points on my neck , especially on left side. I massaged them out, even thought it was very painful. After that,  the headache diminished.

29^th. of April. I awakened me after three o’clock a.m. I got about four hours of sleep. The neck had some sore points, but it was better than day before.

30^th. of April. I got about normal amount of sleep, but in the morning, I awakened headache on fore head. I also found that fore head felt abnormally cold. They told me that they are “filming” my forehead. Apparently this  was cause, that they disturbed blood circulation on my forehead. After wakeup I massaged my neck where was several sore points. Perhaps “filming” ended for that, because the headache diminished.

1^st- of May. I slept about four- five hours. In the morning there were headache on forehead, and it  felt cold. I found that on my neck there were several sore points especially on left side. I massaged them out with my massager, with very long time , and got most of them out.     

2^nd. of May. They awakened me after three o’clock a.m. I got sleep about four hours this night. In the morning there were occasional pains and itching on the head here and there. This continued with heavy verbal manipulation whole morning.

3^rd. of May. They awakened me after two o’clock a.m. I slept about three hours this night. After awakening there were heavy verbal manipulation , and some itching on the head.

4^th. of May. I went to sleep early, about eight o’clock p.m. They awakened me before ten p.m. After I did not get sleep.

8^th. of  May. I got about five hours of sleep for some days. Yesterday they caused a sudden tiredness, I was nearly unconscious, so I went to sleep without usual protection on my head. I believed that they let me sleep hour or two, before they turn the tiredness off, and start manipulation. This is their usual way to work.

Apparently the perpetrators used opportunity, that I am sleeping without protection, and they let me sleep about eight hours. In the morning opening of the day  talk they told  that Canada will arrange a new election because of some members of parliament will find that they are mind controlled, their thinking is read and manipulated.

Of course if some members of Canadian parliament are manipulated electronically or their thinking  is listened , perhaps my perpetrators do not have information about it - and even if they have information, they certainly do not tell me about it. Still   their basic claim, that some members of Canadian parliament are electronically manipulated, could be true.  Another interesting question is, how to find out truth on this matter. The secret of electronic mind manipulation lays somewhere in secret files, where most of the members of Canadian parliament  perhaps do   not have access.

9-11 of May. I got proper sleep. Some verbal manipulation, sore neck and fast sleep on daytime.

12^th. of May. I got three hours of sleep. They awakened me once a while, and after two o’clock a.m. I did not get any sleep. Sore points on neck have diminished. Apparently they have ended  this experiment, for a while at least.

13^th. of May. Very similar night, than night before.  They awakened me several times, and after two o’clock a.m. I did not get sleep at all. They used headache,  and pain on back among other things to keep awake. I slept about two or three hours. They also caused, that I do not feel very tired. I believe although that three hours sleep is not good for my health. There were no sore points on neck. For this collection of sore points, they have given  very horrifying name “devil’s   necklace”. So I live in hope this is really ended. At the morning ,  they started a pain on side of the  right eye.It was more or less constant whole day.

14^th. of May. It is very hard to say how much I slept, I believe about three hours. They have caused, that I do not feel tired, but my feeling is not normal also. They used all the tricks to keep me awake, pains talking etc. This is a third day on row, that I got only two or three hours of sleep.

16^th. of May.  They starter manipulation of me about two o’clock a.m. I did not get sleep after that. They were very merciless, and told that they will “drive” me so long time I could be used  for something. I got sleep about two hours this night.

In the morning there were sore points on neck, I tried to massage out. The massaging helps for some moments. I believe that there is implant somewhere on my head, and vibration of  hand-held massager cuts the manipulation for a moment. After wakeup started also a pain above the right eye. It ended about ten o’clock a.m. and later  started occasional pains and itching, mostly on forehead. There were also a kind of pinching feeling on the head, a quarter after ten. Later they got me unconscious , “fast sleep” for some minutes. When I woke , there were some trembling of hands, and my heart was beating very fast.

17^th. of May. They awakened me several times at night. In the morning I did not feel very sleepy.  It is impossible to say how much I slept. They told me that they have developed a new “sleeplike state”, where person does not have to get real sleep at all. I guess that they test with me, what side effects their new “sleeplike state” has  on mind and body. Perhaps they try to artificially do same thing that sleep does on person’s mind. I n the morning started a pain on the right eye.

18^th. of May. I slept about normal amount, although I was awakened several times. In the morning there was a pain on the right eye, that later diminished ,and started occasional pains, mostly on left side, and back of the head.  On the afternoon, after four o’clock p.m. there were shrinking and pinching feelings on left side and center of the head.

19^th of May. They awakened me several times. After three o’clock a.m. they did not let me sleep. They started a pain on the right eye, that I tried to cover with my hands, with poor results. I slept about three or four hours. In the morning, pain on the right eye eased, but it became later again very strong. Pain felt whole morning, until noon. After noon started a different,  occasional pinching on the head.

20^th. of May. I went to sleep early last night.  I was awakened on hour or two hours intervals whole night. After three o’clock a.m. I did not get sleep. I estimate, I slept four hours. After nine o’clock a.m., started a rather strong pain on the right eye, and continued a whole morning.

21^st. of May. They got me very sleepy after eight o’clock p.m. I went to early sleep. After midnight I was awakened, and did not feel sleepy at all. I made some sandwiches and tea, and did some work. After I went to sleep again. I was awakened after two or three hours. I believe that this way I got about five hours of sleep that night.

22^nd. of May. I felt very tired, so I went to sleep after nine p.m. They awakened me around midnight. Because I did not feel tired at all, and I did not have to go to work, I was awake at six o’clock a.m. I went to sauna, and felt to sleepy again. On this time they spoke about “smoke-sauna”.

Sometimes on sleep they awakened me, and caused some way high irritation on lungs. This caused heavy cough on long time. However I got sleep again, and slept about eleven a.m. On evening there was heavy attack on right  eye, that felt whole right side of the head. I was able to partly ease the pain, by massaging my neck with handheld massager.

25^th. of May. They awakened me at two o’clock a.m. After I got a short sleep, and had a  dream.  I keep possible, that they hypnotized me. They told that they would “lose” , but they will not go down alone. They also told,using metaphor, that “They have closed the toiled, and nobody gets out without a good plumber”.

26^th. of May. They awakened me again, after two o’clock a.m. Perhaps this is the time of start “cancer-station graveyard shift”  as they call themselves. They used backache, pinching on head etc. to keep me awake. They told that they make me “poorer” every day. They also told that massaging the neck makes my cochlear dark, and they are waiting for that, before they stop experimenting. This message was somehow unclear for me. This night I also got some nausea. They  told that reason to keep me awake on night is, that they are studying my body functions. In the morning after ten a.m. there were occasional shooting pains on head, that continued whole day. I believe that pain caused several mistakes, I made on my work. Of course the lack of sleep, would partly  be cause of these mistakes

27^th. of May. I went to sleep early, about eight o’clock p.m. They awakened me around ten p.m. After I did not get sleep before about four a.m. I did everything I know, to disturb their manipulation. Morse code, and massaging my neck. Perhaps the tiredness and  vibration of head, by massaging caused interference, their manipulation, that caused that I got a sleep about one hour more, before I had to go to work. Now I have slept two or three hours on night on row of several nights.

29^th. of May. They awakened me around nine a.m. and started talking. I found that they manipulated my speech by using secretary, and I told them that. After that they started a burning pain on back of the head. It was a very sharp precise area, where they caused the pain. I defended myself with water backs, which I  used to cover the painful area. Later on the morning they caused shooting pains, mostly back of the head.

30^th. of May. They awakened me several times on night, and tried to keep me awake with their usual tricks. However, because I did not have to go to work, but I was able to sleep longer, I got five hours sleep or more. I did a lot of Morse-code, to make their manipulation boring. They used a new kind of pain they had developed, to keep me awake. It was pain on  side of the fingers. this pain  they used more or less whole day and  evening.  . The pain disappeared by moving painful fingers on cloth, but comes back after some seconds.

1^st. of June. They awakened me before two o’clock a.m.  This was, because I was travelling, and without any kind of shield. I had oximeter with me, and my heartbeat was abnormally low, about fifty beats at minute. This was a kind of odd, because my oxygen intake was also low, under 90. Usually if oxygen intake goes low, heart starts to beat faster.

2^nd. of June. I got sleep about six hours last night. In the morning started a pain on the right eye, that continued rather strong, whole rest of  the  day.

4^th. of June. They awakened me several times on night.  On afternoon after three  o’clock p.m. , started a very heavy headache on forehead.  I found by massaging that they were disturbing blood flow of arteries on both side of neck. The effect was very similar than after sauna torture, the only difference is that they did it before I went  to sauna.

5^th. of June. In the morning when I was awakened, I felt some nausea, and my forehead felt cold. When I woke up and started to massage my veins, I found that they had partly blocked my veins both side of neck, and my blood had difficuolties to flow on my forehead. After a very long session of painful massage of neck, with strong handheld massager, they suddenly gave up, and sore points of neck diminished. Their explanation ,for what had happened was “doctors lost their nerves”.  After the pain on neck was diminished, also headache diminished. So it was a kind of “after sauna torture” also.

On the evening the pain was moved to right eye, It continued with more or less intense itching on my head. The positive sign is that they have not threaded to kill me, like they did on Friday night.

6^th. of June. They awakened me after midnight, and tried to start talking.  Second awakening was after three o’clock a.m.  After I did not get sleep. They caused a pain on left side of my forehead. They also told me that “ Lady in dressed black will come to meet you”. I interpreted it as a masked thread of death.

On the evening half past seven p.m. pain on the forehead, became a pain on side of the right eye. It was hurting , especially when eating etc. On same time there is a pain also on the center of the head.

7^th. of June. They awakened me after three o’clock a.m. After I did not get sleep. They used sharp pain on center of the head, and also some nausea, among talking – to keep me awake. I got sleep about four hours.

8^th. of June. I got about normal amount of  sleep,  but in the morning started a very strong pain  on the right eye, that continued to noon.

11^th. of June. They made me very sleepy on the evening.. I went to bed after ten p.m.  I was awakened after three o’clock a.m. They started itching on the head, and verbal manipulation.  I am not sure,  if I got sleep at all,.after that. I  believe; I slept between four and five hours.

13^th. of June. They awakened me after two o’clock a.m. They did not let me sleep, rest of the night. They used verbal manipulation, and some pains on head – among other things -  to keep me awake.

14^th. of June. They awakened me after two o’clock a.m. I believe that this is the usual  time when “cancer station graveyard shift” as they have identified themselves -  starts their work.  

They used a kind of shrinking feeling on middle of the head, and occasionally pain on fingers, to keep awake. I believe, I slept about three hours this night.

15^th. of June. They awakened me several times. After two o’clock a.m. , I did not get sleep at all. They did not use exactly pains, but rather odd feeling on left side of forehead, to keep me awake. By massaging my neck, I got it diminished, but it came back soon. I slept perhaps three hours this night too. On the morning I fell “fast sleep” after seven a.m. When I awakened, my body was trembling. After seven o’clock news on evening, I got another fast sleep, but this time I was not trembling, when I awakened.

16^th. of June. I was awakened about ten times. I cannot say, how much I slept, but it was not normal sleep. In the night they told that the first “pizza gang ” got some profit for me, but second did not get very much. I want to put this record, because before that they have sometimes told me that there is a kind of co-operative , behind my torture, that “owns” me collectively. This ”pizza gang” , they spoke yesterday,  fits for earlier told co-op story.

19^th of June. They started a pain on the right eye, about yesterday noon. The pain continued whole night , except about half hour break on morning.  On this pause, the  perpetrators promised to bring flowers on my grave. After the pain continued whole morning, until about noon.

20^th.  of  June. I slept barely five hours.

21^st. of June. I went to sleep early. I was awakened many times, after hour sleep or so. About two o’clock as usual,  came “Cancer station graveyard shift” as they call themselves. After that I could not get sleep. Besides of usual verbal manipulation, they used all kind of pains, on side, on head and even tickling, to keep me awake. They also caused that I did not feel very sleepy.  I did not feel sleepy. Still I am sure, this amount of sleep , I got, is not good for my health.

About quarter to eleven a.m. they started pain on the side of the right temple.

22^nd. of June. Again they awakened me several times on night. After three o’clock a.m I did not get sleep. I believe got sleep about three hours. About half past five a.m. started a pain on the right temple.

23^rd. of June. I got pretty normal sleep yesterday. I was awakened just once, last night, after one o’clock a.m. When I woke up, I got a pain on the right temple again. However I found that this pain is different than pains before. Later on I found myself, that I was abnormally aggressive. So perhaps the pain was just, side effect for something that caused aggressive behavior for me. Their comment for my thinking, what they had done was metaphor “We still got you to crying”.

24^th. of June. Actually I slept pretty good  last night, five hours at least.  In  the afternoon,  they started  pains and itching on various parts of my head. After eight o’clock p.m. started a pain on forehead, left side.  I put a shield on my head. They started pain on both eyes. Also pain on forehead continued.

25^th of June. When I went to sleep, there were really strong pain on my right eye. I got some sleep, after I shielded the eye with my hand. I was awakened about five  o’clock a.m.  I had a feeling, that I could not get enough air. The air felt kind of bitter. I remember, this has happened for me,  a  couple of times  earlier also.

I put oxi-meter on my wrist, and air started to feel normal to breath. However, after that experience, I could not get sleep. Sleeping did not come easier that perpetrators caused all kinds of pains, and kept talking on whole time. On day, there were no itching, but rather a mild headache. They called for that, they did for me night “blood filming” . The meaning of this expression has not opened for me. What it actually means , is unclear. Are they filming for  blood, or filming with blood ?  Some other time they call it for lungs filming. This term does not either  give me any idea, what is actually happening.

I am not sure, if I was awake, or sleeping, on some kind of hypnotic state, but I got an  image of a small spider or compatible animal, crawling on edge of glass. The picture was clear, and full of details, Actually I could not recognize that sharp picture, on  my photos, or my eyes.

27^th. of June. Night was very unclear.  I believe, I slept about three  hours, but in small  pieces. After three o’clock a.m. I could not get  sleep.  In the morning there were usual itching here and there.

2^nd. of July. Pain on forehead, hairline started before I went to bed. I got some sleep, but after three hours, I awakened, and there was that pain on hairline again. I put about ten centimeter thick waterbuck over my head. It worked, but they continued with other pains and verbal manipulation. I did not get sleep after, so my sleep on that night was around three hours.. In the morning were pains ant itching here and there, that later became pain on the right eye, that continued late night.

Now United States and  Canadian Armies  have  admitted that they are developing machine that can read people’s  thoughts. The ultimate goal ,perhaps developing a  machine that can change people’s thoughts, and way ,  how they are experimenting with humans, are still secret.

This what happened on journalists, is just one example, what could be possible. Actually this was not avery good example, because victims and listeners found that they were manipulated. This same is perhaps happened for some politicians, for milder form. Actually for me, they do not experiment with this kind of trivial jamming  of brain, but rather they  selectively block memory, and try to change verbal output of thoughts.

Glen Greenwald has found same that I wrote in previous  piece of my diary. Laws in United States have not so much meaning, because they are implemented selectively, depending person’s position in the  country. Canada has the  same syndrome. One symptom of syndrome is the case of Duplessis orphan’s I made a collection of links on my alternative history area.

There are several youtube-videos about  mind control. This one, I feel, is very well done. 

17.4.2011 10.50 p.m.  My previous writing ended on 26th. of February.  Perhaps the most significant difference compared the time for month before,  is more intensive daytime manipulation.  Heavy verbal manipulation, that ends  feeling physical felling ,  that there is wound on the head, had started again.  Lack of the sleep remains my main problem. I found that even the early Lida  electronic mind-manipulation machines, were able to get person asleep, and also keep person awake.

28^th. of February.  I went to sleep after eleven p.m. and they awakened me after one a.m. After I did not get sleep. Besides usual things they do to keep me awake, they also caused cramps, to my left leg . I slept something between one and two hours. This is possible, because previous night I got about five hours of sleep.

First   of March. I went to  bed early about nine p.m. , and I slept until three a.m. about five hours.

2^nd. of March. They awakened me first time, around midnight. Second awakening was two o’clock a.m. Third awakening was between three and four a.m.  After I was awakened again half past four, I went up from bed. I believe I slept around four hours. Next day there were several fast sleeps on work where I fell asleep for some seconds or minutes.

4^th.  of  March. They awakened me around four or five times. I got sleep perhaps  four  hours.

5^th. of March. They caused sudden tiredness at  nine p.m. I went to sleep and awakened around three a.m. I got sleep around 4-5 hours.

8^th. of March. They awakened me several times, but I believe I finally got sufficient amount of sleep. Daytime they abnormally much itching on the head, and heavy verbal manipulation.

10^th. of March. They started with a kind of body trembling. Later sometimes on night they caused feeling, that the air was difficult to breathe. It felt very dry. I still got some sleep, although they awakened me several times. Again on daytime there were abnormally much itching on the head, and heavy verbal manipulation.

12^th. of March. They awakened me around four a.m. After some fight, I got sleep again. I got sleep five hours or more this night. On daytime they got me fast sleep, and after second awakening there were some trembling of body, so I believe they did me something while I was on fast sleep. Pain on the right eye started on evening and continued next night.

13^th of March. Despite of the pain on right eye, I got some sleep. In the morning, when I woke up, the pain was diminished. On morning there were more serious itching on the head than normally.

14^th. of March. On night they awakened me twice. After second awakening, I massaged my head, and after I got some sleep. In the morning there were heavy verbal manipulation, and they  caused wound on forehead left side about half past seven a.m. In the morning there were pains also on side of the right eye.

15^th. of March. They awakened me around two a.m., and next time around four a.m. It is difficult to say, how much I got sleep. I believe it was between three and five hours. In the morning, while I was on the buss traveling to work, they started repetitive voices. I got out without damage, by starting loud music on my earphones.

16^th. of March. In the morning started pain around the right eye, and continued whole morning. The pain was more sore, when eating or speaking etc.

17^th.  of March. They awakened me around three a.m. I did not get sleep after. I slept between three and four hours. In the morning about eleven a.m. started pain above the right eye,  that continued lunchtime. The pain was feeling especially when eating or speaking.

18^th. of March. They awakened me three or four times. However, because I went to sleep early, and I was really tired, I got about four or five hours of sleep. Daytime there were several sudden shocking pains mostly on left side of the head, and - like day before-  in the morning there were pain above the right eye. Only difference was , that it started hour earlier than day before.

20^th. of March. Very heavy itching on various parts of the head, started in the morning, and went worse during the afternoon. I had to have protective clothing around my head, and I try to keep my chin on move , to make their torture less effective

21^st. fo March. They used sharp pointed heavy pain, on the center of the head, to keep me awake. I was able to make it weaker, but it was heavy enough to keep me awake. They also used other tricks to keep me awake. In the morning, when I asked reason on the pain, they answered with metaphor “we have to get the switchblade out of your hands”, as an explanation for what they did.

22^nd. of March. They awakened me five times during the night, but because I went to sleep early, I was able to sleep about five  hours.

23^rd.of March. They awakened me  several times after two a.m., and used sharp pain on the center of the head, and itching, among verbal manipulation, to keep me awake.

24^th.  of  March. They awakened me after tree a.m. and started repetitive voices on the left ear. I usually defend myself for repetitive voices, by listening loud music, with  earphones, but this time I did not get my mp3 player to work. Before I got out of bed, they got my left ear sensitive for certain frequencies of noise. Because I went to bed early, I got about five hours of sleep. In the morning started permanent itching on wide area on left side center of the head. Later on the itching  started feeling much like wound,  and ended on late afternoon.

25^th of March. They awakened me around half past one a.m. and after I did not get sleep. They tried to comfort me, that there are much worse cases on army human experimentation archives. They have terrorized me over thirty years, but I believe they speak true for this case. It is very difficult one to understand what kind cases of horrors these secret archives are hiding. People that are treated worse than test animals , before they are killed.

26^th. of March.  Last night they awakened me before five a.m. After I did not get sleep, I was not very sleepy also. Perhaps they used Lida machine type effect to keep me awake . On the other hand I slept about five hours.

27^th. of March. On night They told similar safe house story that they  have told before, except that this time, the safe house was not Russia, but somewhere else. I am curious,  what  would have happened, if I had reacted positive. Stories to get me “safe place” while the arrest of criminals starts, I believe nothing at all.

28^th. of March. They awakened me several times for night, but I got sleep perhaps five hours. On evening after seven o’clock p.m. They  started strong itching on left side of the head. I  tried what I can, little move of  head whole the time, listening music, doing morse code - still they got wound on the left side of my head.

I tried to put steel wool over the place of wound, it caused weaker  itching, and tinning voice on both ears. The frequency was lower, but  volume was higher on left ear, compared to right one. This continued some hours.

29^th. of March. I slept normally, but the wound on left side of head did hurt still. There were not sore points on my neck for some times, but now they appeared again. I massaged them out. Shooting pains, mostly on right side of head, started after nine a.m. and increased on afternoon, and continued in  evening.

30^th. of March. On work, coffee time afternoon, they blocked my memory, so that I did not remember certain words, and I had difficulties to tell my story.

31^st. of March. They awakened me after two a.m. After they used itching, and pains on the center of the head. I slept about two hours.

1^st. of April. I went to sleep after nine p.m.  They awakened me couple of times between night. After three o’clock a.m. I did not get any sleep. I slept between four and five hours.

2^nd. of April. I got about normal sleep. In the morning between six and seven a.m. They made a wound on my head on left side back of the head.

4^th. of April. Start of the week torture. I slept perhaps hour. They caused my neck feeling cold, despite that I tried to keep it worm with warm clothes. In the morning my neck was sore on left side, I massaged it several times during the night. They also manipulated my heart in the morning, and caused very fast heartbeat and some pains on heart.

In the evening, after six p.m. during the verbal manipulation, they told that they will stop the torture when they have “finished” their job. I asked them what this “finishing” means.  They answered that they will not kill me but they will put me in condition that I cannot cause harm for anybody. After seven p.m. they made another wound on this time left side front of the head.

5^th. of April.  I went to sleep after nine o’clock p.m. They awakened me after three a.m.  Sometimes on night, there was a period, I awakened because I had turn off my c-pap machine, and I awakened a mask on my head, without air-flow. After three a.m.  they started heavy verbal manipulation, and caused some itching on the head, so I decided to get up from bed. In the afternoon, there were itching on the center of the head.

6^th. of April. On night they awakened me at least three times, perhaps more. After every awakening they tried to start conversation. I believe I got sleep four or five hours. In the morning around eleven a.m. There were some itching on left side of my head. There were also some occasional shooting pains on forehead right side. On the evening the occasional pains around my head continued.  In addition there was a permanent pain on right side front of the head.

7^th. of April. Pain on the right side front of the head moved into right eye. They awakened me after midnight, and I did not get sleep after. They used cold neck,  that they have used this week, to keep me awake. I slept about two hours before midnight.

10^th. of April. Ninth and tenth of April were very similar. In the morning was some itching, and later started pain on  side of right eye, that later moved on  right eye. Pain ended a while, but started again on evening. Itching and verbal manipulation continued whole day.

12^th. of April. I awakened pain on the side of my right eye. After I did not get sleep.  Besides pain, they used itching on various part of head, and verbal manipulation to keep me awake.  The pain on  my eye, continued after noon.

13^th. of April. They made a wound on left side front of the head in the morning, It was still feeling quite strong, in the evening, and continued to night.

14^th. of April. For a long time, I felt that I got normal sleep. I slept around eight hours or more. In the morning started verbal manipulation, and itching on the head quite strong.

15^th. of April. When I went to sleep, there were some manipulation to keep me awake; they used feeling of cold, among other things to keep me awake. However I got sleep, and slept again about normal seven hours, for second time in row. In the morning, they told that they will go away, and let me alone. How ever during the day, normal itching on head, and verbal manipulation continued, so it was just normal “opening of day”. However their tone of speech has changed on lately. They more often “have not time to work with me” and “they are tired, to work with me”. I feel  this is  a positive sign.

17^th. of April. They awakened me after eight and told, that electronic mind control experiments are ended. Mind-reading equipment became public, and all the victims, which they called  “sentenced to death” are to be freed. Also those victims that are  in mental hospitals that suddenly start to get well.

Unfortunately this was not true, but “opening of the day”  dramatic story they tell usually in the morning, when victim is half asleep, so that his judgment is not sharp. The morning continued small wound they made in back left side of the head, and repeating voices, that I had some trouble to eliminate.

 The story was not true, but reality what is our situation, is true. We are in “terminating human experiments”, similarly as those radiation experimentation victims that were murdered by radiation experiments. Those of us ,which  are closed in mental institutions, are in much worse situation than others.

 On Nazi-concentration camps,  some of the victims, tried to document the reality of concentration camps by paintings. Similarly one of the victims, Eleanor White document reality of mind-control victims by comic-trip. This comic-trip shows one victim experimented even while dying for  cancer, which also was probably side-effect of electronic mind-control.

Afternoon, about ten past six p.m. they  started very heavy pain  on the left side of head.

On 3.1.2011 diary entry I wrote legal aspects of torture during George Bush presidency, and how I came to conclusion people in United States have no equal rights before the law. The case has since evolved.

George Bush had to cancel his trip to Switzerland, because human rights activist threatened him for arrest warrant for all countries that have signed convention against torture.

On the other hand, it is  clear that Obama administration is not willing to prosecute George Bush, and others responsible of torture. Instead it is working -  as this Mother Jones article show – to protect Bush officials  for criminal investigation in overseas for their in establishing policies the that governed the   torture of detained terrorist suspects. The actual wikileaks document, that Mother Jones magazine uses as a source is here.

As well  Canada, as United States, the problems of  legal system lies in whole chain of command from police forces  which  should investigate crimes - to prosecuting attorney -and finally court of justice.

Similarly  as RCMP in Canada, the police-organization that usually is responsible for political terror in USA, is FBI. Cointelpro documents show how  police gave perjured testimony and presented fabricated evidence as a pretext for false arrests and wrongful imprisonment, among the other tricks of political terror in United States

George Bush case show that  federal prosecutors do  prosecute criminals selectively, depending their position in society. Some are prosecuted their crimes while who have committed similar crimes are   not prosecuted.

Finally on court of justice: the term of crime is dependent position of  participants. The radiation experiments, I mentioned above works as an example. They were actually a  mass-murders, where victims were murdered by radiation, to find out, how much radiation human can stand , before he dies. These crimes were  labeled as “medical treatments ” on court of justice.

 Two-party political system has a bad track record for preserving human rights and freedom of speech, of racial, political, and religious minorities. There are numerous examples, where people are oppressed  and discriminated because of   their origin or because of their beliefs.

26.2.2011.  7.30 p.m. I ended  my previous writing on third of January 2011. The main difference for December happenings is, that pain on the  right side of chest has ended. Actually it stopped after I put my last writing into Internet. I believe these two things have causality and I am happy, that  somebody reads my diary after all.

I have  found that the  perpetrators have different talk on daytime, and on  nighttime. Daytime perpetrators, talk that my torture will end soon, but nighttime perpetrators are prepared to torture me until my death.

My main concerns now are sore points on neck, which often stay away on workweek, but come back on weekend. The other concern is sleep, which  the perpetrators try to cut for minimum, and often   succeed.

  After I put my last diary to internet, on third of January, I went to sleep. My forehead felt extremely cold. The  room temperature was normal, and I had a cloth over my forehead, to keep it warm. The perpetrators told me that “You  have tried to take too big piece, and You have to pay for it”.  I believe that they did disturb my blood flow on forehead. The effect is quite similar than “After sauna torture”,  and also headache on forehead that followed,  was very similar. In the morning I found sore points on neck,  especially on left side of neck. I massaged them out , with my handheld massager. They did not like it and cave a kind of electric shock on heart. Later the headache on forehead continued, but moved more towards  ache on right eye. The ache went weaker after noon, and later diminished.

4^th. of January. I got some sleep, although there were pains on the side of body,  I slept, and they were all  of the time trying to start verbal manipulation. They also caused short sharp pains on the heart. I believe I slept about three hours. Actually they awakened me at five a.m. That is a proper time to awake. They told me that they will not torture me any more, but try to just keep company, and talk on friendly meaning. For a moment I believed that I will get same friendly supportive talking, that diplomats got, when they were manipulated around 1970. . However, as I was afraid, half past seven, they started itching on left side front of the head, so I realized, that their torture will continue same brutal manner than before.

This is a very typical way , how they awake me. They call it morning opening. They talk something, usually positive, and something that is not true, when my senses are half sleep, that I do cannot really judge, if their talk is true or not.

The pain and itching left side of my forehead continued into evening.

5^th. of January. I believe that I did not get sleep at all, last night. If I slept, I slept hour or two. They did  all the normal things, to keep me awake, verbal talk, itching on head, pains on side, etc. Before I went to sleep, there were some sore points on neck, but in the morning was none. Also the persisted pain on the right side of chest, seem to have vanished.

7^th. of January. Last night, I believe that I did not sleep at all. If I slept it was under two hours. They used pains and talking to keep me awake, and succeeded. I had some difficulties of breathing. Breathing was very hard for some reason. On daytime there were occasional shooting pains on left side of the head.

8^th. of January. I slept about three hours. They awakened me about three a.m. and I did not get sleep after that. I found that they interfere my thinking on certain subjects. On example:  If my thinking start to come near  subject, what I should do, to stop torture, and get freedom, they fast start cut my  thinking by explaining their own opinion for subject. That way they are able to stop my thinking on the subject.

10^th. of January. They awakened me after three o’clock  a.m. After I did not get sleep. I slept about three or four hours.  About quarter to ten a.m.  there were a very dangerous feeling shooting pain on the right temple of the head.

11^th. of January. I do not know, if I slept at all. After three o’clock a.m. I am sure I did not sleep at all. Before midnight there were some sudden shocks to heart, but they did not cause any difficult situation.

12^th. of January. I went to sleep early, so I got some sleep, with help of  morse-code practice and loud music. The perpetrators  awakened me after three a.m. and started to talk “we do not go away from your head”. I promised them loud music, morse-code practice and head massage, which are activities that I know they do not like. They threaded to give me “cold treatment” , meaning that they disturb forehead blood-flow . It causes a cold feeling on forehead, and later a terrible headache.

I told them also, that if they get my head to a bad condition, I am not usable for them.  I also reminded them, that they are criminals, and I am a victim of their crimes, and not other way around. Their answer was that they will show me that I “cannot play with them” .

   After  four p.m. they started to cause  a very uneasy feeling on the back. About hour later came headache on front head that continued long in the evening.

13^th. of January.  I slept about three hours. They did their usual disturbance of sleep, especially very aggressive verbal manipulation.

14^th.  of January. Very similar night. I slept about three hours. They awakened me sometimes between midnight and three a.m. There were few sore points on neck, that I have massaged out on night, and morning -  however less than before.  I have found that they can diminish the sore point on some seconds, if they want,  so it must have something to do with manipulation. At quarter to eleven p.m. they threaded to put me “smoky sauna”. This kind of threats ,that are delivered for me , in form of  metaphors, are full of their talk on  every day.

15^th. of January. I got about normal sleep.

16^th. of January. I got about normal sleep also. About six p.m. there were some repetitive voices. For a  whole day was very strong verbal manipulation. Also I got sore points on neck and continuous itching on various points on my head. On  9.21 p.m. there were a sudden shock on the center of the head.

17^th. of January.  Last night they awakened me after two o’clock a.m. However I got some sleep after that..  There were some very heavy verbal manipulation, that became whispering after I started my work.  After seven p.m. there were a pain on the center of the head, along with heavy verbal manipulation. I resisted the pain with a bag of steel wool on head.

18^th.of  January. “Start of the week torture” . I believe I did not sleep at all this night, although I am not sure. They did not speak much, but kept me awake with other methods. On the neck there were no sore points, and on evening when  I went to bed, and some weak sore points on morning when I woke up.. I have found that often I am able to overcome their caused sudden tiredness, by massaging neck sore points. I listened a whole day loud music, and avoided to talk with perpetrators. The perpetrators told me that on time , when the mind-control machine is on public knowledge, I am a decomposed body, and they never will get punishment for their crimes.

I did not say anything, because I knew that what they wanted, was to start conversation on one way or other.

19^th of January. Last night they awakened me around ten times, but I felt that I slept about four hours. I was that tired , that I was able to caught sleep every time after they awakened me. In the morning they started a pain around the right eye.

20^th.  of January.  I got sleep about two hours.  They awakened me several times. After three o’clock a.m. I did not get sleep anymore. They used pains on head, and verbal manipulation, to keep me awake.

22^nd. of January. They awakened me around five o’clock  a.m. , and started a very aggressive verbal manipulation. However I was able to get sleep after. I got out of bed half past ten a.m.

In the morning, there were sore points on neck, that had stayed away for about a week.  I massaged them away, with my hand held massager. The pains around the right eye started on afternoon,  and weakened  after ten p.m.

24^th.  of January. They awakened me several times at night. After four o’clock  a.m. I did not get any sleep.  I believe that I slept between three and four hours, this night. In the morning there were sore points at neck, and pain started around the right eye. The pain on the eye eased at noon.

25^th. of January. I slept hour or less. They kept me awake with verbal manipulation. They also caused someway feeling that back of my head was  like full of little sharp  needles.

26^th. of January. Night started with occasional pains above the right eye,  starting nine p.m. I  went to sleep half past nine p.m.  They awakened me after ten p.m. and I was fresh, not sleepy at all,  and I  felt like it was morning. After looking the watch, I put the loud music on and started morse-code practice. I fell asleep again, and they awakened me next time  around two o’clock a.m. After that  I did not get sleep. Besides verbal manipulation they used pains on head , or exactly the scalp felt like some  thousand ants  were walking around it. I calculate, I slept something between three and four hours. On night before I went to sleep, there were some sore points on neck, but in the morning there were diminished. These sore points are someway connected to manipulation, but I am not sure how. Actually points are not sore, but for pressing or massaging the certain area  of neck, causes a sharp pain on somewhere on the head.

27^th. of January. Before I went to sleep, there were all kinds of itching around my head. I went to sleep after nine p.m. and slept about four a.m.  Relatively good sleep, and there were no sore points on neck in the morning.

28^th. of January. I slept between two and three hours.  The head felt like it is full of some needles on night. After three a.m.  I massaged my scalp, and got some sleep after.

29^th. of January. I got sleep about four hours. They awakened me before five a.m., and I did not get sleep after. They used pains on side to keep me awake. Because I did not have to go to work, I stayed on bed until half past nine a.m.  After I got up from bed , there were a lot of itching on the head, that I massaged, when it went to severe. However there were actually no sore points on neck in the morning.

30^th. of January. On last evening, they made a lot of sore points on neck, that I had to massage out. On  night some time they told that they will try to make a “surgery” that will try to correct the damage on my ear. After I felt cold on the left  side of my head. I did some massage on neck, but the cold continued. The perpetrators told that I have some trouble to multiply things in the future, but otherwise, I do not feel much difference. Later the cold place focused more clearly, on left side, about center of the skull. Perhaps this is the way, they do what they call “surgeries” . I have a theory that they cut  blood circulation on some precise part of the brain. The cutting of the blood circulation, cause the feeling of the cold on the head. In the morning, there were sore points on neck on both sides, that I massaged out. On afternoon around five p.m. there were pain on side of both eyes, and very dangerous feeling shooting pains on side of the right eye.

1^st. of February. I went ot bed early, after nine p.m. There were a lots of sore points on both side of the neck, that I massaged out before I went to bed. There were disturbances on my sleep, example pains on fingers. The place on left side center of the head, felt cold. Similarly the face felt cold, like I had slept on outside. I got some sleep. It is difficult to say how much, but I estimate between three and four hours. In the morning there were only some weak sore points on neck, that I massaged out.

2^nd. of February. I slept about normally, perhaps five hours.

3^rd. of February. I did not get sleep at all. At start, they used pains to keep me awake. Later they simply did something, that caused that I did not get sleep at all. There were no sore points on neck for a couple of days.

4^th. of February. They awakened me about  three o’clock  a.m. After they used pains on side, and other means to keep me awake. I got about three hours of sleep.

6^th.  of February. I slept about normal amount of sleep. I awakened just once.  In the morning I found that there were a lots of sore points on my neck. I massaged them out with my electric hand massager. This happened more than ten times during the day. I found that massaging the sore points on neck, cause a very warm, nearly hot feeling on the body, and especially on the head. However  the purpose of the sore points on neck, is unclear to me.

10^th. of February. I did not know how much I slept , but I was not tired in the morning. They did about everything to keep me awake on night, pains itching on the head, feeling like thousand ants walking  and crawling on my scalp, verbal manipulation etc. Because I had a vacation, I was able to sleep that long that I did not feel tired. There were also some heart palpitation on that night.

12^th of February. They awakened me at four a.m. They kept me awake about four hours, with all their tricks. I got sleep again about eight a.m. and slept until eleven a.m. On daytime there were continuous itching on the head, and much increased sore points on neck, that I had to massage out.

14^th. of February. I slept about hour or two. They awakened me around two a.m. and started to talk about my sleep. Besides verbal manipulation, they used pains on head, to keep me awake.

15^th. of February. I went to sleep after nine a.m. I did not get sleep, before I massaged my head after two o’clock a.m.  After I got sleep about half past five. I have found that massaging the head and neck, someway reset their manipulation  setup, and takes time  before they get their setup working again. I slept about two ro three hours this night.

16^th. of February. I am not sure how much I slept last night. I believe about one or two hours. They manipulated my heartbeat during the night. In the morning, after wakeup, there was a pain on the back of the head. There were some sore points on neck before I went to sleep, and in the morning. I massaged them  away.

17^th. of February. I went to sleep about half past nine. They awakened me after midnight. I felt that my neck and head was cold. After hour or so, when I did not get sleep, I massaged my neck. The cold feeling went to away and I got sleep until half past five, when I had to wake up and go to work. I slept between four and five hours. I believe that my massage of neck someway disturbed their manipulation that caused feeling of cold on the head, and neck. There is a kind of interesting causality with sore points on neck and salivation. If there are sore points on neck, and I massage my neck, there is  immediately increased salivation on mouth. If there a no sore points on neck, massaging the neck, does not cause increased salivation on mouth.

18^th. of February. They awakened me after two o’clock a.m. After I did not get any sleep. I estimate that I slept between two and three hours.

19^th. of February. They awakened me after five o’clock  a.m. and ordered me to turn other side.  I resisted, so they caused a pain on side, that made my sleeping on that position very uncomfortable. After half hour or so I went other side. They started verbal talking, and caused someway , that I did not feel sleepy. I got out of bed. I believe I got sleep between four and five hours.

20^th. of  February. They awakened me around five a.m. I did try hard, but I could not get sleep after. I slept perhaps four hours.  There were sore points on both side of the neck, that stayed nearly whole day, despite that I massaged them out several times during the day.

21^st. of February. They awakened me three times during the   night. However I was able to get  sleep after. After four o’clock a.m. I was not able to get sleep anymore.. In the morning they started a pain on my right eye, that eased after noon. Also in the morning there were sore points especially on right side of the neck.

23^th. of February. I went to sleep early, and they awakened me around ten times. However I got about four hours of sleep. Around eight a.m. on the while I was travelling to my work, they started repetitive voices. I managed them to go   off , without causing the sensitivity problem , that I have sometimes experienced. After half past eight p.m.  they caused “fast sleep”.  I awakened on my chair about quarter to ten p.m. and felt extremely tired. I went  to sleep at ten p.m.

24^th of February. They awakened me around three or four times. However I believe, I got about four hours sleep, or more. On lunchtime, they caused pain on the right eye, that sometimes spread on, to the whole forehead.

25^th.  of February. I slept about normal night. About quarter to ten a.m.   the pain on side of the right eye started. It diminished on noon. Evening there were shooting pains on head,   once a while.

26^th. of February. I went to sleep around ten p.m. They awakened me after three o’clock a.m. After I did not get sleep. To get sleep,  I massaged my neck. This caused a much better feeling. The perpetrators in turn caused a sharp pointed pain on center of the head, like ice pick on the head. I  put a water back on the head, over the  sore point so that it was tightly between my head, and a larger water container. So I got about 30 centimeter water between my head and the air. There were no caps, only thin container walls.

This stopped the pain. They lost their temper, and we had a conversation on which, I got some insight views on their side of thinking.

 One would think that my perpetrators main concern is, that they would get caught  for their crimes. I learned for them, that this is not their main concern. Their main concern is that they “lost my head” ,meaning that I became one way or another useless for them. Because they are kind of specialized torturing and manipulating for me, they perhaps do not get another “head” for their use , and will  lose their jobs and  became unemployed.

I am now reading  mind-control victim Tek Nath Rizal book Torture Killing me softly, Bhutan through the Eyes of Mind-Control victim. The book is available on pdf format free of charge here.

  One would believe that Kingdom of Bhutan, is not that  technologically   advanced, to develop electronic mind control technology. This would be true, but Bhutan is remote and isolated country , which makes it  very ideal place, for  more advanced countries to test, and develop electronic mind-control technology.  The possibly deal would involve agreement where Bhutan Intelligence serves the human guinea pigs, and gets the information that electronic mind control technology could get out from victims mind. On this model the equipments and technical knowledge stays on other country. Also other kinds of dark deals that involves perhaps  also  money, are possibly.

I agree with Tek Nath RizaL  that electronic mind-control technology has existed for decades. According my perpetrators, the base of mind control  technology was first developed on Soviet-Union on end of 1960, and United States got the technology, while investigating mental problems on United States Moscow Embassy around 1970.  The reason that electronic mind-control  technology is not public is that it is ideal weapon for the controlling elite of country,  to monitor and  manipulate  all  political movement of people.  Even if governing leaders have disputes for accessing natural and human resources between countries, they have common need to control and manipulate people’s organizations on their area that they would not undermine their  leadership .

FFCHS has launched a National Billboard campaign to fight against electronic harassment. The choice of media reflects the present situation in United States. Mainstream media stays silent of electronic harassment. Congressmen are  usually  unable or unwilling to help mind control victims. If the victim goes complain to police he is often  forced into mental hospital, where his possibilities of survive are much lower than in freedom. It is better to us,  to do something to defend ourselves, than do nothing.Actually our situation has may similarities from situation that  Jews had in Nazi-Germany.

3.1.2011  11.30   p.m.  I did my last writing on 14th. of November. The next note since is on 16^th of November. On this night they let me sleep about hour before awakened me at half past midnight. They started pain, and a kind of shrinking feeling on the neck, that made me impossible to sleep. There were also a kind of shooting pains, here and there on head. This was accompanied with verbal manipulation. After two o’clock , I did massage on my head. I also put loud musicon , and started morse-code practice, to get their manipulation for a bit more difficult. I got sleep around four o’clock a.m. Unfortunately, I had to  awake to work at five a.m. , so I got sleep  only about two hours on this night.

17^th.  of November.  I slept about normally on  night, eleven p.m. to five o’clock a.m.  After eight a.m. the perpetrators started suddenly repetitive voice attack on my left ear. I put music loud on my earphones, and survived this time, without my getting allergic for certain frequencies of voice, that sometimes happen. In the evening after seven o’clock p.m. there were occasional pains on forehead.

19^th.  of November. Pain on my chest right side, that has continued three days, eased temporarily. Last night, they awakened me at least four times. However I fell asleep again. After four o’clock  a.m.  they succeeded to get me awake permanently. I had feeling  that I slept about three hours.

21^st. of November. They awakened me several times last night. However I had  sleep after, so I believe I got sleep enough. There were some sore points on my neck , and I have massaged them with hand-held massager. The pain on the right side of  chest worries me too. It came in the morning again, and even more severe than before. It  eases daytime, so it must be  something they do for me while I am sleeping. They have done it nearly every night on last week.

On evening, the sore points on neck continued, but I got them temporary away, with eight round of massage. Actually sore points  still exist, but weaker. I pain on right eye, has continued also a whole day very strong.

22^nd. of November. They kept me awake nearly whole last night.  I slept hour or two between two and four a.m.  The pain on right side of chest continue worse than before. They also showed by turning pain on and off, that they cause it. The pain on the right eye, stopped on night. The sore points on neck left side were gone, instead there were sore points on right side of neck, that I massaged out with my hand-held massager.

23^rd. of November. They awakened me for a couple of times, last night, and tried to start talking. However I was able to fall asleep again.  I estimate, I slept four hours or more last night. Pain on chest, right side, felt strong in the morning, but eased on  daytime. On evening  they caused strong occasional shooting pains on various sides around my head. On neck there were some  sore points on left side again, that I massaged out.

24^th. of November. Night was similar, than night before. They disturbed my sleep, but I got about  four or five hours sleep.. In the morning about half past eight, they started repetitive  voices. I shielded them with loud music. On evening about quarter to six p.m. they  made a kind of strong shooting pain  on the side of my right eye. Before that they threaded to “burn my head”.

25^th. of November. They awakened me about six or seven times last night, and also kept me awake most of the time. I estimate, I slept 2-3 hours. In the morning, for first time for a while, there were no sore points on my neck. Before I went to bed there were sore points on neck, left side. I massaged them with my hand held massager. Similar strong pain on side of right eye, than day before started, this time a bit later, quarter past six p.m. Day before the pain went off on hour, but this time it lasted nearly four hours.

26^th. of November. They awakened me something between six to  eight times, last night.  I got sleep two or three hours. I felt bruise on my right eye when I awakened. However there were not physical mark of bruise. I covered the eye  with steel-wool on plastic back to shield it.

29^th. of November.   Couple of last nights were pretty normal. I have slept about five hours. Daytime is normal pain on right eye, and sore points on neck that I massage with hand-held massager. The pain on right side of chest has became stronger on morning. I believe, they have ceased their other activities, do not interfere their “chest experiment”  - what ever they are doing for me, that causes the pain.

30^th. of November.  I slept normal night , but in the morning, my forehead felt cold. This is a sign, that they have blocked blood-flow on my forehead. After wakeup, there were a kind of mild “after sauna torture”, headache on the forehead. The headache eased at noon.

2^nd. of December. They kept me awake until four  o’clock a.m.  However I got some sleep, because I did not have to go  to work in the morning. On evening, around half past eight p.m. , they started a repetitive voice attack, on left  ear. I shielded it  with loud music, and some steel-wool over the ear.  They got my left  ear a bit sensitive for certain frequency of noise.

 After midnight they started manipulating left side front of my head. I felt the itching, so I had to massage it before I went to sleep.

3^rd. of December. Very similar than second of  December. They awakened me several times at night. I got some sleep in the morning. They did some heartbeat-manipulation, when I went to  sleep.

4^th. of December. They manipulated me nearly whole night. However, because I did not have to go to work, I was able to sleep until noon, and I got enough sleep. The pain on chest on right, has eased temporarily.  I still have no  idea, what they are doing there.

6^th. of December. Last night they awakened me several times. I got sleep between four and five a.m. Fortunately, it was the Finnish day of Independence. I was able to sleep at eleven a.m. and got about normal hours of sleep. On Afternoon they started pain on left side, front of the head, and some itching back of the head also left  side. After ten p.m. There were a sudden attack of heavy pains around the head. I put a shield, that I had made from steel-wool,  over the head, and succeeded to stop the attack.

7^th. of December. They used repetitive voices, last night, and succeeded to get my left ear sensitive for certain frequencies of noise. On lunchtime they started  repetitive voice attack on left ear again.  I had to listen very loud music a couple of hours, before it went out. I hope I did not get very serious hearing damage for that.

10^th. of  December. About one  o’clock p.m. They caused pain on head. This somehow caused also, that I had great difficulties n to make proper knots on my work, to tie books together.

11^th.  of December. They  “opened” a kind of “wound” on   left side front of my head, and tortured me through. it  whole morning. After eleven p.m. they caused  shrinking feeling on back of the head. Sleeping was quite normal last days. They even woke me up around five a.m. , when I have to go to work, but let me sleep eight a.m.  today, because I had a holiday.

12^th. of December. On last night, I got a  very heavy itching, on right side of front of the head. I covered it with  a bag of steel-wool, about two centimeters heavy, before it went down. After I got about normal sleep. In the morning , they started a pain on  the right eye, and continued until I went to sleep.

13^th. of December. I did not get sleep at all, on last night. They used pain on side I was sleeping, and all the other things, to keep me awake. They also told that my massage ( with hand held massager) has broken some of their equipments on my head. True or false, anyway I hear continuous white noise. There are also very dangerous feeling pains near  right-, and sometimes near left eye.

14^th. of December. They disturbed my sleeping many ways, that worst was a burning pain on center of the neck. However I got some sleep, because I went to sleep early, and I was tired. I believe, they awakened me around ten times, on that night. My sleep was on short pieces. I estimate, that I slept around three hours.

15^th. of December. They attacked me with repetitive voices, while I was working, and was not that able to defend myself. The first attack was around one o’clock p.m. , and next quarter to three p.m.  After seven p.m. started pain on side of right eye, and continued until night, although it went weaker a whole time.

16^th. of December. They kept me awake last night very long. I believe, I slept  about three hours. About quarter to  six p.m. they started a pain on side of my right eye, and it continued most of the evening. They have caused some sore points on my neck, usually on  left side, but sometimes also right side. I have massaged them, with my hand-held massager  every evening, before I go to bed, and in the morning after wakeup, until they go away.

17^th. of December. They awakened me before four a.m. After I did not get sleep. I slept about three hours . On afternoon they started pain on left temple of my head. The pain  moved later on the right eye and continued until night.

19^th. of December. On the night, there were pain on the right temple, that started about half past three a.m.  About ten o’clock a.m. they did a repetitive voice attack on left ear, and partly succeeded to get me  sensitive for certain frequencies.

20^th. of December.  Start of the week torture. I slept about hour, before they awakened me. They used pains to keep me awake. I used loud music to defend myself. They were not very pleased my idea of organization, similar than Simon Wiesenthal Center, on difference that the center is fighting against illegal human experimenters when Wiesenthal center was fighting against Nazis. I hope my dream some day is realized. I realize it is far today.  Not Jewish on the concentration camp, or Nazis that killed them  i would have  believed, that some day there organization , that tracks down and gathers information on former Nazis and SS members who were involved in the Holocaust, so that they can be punished for  crimes against humanity.

 After Seven a.m. they started  very unpleasant pain on side of right eye, and it continued noon

21^st.   of  December. They awakened me several times last night, but I got  asleep after. I guess I slept hour or two, but it is very difficult to say. I did not feel very tired in the morning, perhaps they have caused this too.

22^nd. of December. Very similar night than 21^st. Of December.  I slept about two hours. They used pains to keep me awake, and to control my position.  On the afternoon about four o’clock  p.m.  there were pain on the right side of head.

25^th. of December. Last night – the Christmas eve – went  quite well. They awakened me before five, but because I did not have to go to work, I put loud music and started to practice morse-code to get sleep again. Apparently they had planned something for me, that requires, that I go out for bed. On bed  I still have some kind of shielding. They used pains to get my sleep uncomfortable. Later they got nasty, and told me to go up because “ Our moose rifle is ready”, and “Christmas Sauna is waiting”. They also told that they have to “Smoothen some corners” on my personality and they like me a “bit less clever than I am”.

 . On their talks  they have given expression that they live on some kind of vessel, that they call “theatre-ship”. This impression comes time to time. If this is true, it is interesting to know if the ship is  ordinary navy-ship, or vessel that is camouflaged for cargo-ship or fishing-boat.

On eleven a.m.  they started pain on chest left side. On last days they have caused more or less severe pain on right side of chest, that feels especially shovelling snow or doing something else heavy work.  Now I am more worried because my heart is on left side.

26^th. of December. They awakened me after a  couple of hours of sleep. They used pains on side, and cold forehead to keep me awake. In the morning, I found that my neck, that I had before succeeded to keep without sore points, was full of sore points. I believe, that this is someway connected for  that my forehead felt cold in night. They cut someway blood-flow from my forehead, I believe. My right ear had similar pressure problem, that sometimes in aeroplane, when the air-pressure changes.

27^th.  of December. Last night I got sleep about normal way, but they awakened me around four o’clock a.m.  Because I did not have to go to work, and I felt , they awakened me too early, I started loud music, and started to do morse-code practice. They used pains and verbal manipulation to keep me awake. However I got some sleep, and slept until nine o’clock a.m. The special on the awakening, was that air that  I breathed, felt a kind of bitter. The effect went away, when I got away from my c-pap breathing-machine, that I have to use on night. My mouth was full of bad-tasting mucus. The effect was very similar, I had in Edmonton about thirty years ago, on difference that this time I did not have to use breathing machine at nights. They spoke about carbon-diokside experiments, I do not know if there is some truth behind it, or it is just their usual intimidating.

There were nearly couple of weeks without  sore points on neck, in the morning,  but last days there were several sore points on neck, especially on left side. I massaged them of  with my hand-held massager.

29^th.  of December. They awakened me several times on night, and kept me  awake for  most of the time. They used  verbal manipulation, and different pains. I want to mention especially a very strong on back  after six a.m.   There were also a pain on centre of neck that felt like burning ( my notes say five minutes before six p.m.  , but I feel this could  mean six a.m.) The pain lasted about five minutes. It was similar that 14^th of December, I had. I believe, there is no other purpose for this pain, than cause pain and fear on victims. They use it for torture, or just because it is fun for them. Hopefully some day they get some more years on jail for this their habit for keeping fun for victims suffering. It would their values of life on right order.

I had also pain on right ear, similar than sometimes on aeroplane, when the pressure changes.   On about half past eight, there was a pain that felt like wound, on left side centre of the head. It continued over hour.

30^th.  of December. About one o’clock a.m. The burning pain on centre of the neck started again.  I did try to defend myself with a back of steel-wool on neck. The whole night they kept me awake most of the time.  They also warned me to not let my house daytime . Partly for this reason, I went to Downtown for a whole day. In the evening they did not want me to do, a kind of Excel-calculation, I used to do end of the week. They caused tiredness on my hand, that I use to move the computer-mouse. I had to change the mouse temporarily on other hand. They also cause very much itching on my scalp. I massaged these itching point to get itching out.

First of January 2011. They caused very dangerous feeling pains around my head starting last evening and night. There were also lots of sore points on neck, that I had to massage about every  hour, with my hand-held massager.

2^nd.  Of January 2011. I got about normal sleep.  In the morning. I found that I do less errors, with translating old songs for morse-code, when the music is loud, than when the music is silent. This is because their manipulator  “secretary” manipulates my memory, so that  I loose the words. This sounds stupid ,  for people who do not know this manipulation technique, but usually they succeed. When music is loud (I believe) there is that much disturbance noise , that their manipulation is more difficult. I found also that female voices usually start repetitive voice manipulation when I turn the music loud.  However, they stop after half un hour, if their repeating-voice manipulation does not succeed, and only male voice try to start conversation for something, or at least try to get me listen, what he is talking.

I was perhaps too pessimistic for the  world on my last writing. I wrote about   President Bush permit to use torture for interrogation on my last  writing .  Amnesty International has given statement that former president George Bush must be prosecuted for authorizing torture

Also The International Rehabilitation Council for Torture Victims ,and numerous other organization have asked President Obama to hold Bush accountable for torture.

President Bush has defended his decision by telling that he has got legal advice, that waterboarding is not torture.   Also lawyers that gave the advice  did not get any punishment.The United States Department of  justice  made decision that the lawyers that gave this legal advice are not guilty of anything either, but according to state department   , they  have only “flawed legal reasoning”. So they have invented way to commit crimes, without that anybody is quilty of anything.  This waterboarding torture case has also other legal “trick” that is often used. The lawyers did not use word torture for waterboarding but used instead word  “enhanced  interrogation”.  Similarly human experiment that has purpose to study how much radiation human can stand before he dies, was called medical treatment, when the right term is perhaps murder. Lawyers mean that torture is not torture anymore when it is called “enhanced interrogation”, and murder is not murder anymore, when we call it “treatment”, even if people who get this "treatment" lost their lives.

These kind of cheap tricks  would not work on  any country, that has proper, and orderly working legal system . Still these tricks are possible in United States. People in United States are not equal in before the  law.   Waterboarding that caused  former  president Bush, and other involved ,  no prosecution, caused Texas Sheriff James Parker four years in prison.

14.11.2010  10.55. p.m. My first note since my last writing is  made on first of October. On that day, I did  not get any sleep. The perpetrators used  repetitive voices, among other things, to keep me awake. Next evening, there was some itching on the head.

5^th. of October. I forgot my alarm clock to wake me awake on one a.m. The perpetrators used this false alarm, and started verbal manipulation.  They also wanted, for some reason,  to turn me to sleep on other side, and used pains to get me turn on the  left side. I did  put  music very loud, on my earphones, and they stopped the pains on left side immediately after that,  but started shooting pains on my head. I massaged my neck to get some relieve it. After I got some sleep, but I believe that the whole sleeping time on this night was less than three hours.

6^th. of October. They kept me awake nearly whole last night.  Again they used pains on right  side, to get me to  turn on other side.  Around two o’clock a.m. they threatened,  that  they will “iron” my head  a bit, but on the end I will get a “happy man’s shirt”. After they started continuous pain, around five centimeter  above  from my right eye. The pain continued two p.m. on afternoon, and even after that the head was a bit sore.

7^th of October. On night they awakened me around one o’clock a.m. and started verbal manipulation, and some pains on head. With loud music and morse-code practice, I got some sleep, after a long fight. I believe that the total sleep time on this  night was between three and four hours.

8^th. of October. Again they awakened me around one o’clock a.m. After that, I was not sure , if I got any  sleep at all. Their story to catch my interest was,  that I have a “gas bubble” in my head, which means that my head is permanently damaged, and they will “use me at end” , whatever it means.

9^th. October. I went sleep early, and again they awakened me at one a.m. I guess their torture team work starts at  this time.  After they started verbal  manipulation. I got up, did some work, and  around four o’clock a.m ,I went again to bed.  I was able to sleep until ten a.m. , so I got about normal sleep. This is possible only  Saturday,  when I do not have to get work early on morning.

10^th. of October. After I went to sauna, I found that arteries on the neck are sore. I tried to manipulate them, but I found  in the morning they were still sore, and I had a small headache. On the afternoon the arteries were not sore anymore, but coughing causes pain on the head.

11^th. of October.”After sauna torture” continued. While massaging the neck, it was easy to find, that arteries on left side of the neck are sore. Actually both sides of neck were sore, but by massaging I got the right side arteries open around ten p.m. last night. The headache  continued whole morning, and in the afternoon, it went even more severe.

12^th. of October. On night they awakened me several times, however I was able to sleep long, because I had a week holidays.  On daytime, they were blocking arteries on left side of neck. It is easily recognizable, when massaging neck with hand massager.

13^th. of October. Again they are blocking the arteries on left side of neck. I believe, they were also experimenting with my kidneys, because I  had problems with urinating.

14^th. of October. I went to sleep around  midnight, and they awakened me around four a.m.     Later I went another time to sleep , because I felt tired. I slept about noon. After I woke up there were severe headache on front of the head, right side, and it continued whole  afternoon.

15^th. of October. About two a.m.  they told me that they really had stopped my kidneys for a while, but now it is working again.   I urinated a lot, and frequently, some time  after that. On “talk” with them, I got also a new term “necklace” that means  their system to block veins and arteries, and cause me some  headache. They promised to stop to use “necklace” in future. Problem is that they seldom speak true, so I do not make any fast decision that is  based on their promises. They kept me awake about six a.m. , after I got about three hours sleep, so my full sleeping hours for this night were between four and five hours.

17^th. October . They awakened me around four a.m.  Their teaser on this time was, that mind control-torture on my case is becoming public, and they gave advice, how to behave when police attacks to  perpetrators. It did take a while to get enough awake to understand  the real reason of their  “advice . They caused a big headache on front head, left side, and later started repetitive voices , they have not used for a long time. I put the music loud on earphones, and started morse code practice, and got some sleep. In the afternoon , they started pain on left side of head, that continued on next morning.

18^th. of October. Because of itching on the left side of head, I slept four hours or less. They awakened me around four a.m.  Pain on left side became occasional on morning and changed pain on neck on evening.

19^th. of October. They first awakened me after midnight, and then after two o’clock a.m.  After that I did not get sleep. I believe I slept this night around two hours.

20^th of October. I went ot sleep after nine p.m.  They awakened me half past twelve after  midnight. I used loud music and morse-code practice , but they were able to keep me awake rest of the night. I slept under two hours  this night.  They threatened me  that “red car will come your workplace parking lot” . I do not know , what this actually means.

21^st. of October. I went to sleep after seven p.m. I used loud music and morse code practice, to resist their manipulation. I got some sleep after a long fight.  They used  repetitive voices, pains everywhere etc. In the morning my perpetrators told I slept four hours. It could be true, I did  not feel very sleepy on that morning.

22^nd. of October. They  awakened me after midnight this night. After I did not get sleep. They used all the tricks to keep me awake.  I estimate that I slept about two hours , and it was before midnight.

23^rd. of October. I went to sleep about nine p.m. and got out of bed nine a.m. next day. On this twelve hours, I got about five hours sleep. Again they used everything to keep me awake. Voices, pain etc. On a while they threaded “ People come , which  will break you”.   Other times they went to  frustration , and told that they are tired “to make stuffed people, that could be used for nothing” . I had  sleep on  several short periods,  between their torture and manipulation.

25^th. of October. I did not get sleep at all. Actually, I perhaps slept a bit, but I do  not remember, that I was asleep. Sometimes on night they presented a kind of new way to make “voices”. They presented two  voices, the sound of opening champagne bottle, and a voice of dog sparking. The voices were very real, and feeling was that they came inside my body. They were just different than narrow frequency  “voiceless voice” that  they usually use , which has very limited  dynamic  range. Apparently the perpetrators cannot yet speak with these voices  that are made with this new, better technique.

They have not experimented with me before, for developing these  improved voice machines. I hope the victims they have used for developing these systems, are still alive.

Hopefully society will someday get civilized enough , that these  criminals  will get prosecuted  trial – similar as Nuremberg trials – for crimes against humanity.

Unfortunately, the  world is going just opposite direction. I have just read from newspaper that former United States president George Bush had personally approved torture of enemy prisoners. By approving torture president Bush has knowingly violated  United Nations Convention against torture, which United States has also ratified 1988.  This makes one to wonder , are also rest of United States ratified International agreements  not worth of paper , they are  written on, if the President of United States, can make a that kind of decision ?

26^th. of October. They awaked me around one a.m. However I got some sleep after. I felt I got sleep between four and five hours. In the afternoon about half past three p.m. They started repetitive voices, and succeeded to get my right ear sensitive for certain frequency of voices.

27^th. of  October. They awakened me around two a.m.  I got some sleep after, but result was that I went late to my work.

28^th. of October. They awakened me after one a.m. I used loud music and morse-code practice, to get sleep, and slept  until  four o’clock  a.m. So I slept about three or four hours that night. They did not use pains, but tried to very actively “hook” my interest, with different pieces of conversation.

30^th. of October. I went to Mariehamn  with ferry, and back Turku. There were no verbal manipulation on trip, only a couple of shooting pains on left side of my head before coming to Mariehamn. On home manipulation started normal way, however I was able to sleep normal five hours.

First of November, the perpetrators  started  pain on the right side of the head. I had  dry mouth on wakeup. The pain actually ended  on evening after a heavy massage of my  neck. 

2^nd. of November. They awakened me several times. I am not sure how much I slept, but I believe about three hours.

3^rd. of November. They awakened me around two a.m. After I did not get sleep. They used pains to try to get me turn on other side. I believe I slept around three hours.

4^th. of November.  I went to sleep half past nine  p.m. They got me awake around two a.m.  After I did not get sleep.  On wakeup, I found that they had a kind of freeze on  my head. They used pains and repetitive voices to keep me awake.  I used loud music and morse code practice, to resist the manipulation.

5^th. fo November. On night, I did not get sleep at all. Among all the other things, they used pains to control my position, and let me to sleep. Actually I am not sure, if I was asleep, but I do  not remember, if I slept or stayed awakeö. On the afternoon started  pain  on the forehead on right side.

6^th. of November. Before I went ot sauna I found by massaging my neck, that they had blocked my veins and arteries.  So they were prepared for “after sauna torture” before I  went to sauna. I massaged them open with hand-massage machine.

7^th. of November. They awakened me on morning by threatening, that soon I cannot walk, and I have to live in  wheelchair.  On their plans, they told, they will do something, that weakens durability of my bones. They also told that I will need supplemental oxygen device to breathing.  The  future will show, if they were empty threats or not. It is possibly that they just, tried to tell me my ultimate nightmares, they have got my brains.  Pain on the right eye, continued severe whole morning.

On the evening, I found that they blocked arteries on my neck again, so I had to massage them open.

8^th. of November. I was not sure, how much I slept. I was awakened on night, but I also got some sleep after that. In the morning, I found that there were again some sore points on my neck, and I tried to remove them, by hands massager. On the afternoon about one o’clock p.m. started a very heavy pain on the side of my right eye. The pain ended after four p.m.

9^th. of November. On night at first, I did not sleep at all. but after a some  hours, I put music on the earphones very loud, and started morse code practice, and got some sleep. If I am very tired, I can sleep on loud music. and noise some way break their manipulating system, that causes , that  I am not feeling myself tired. They have told me, that on later systems this “fault” is fixed, and loud noise will not enable the victim  to get sleep, and he is fully in mercy of the perpetrators.  That is one reason, I believe that I have implants.  If the changes, are possible on transmitter side, they would ha simply changed the transmitter for a new model, that  does  not make possible to break their sleep deprivation torture with loud music.

10^th. of November. I went ot sleep around nine o’clock p.m.  They awakened me at half past ten. I felt just fresh, like I had slept full night.  Only my watch showed that I had slept only a little more than one hour. I put loud music on my earphones, and started morse-code practice, and I went asleep again. Sometime on night, I remember that half-asleep , I put music down.  There were many times on night , that I was half-asleep. I awakened before five a.m. much  less crispy, than I was on half past ten last night. It is very difficult to say, how much I slept, but I believe around three hours.

11th. of November.  I went asleep around eleven p.m. They awakened me around three o’clock. and  later four a.m.  I believe, I got sleep about three hours.

12^th of November. I got to bed after ten p.m. They kept me awake with so that I was still awake at three a.m. They caused heart palpitation. They did about everything to keep me awake on night. However because I did not have to go to work, I was on bed half past ten a.m , and I felt I got some hours sleep, however it is difficult to say how many hours.

I have read from newspapers, how Canadian army Colonel  Russell Williams committed  series of sexual assaults, rapes and  murders of young women. There were many surprised people in Canada, who would not understand that top Army officer committed these abominable acts.

 I am not surprised. Colonel Russel has committed in his private life very similar torture and perversions  that Army as an organization has committed. Electronic mind control and torture that I was subject especially, when I was young, do not that much differ, the pervert crimes that Colonel Russel committed. Only difference is, that I believe that the death toll  of  victims of Army organizational perversions, is much larger , than victims of  Colonel William Russel’s  private perverse acts.

29.9.2010 9.45. p.m. When I read my old diary notes, the matter, that is changed most in last months, it is their sleep deprivation  torture. Now they prefer let me first sleep awhile  , and then awake, me after hour of sleep, or so. This happens often several times on night.

My first note since my last writing was 22^nd.  of August.  I got normal 5-6 hours sleep. In the morning ,I asked them, if my sleep deprivation torture has ended. They answered that they are now cutting my vocabulary. They explained that they do not remove words from my memory, but rather cut some connections between words.

23^rd. of August. Start of the week torture. They got me awake  night around one o'clock  a.m.  After that,  I did not get sleep. This perhaps because I had rather normal sleep on  night before. I slept between hour and two hours on  that night. As usually I used loud music and Morse code practice , to shield myself from their verbal manipulation.

24th. of August. They awakened me two times, first around one  o'clock a.m. and second time ,  around three a.m.  I got some sleep between. I estimate that I slept between three and four hours. The next night, 25th of August  was very similar. They awakened me after two a.m. and after four a.m.  and I estimate that my total sleeping time was between three and four hours.

26th. of August They got me awake after two o’clock a.m. I used loud music and Morse code practice to resist them.  The perpetrators use other name for my Morse code practice. They call it for    “knitting  the sock” . They often say “Your sock knitting  we have to stop”.

What actually happen is that I have some songs on  my memory.  I translate these old songs  letter by letter into   Morse code. The “secretary” that try to act  between my memory,  and  my pronunciation  -  has to actually remember those old songs I have memorized myself  on  childhood.  He has to also know the  Morse code. The loud music that I am listening on background , does not make his task easier. The whole thing is very boring for both of us, but it makes enough work to my brain that I can keep my memory out of  verbal  manipulation, they try to feed me. Their usual response for Morse code practice is, that they try block my memory, so I cannot remember the words of those old songs, that I have learned on my childhood. This is often accompanied by feeding  some “wrong” words into my memory.

I got some sleep after my  first awakening. Second time they awakened me after three o'clock a.m. They also did try  to use pains, to control my sleeping positions. This time they failed, but I did not get sleep after three o'clock  a.m.  The difference for earlier weeks is, that I do not feel myself very tired on morning and daytime.

27^th. of August. Last night they awakened me at one o’clock a.m.  I got sleep about two hours. Still  they made me feel, like I had sleep  normal night. After quarter past three a.m. they started to manipulate my heartbeat. In the afternoon I got some pains on the right temple of the head.

28^th. of August. I went to sleep after eight a.m. They awakened me  about midnight. I got some sleep after . I believe that total amount I was on sleep was about four hours. Next night 29^th. of August I got normal sleep.

30^th. of August. Start of the week torture. They awakened me after three a.m. and I did not get sleep after. There is a small pain on chest left side. They told me that they had stopped my heart twice , while I was sleeping.  (whatever it means).

31^st. of August. I went to sleep earlier than usually, about ten p.m.  They awakened me before two a.m. After I did not get real sleep.  I used Morse code  and loud music to resist their manipulation. I estimate, I slept about three hours. Rather than old “hard head” techniques they use now some new technique, that causes that I do not feel sleepy, but feeling is like I had got normal sleep on morning.  However on daytime the feeling is different than after normal sleep, but I do not feel myself actually sleepy.

1^st. of September. I went ot bed after eleven. They  awakened me first time on midnight, and tried to start talking. Next time they awakened me about two o’clock a.m. , and after three a.m. After three I did not get sleep. They used pains on knee, to keep me awake. They also threaded me that my death occurs soon  . I used  loud music and Morse code to shield myself.

2^nd. of September. They awakened me after midnight. They used back pain, and pain on knee, to make sure I do not get sleep. I used music and Morse code to resist their manipulation. They caused also someway that I do not feel very sleepy, although I slept only one hour before midnight.

3^rd. of September. I went to sleep after nine p.m. They awakened me before midnight, and I did not get sleep after. I used music and Morse code practice to resist their manipulation. They used pains to not let me to sleep, and to control my sleeping position.  I got sleep less than two hours, but I did not feel very sleepy next morning. They have someway achieved to control my tiredness also. However I do not believe, that it is very healthy for sleep one hour for night.

4^th. of September. I went to sleep after eight, and  I slept until two o’clock a.m., around six hours. I believed that their sleep deprivation torture session has ended. The odd thing is that I did not feel myself very tired, although I was awake around one  hundred hours , with only ten hours sleep. Perhaps they are developing a radio controlled soldier that can fight  weeks without  sleeping  and still feel no tired. I still do believe that keeping person that  many days, with only a couple of hours sleep, is not very good for his health.

6^th. of September. They awakened me about one o'clock a.m.  However I was able to get sleep again.  I believe that  I slept normal six hours. This because I had holidays, and I did not have to get up to work this morning.

7^th. of September. They caused me feel sleepy, so I went to bed earlier. This time they awakened me around four o’clock a.m.  Because they made me feel no tired, I got up of bed,  and did some work. They made me feel very tired after a while. I went to bed again  at five a.m.  Then they started a very heavy repetitive voice torture. The words they repeated was “K-Iron” ( K-rauta in Finnish language) , it must have some hidden meaning . It is a name of a Finnish hardware chain. It must have some hidden meaning, I do not know. Knowing their way to use language, making a kind of language crosswords – the letter K- has some meaning, and iron could just mean  their torture equipments. Actually I felt that I got hour or two sleep after five a.m. In the morning they caused some mild headache.

8^th. of September. I did not get sleep at all. They used repetitive voices, I used Morse code practice and loud music to defend.myself. Unfortunately I had to get out to  work in the morning , so I could not simply sleep, so long time that I get enough  sleep. They said  “lark has sung” so they would not save my life any more. They have also told singing lark earlier days. Actually this is another example of their way to  make a kind of language crosswords. I try to avoid to think very deeply, what is “k-iron” other than a hardware chain, or what means that “lark has sung” , because I know , they want me to try to open these sentences , so that they would find how my brain works.

9^th. fo September. They awakened me around midnight. I got some sleep after. Actually they awakened me several times and used all kind of pain on back and ear to keep me awake , and control my sleeping position. I got out of bed after six a.m. It is difficult to say, how long I slept, but I did not feel very sleepy in the morning.

10^th. to 13^th. September were very similar.  They awakened me two or three times on night , but I was able to get proper about six hours sleep. This was because they knew I did not have to wake up, and go to work on morning,  but I was able simply  to stay on bet until I got enough sleep.  They mostly caused pain on my left knee.  I have arthritis on my left knee, and they have some way not only caused pain, but really caused inflammation, that makes my walking difficult.  I do not know how they did it. I have theory that they simply a kind of record natural pain on brains and playback it to cause pain. They can also control blood flow on different parts of body.

14^th. of September. When I went to bed they started pain on my left knee, as usually on last week, and also some itching on head. I put the music volume very high and started morse code practice. After that they stopped pain on knee´, and itching on head, and tried to start repetitive voices, but could not cause much effect. After I went to sleep, I believe that they caused the sleep to get a new start. They awakened me first time after midnight, but I got sleep, and after they awakened me after three a.m. and I did not get sleep after that, because I had to go to work. In the morning they caused some pain on left knee.

15^th. of  September. I did not sleep at all. My work started, and they knew I have to wake up in the morning, so they started sleep deprivation torture. They kept me kind of half sleep until two. O’clock a.m. , which after I started loud music to disturb their manipulation. Now I feel sleepy , that is different for the previous sleep deprivation torture session.

16^th. of September.  I went to sleep on rather loud music, because I had not sleep last night, and  I know they  kind of build this sleep deprivation on several days, and  I have to cut it , to get them to stop it. I got some sleep, but about two a.m. they awakened me and were very angry, and also caused pains on ears, when they tried to get me take out earphones from my ears. I did not stop loud music and got couple of hours more sleep.  Actually I  believe , I slept around four hours. In the morning they started headache on side of the right eye. The headache continued whole day, and in the evening it spread on a whole front head, and became more severe.

18^th. of September. They got me sleepy around eight p.m. so I went to sleep immediately  around nine p.m.  Before midnight they awakened me , and started verbal manipulation. Because they caused me to feel very brisk, I  got up and started some work. The sleepiness came after hour or so. I went to sleep again. They awakened me again after couple of  hours sleep. I started loud music and Morse code. They tried get earbuds of my ears, by causing shooting pains on the ear. After they kept me awake by causing backache. I do not know if I slept or how long I slept this night, but I did not sleep very well.

19^th. September. In the morning I found by massaging my neck, that they had blocked left arteries on neck on night, while I was sleeping. It caused a mild “after sauna torture” type headache, a while in the morning. I felt also occasionally mild headache on daytime.

20^th. of September. They awakened me after three, and started verbal manipulation. This time they explained that army makes all of the victims mentally retarded before they stop torture. Same time they caused a sharp pain on left side of front head, that made very painful and difficult to make Morse code exercise , that I used to disturb their verbal manipulation. This is a usual formula, they use to get victim awake on night. They have a threat, example to make the victim mentally retarded, or cause heart attack etc. Then they also cause some  effects on victim, example heart attack, or like this time disturbing my mental process . The purpose is   to demonstrate their ability to do , what they have threaded.

I believe , I got sleep about  three hours, this night.

21^st. of September.  I went early bed, after nine p.m. They awakened me half past eleven.  After I got some short periods of sleep, but because they caused pains on front head, I got out of bed early, after three a.m. They caused  pain on right eye, whole morning. On the afternoon there were some shooting pains on neck left side.

22^nd. of September I slept about normal six hours. In the morning my throat was dry, what is unusual.  In the morning I found that a whole my body was very sore, like I had run long time or something comparable. This continued a whole day, and it went more severe on afternoon. On evening they started a heavy headache on whole front of my head, and some nausea. I went unconscious while sitting on my recliner after seven p.m. and awakened after nine p.m. The headache, and nausea ended when I got shielding around my head.

23^rd. of September. I slept about six hours. In the morning there were a pain on the right eye. On evening same pain started about nine p.m.

24 ^th. of September. Pain on the right eye started before nine p.m. and continued a whole night. On six a.m. I went out of bed. Pain diminished. Because I was sleepy, I went to bed again. I woke up after nine a.m.  There were some soreness on lungs. About ten o’clock a.m. there were some backache, or actually a odd feeling on my back. Later I became a kind of euphoric narcotic mode, I was not able to do anything. About two o’clock p.m. I managed to move myself on bedroom under shield, that means, that I put my head between water bags. My  head between water bags, I was able to make some picture, what has happened . I did not have my shielding on the morning, and they were able to “shoot” me.

 Half past eight  p.m.  they started heavy pain on right eye again “ We are sorry, we have to tear your right eye open again” , they said. I resisted by trying to keep my muscles around the right eye continuously moving. After a couple of hours, the pain diminished, at least temporary.

27^th. of September.  A kind of start of the week torture. They awakened me several times on night. Besides the  verbal  manipulation, they also use pains, to control my sleeping position. This time they wanted me to sleep on my back, when  they usually preferred that I sleep on left side, and cause backache if I try to sleep on my back.  I slept about three hours. After four a.m. I did not sleep at all.

29^th. of September. I went to sleep after ten p.m. . They awakened me four or five times during the night, first time before midnight. To get the  victim  awake, they use a kind of verbal teasers, that are designed to catch victims attention. I believe, they keep book for  best teasers, and use them  for several   victims. The teasers I remember this particular night were.” Your life ends, when a black man come through window into your house”. The more positive teaser was “Canada is planning to put   your image on    five dollar bill  or other small note, after the mind control experiments are revealed to  public”. If the victim  try to continue his sleep, the perpetrators try to tell another interesting story, or even causing some pains, to keep the victim awake. “You cannot get out of this restaurant without eating your porridge” as the perpetrators  told me this  night.

In the morning I got some headache that eased on evening.

I have found two important news, on the area of mind -reading  and mind-control research. One of the news I found   from Telegraph, United Kingdom: Scientists have developed a machine, that can convert thoughts into (acoustic) speech. What they have actually done is that they have made a kind of mechanical copy  of part of human organ that converts person thinking into  acoustic speech.  Everyone has this organ in his head.  The news is important, because it proves that converting thoughts electrically  into speech is possible .

However I believe that the  machine,  which my perpetrators use to torture me, is a different kind , a kind of brain to brain communication interface, that is capable to transfer verbal thoughts from person to another. The way it works, could be something like feeding one  person thoughts into another person organ that converts thoughts into speech.The implants that are used to transmit  and receive the broadcast, could be smaller, and more sophisticated version of these type of devices, for example

Another piece of news, is device  on helmet that  can manipulate brains so that soldier does not feel stress and can fight several days without sleep. This works with ultrasonic, but I believe, the experiments that leads for development of this kind of device, could have done with implants, and kind of victims of mind control, like I am. Actually experiments  between 31 august and fourth of September, were very near of  this type of experiments.

 20^th.. .August 2010  11.30 p.m. My previous writing ended on fourth of July. After that next note on my notebook is of fifth of July: Attack from  repetitive voices after nine p.m.  It ended after ten p.m. After midnight there were shooting pains on left side for  front of head.

 7^th. of July. I got   a pain on the side of right eye. It started on wakeup, and continued whole morning. Next night the same pain started half past one a.m.  and continued  for noon.

10^th. of July. They awakened me about three a.m. and started verbal manipulation, and rather heavy pain on side of the right eye. I shielded with loud music and practicing morse-code. They used back pain, and some other pains to keep me awake. I did not sleep after three a.m.  I woke up after nine a.m. The pain on the right eye continued whole morning rather strong.

11^th. fo July. Pain around the right eye at wakeup. It disappeared after half an hour. Rather heavy verbal manipulation  continued most of the day. Half past six p.m. started pain around the left eye,  continued a while

13^th. of July . They got me extremely sleepy, and I went to sleep half past nine p.m. At night they awakened me around one o’clock a.m.  and started repetitive voices.  I shielded with loud music and morse-code practice, but I did not get sleep that night, so I got about three hours of  sleep on that night. In the next evening they caused a new kind of pains on somewhere on upper side of manubrium sterni. This happened mostly between seven and eight p.m.  but occasional pains continued until I went to sleep.

15^th. of July. They got me awake around three o'clock,  a.m. and started verbal manipulation. So I got sleep about  four hours. I started to interfere their manipulation with loud music and morse-code practice. This caused  them to start repetitive voices, and pains on side of my  left ear. I did not get any more sleep on  that night. I felt that the perpetrators behavior was a lightly different  than earlier, so they perhaps were a new group of perpetrators. In the morning they started very aggressive verbal manipulation. I found from  myself that after “talking”  with them, that my throat went sore. This was interesting. The “talking” is not with voice, but I am actually thinking verbally.  It is of course possible that they intentionally caused sore throat, but this made me thinking, what is the actual difference between verbal thinking, and speaking? What muscles are involved in verbal thinking , and are there any differences between mind control victims and other people. They destroyed my reading without verbally voicing words on my  mind, about thirty years ago, when they started. It happened with a kind of machine, that showed written sentences on my mind, of fraction of time for each sentence. I  believe that idea, behind this was that they did not know what I was thinking on my old faster style of reading. So they wanted that I pronounce the words on my mind, so that they would read them..

The perpetrators went very angry mood, when I said that men in the last wars did not fight , to defend  this kind of fascist countries they are making for us, but they fight because they believed for democracy and equality of all people.

16^th.  of July. They got me awake   around one o’clock a.m. After I shielded myself  with loud music, and interfered their verbal manipulation by practicing morse-code. I did not get sleep that night. They used also some back pains to keep me awake.

17^th. of july. Around four o'clock p.m.  I got pain on side of left eye once a while . This continued  some minutes. This same happened on  next day evening..

19th. of July. Start of the week torture. They got me awake around  three a.m. , so I slept about three  hours. I did not use music to shield myself from manipulation. That was perhaps my mistake. In the morning pain on left eye started half past nine and it continued  until evening.  Lunchtime they started repetitive voices, and continued it on my work. On lunch, I was able to shield with loud music, but it was not possible on workplace. After work, they got me so tired, that I went to sleep half past seven p.m. They awakened me at half past eleven p.m.  After I did not get any sleep whole night. So the difference for earlier months is , that before, they let me to sleep for two hours, on night of their sleep deprivation torture session. Now they let me sleep about three hours for night.

On Twentieth of July afternoon, they started very aggressive repetitive voice  manipulation with  occasional pain of side of left eye. This made my working very difficult.

21^st. of July. They got me awake before three o’clock a.m. I did my usual defense – Loud music and morse-code practice, to interfere their manipulation. This time they made my morse-code practice difficult, by blocking my memory, so that I did not remember words of songs I was translating into morse-code on my mind. Sometimes between four and five a.m.  they got some technical  problems on their equipments the voice started wheezing on my ears. However I did not get any more sleep, before they get their machines working again.

22^nd. of July.  y caused me sleepiness on 21st.  of July evening, so I went to sleep half past nine p.m.  They awakened me after midnight. I resisted their manipulation my usual way loud music and practicing morse-code. On their manipulation they spoke that the background organization, that has made lots of money for me – has put some money for my use in my  end. If this is true , and not just story to keep me awake, the interesting thing (if they spoke truth) is that perpetrators are on project. The project has perhaps budgeted some money for me, but because they are planning to torture me until death , they are probably planning to use that money for other purposes.

24^th of July. . They awakened me after two a.m. last night. I shielded with music and morse-code practice.  I got some sleep  after they awakened me. I believe my sleeping time was perhaps three or four hours. In the afternoon before three o’clock p.m. pain on the left side , back of the head. This accompanied with very intense verbal manipulation. The pain on left side of the head continued next day. The pain was felt especially when moving  my jaws, example when eating. In the afternoon pain on the side of  the right eye started and continued very strong until late night.

26^th of July. Start of the week torture.  I went to sleep after midnight, and they awakened me at three a.m.  On the talk the perpetrators made clear for me, that they will never get caught, and I will stay their prisoner for end of my life, and my life is fully on their hands. Pain on the right eye  continued from 24th. of July, and I feel by manual manipulation of the arteries, that some arteries are sore. The perpetrators call their technique of blocking arteries binding , and they admit that manual massage could temporally open their binding.

27^th. of July. The pain on the right eye stopped sometime morning. Then started pain on left side back of the head. It was severe on the evening, and was felt especially when eating.

I went to sleep early. I slept about one hour, after they awakened me. This happened several times. After three a.m. did not get sleep at all. They used all kinds of pains to keep me awake.  I shielded my usual way , with loud music and morse-code.

28^th. of July I do not know how much I slept.  It is possible , that I did not get into  real sleep at all. I was a whole night in   a kind of half sleep. As a new trick,  they someway closed my nostrils, so that I did not get breath well. I believe that they did it by raising blood pressure on the  nose area. They did this same  trick more often, for some years ago. They also caused  pain on left knee that is a new trick.  Their basic set of night torture, is pain on back and verbal manipulation . In the morning  they started pain on nside of right eye. It continued  a whole day, and diminished after half past eight p.m.

29^th. of July.    They got me awake  about two a.m., and started intensive verbal   manipulation. I used music and morse-code practice,  to shield.  I did not get sleep after two a.m. , so I slept about three hours on this night. Pain on the right eye continued more or less severe  whole night, and they also used pain on left knee  to keep me awake

30^th. fo July. I slept well, about seven hours. In the morning the  perpetrators told me that Canadian Army has made a special sleep group to find ways  to cope with my sleep ( I guess this means music on my sleep, that disturbs their manipulation).  If this was true, it means that Canadian Army is still among the perpetrators, or the perpetrator. If the main purpose is to manipulate me , while I am in sleep. It means that - because of time difference between Finland and Canada -  the perpetrators would work day time, to manipulate my sleep. However there is pretty aggressive manipulation, on daytime also.

Rather  strong pain started in the right eye  after ten p.m.  It continued until next morning  31st. of July . However I got some sleep. They awakened me at two a.m. and started verbal manipulation. I used loud music, and morse-code practice, to interfere their manipulation, and I got some sleep after some hours. On their verbal manipulation, they gave a very ugly picture about my future. They will torture me until my death.  They used the phrase “as long as  horse runs, and carts remain intact” .  They use very much phrases, that are unknown for me. I suppose the phrases come from  rural area living.

1^st.  of August. The pain on side of the right eye started half past one afternoon and continued until evening.

2^nd. of August. After I went to bed, I got some sharp strong shooting pains about middle of the head. They explained it as  “taking samples” . Later they used it name “electric  whip”. They awakened me sometime at night, but I got some sleep. I did not sleep very well, but I slept so long, I believe, I got about five hours of sleep. On the night before midnight , they caused strong a kind of neck spasm.

4^th. of August. They awakened me sometime about three a.m., but I got some sleep after. They also used pains to get me sleep on right side, instead of left side , I have used to sleep, and partly succeeded.

5^th. of August.  They awakened me twice, about three a.m. and four a.m. , and tried to start verbal manipulation.  I estimate, that I slept about three hours that night.

7^th. of August. They used a new kind of pain on the left knee, to keep me awake. They awakened me several times.  I slept several short periods, but did not get normal sleep.

9^th. of August. Start of the week torture. They awakened me after three a.m.  After they used verbal manipulation, and all kinds of pains, especially pain on the left knee – to  prevent me to get sleep. I got some sleep, perhaps three hours. Next nights tenth and eleven of August of  were very similar. Perhaps this is the new technique Canadian Army designed as  perpetrators told me 30th. of July. They awakened me  several times of night, perhaps not let me get real sleep at all. It works as sleep deprivation, but is much more difficult  to resist.

 11^th. of August, there was a pain on side of the right eye that started in morning  and continued late night.

12^th of August. They awakened me after midnight. I got about hour sleep.  That is perhaps also a part of their new sleep deprivation torture technique. A kind of row days when  the victim, gets hour or two sleep for night. Because I did not get sleep, I  wake up after three, and started to write.

16^th. of August.  They awakened me at three o’clock at night . After they used pains on left knee, and talking to prevent me to get any sleep. My left knee was very sore this morning, and walking was difficult. Strong pain on left temple started in the morning, and continued couple of hours.

17^th. August. They awakend me at night around one o’clock a.m.  Next time they awakened me after three a.m. It is difficult to know how much sleep I got, but I believe it was about three hours. Walking was again difficult. In the afternoon, they caused pains on left knee. I believe they did it by blocking arteries. Massage helped a moment.

18^th. of August. I went to sleep around eleven p.m. They tried repetitive voices at start. I was able to block it with loud music, but it did some time.  They tried several times to  start verbal manipulation, and caused some pains to get me change position while  I was asleep. About  three a.m. I stopped sleeping , and started to write this. I believe I got something between two and three hours of sleep.  The difference for their sleep deprivation sessions, for earlier months is , that  now it is more difficult to measure how much I actually sleep. The sessions are perhaps couple opf days longer than before, and I get perhaps hour more of daily sleep.  I estimate that my average sleep time is now about three hours, and  lastt spring it was about two hours, during the sleep deprivation session.

I did this writing ready to put internet, and made decision, that next time when the perpetrators awake me in   middle of the night, I will wake up, and put this writing immediately  out to internet. Couple of next night I was able to sleep without harassment.  To be honest, it is possible also, that my stress limit went full for this time, and my writing had nothing to do with their temporary stop of sleep deprivation.

I have signed   the petition on FFCH Internet side to United States Congress “A Petition Against the Military and Intelligence Agencies Use of Organized Stalking and Electronic Torture”  , and I urge everybody do to the same. In time of my signing, there were about 500 signatures already, most of them other victims, I believe.

In western democracies, we have, very few ways to influence Congress between the elections.

We could try to contact our representative, to express our  ideas and  opinions how the country should run. If a group of people have common opinion of some particular subject, they could organize  into a form of society, like FFCH ,  to boost their common concerns. Petition is a natural way to express common concern of a group of people. It is a way to say our representative, that we think this way, for this matter, and we  want you to forward these matters as our representative. If  people’s representative does nothing to further people concern, he may perhaps loose his support on next election.

have expressed my opinion,, how democracy is working on minorities, on present  “Winner takes the all  election system” , that is use in United States , Canada  and some other countries on 8.1.2010 diary. If  we all five hundred people that have signed the petition, had lived in one electoral district, we would have some political voting power on election. Now if some members of congress will investigate our matters, it is a purely question of his will  to support ideas, which United States was once founded. The election system makes base, that in part dictates which  type of persons will get elected, and how efficient and fair the government is as a whole.

 However, I do not believe that changing United States election system into some proportional systems , would  diminish all the problems right away. All the corrupted ways to deal, attitudes and routines,  that congressmen and civil cervants have adopt in past of hundreds years,  will not change in one moment. United Kingdom still suffers for  some practices that come from 17th century when the King has ultimate powert over all people lives.

Changing election rules into proportional election system, would make possible, the  slowly chance, for a better direction.  Oppression of minorities and now common corruption and  human rights violations,  that electronic torture and stalking is just one example  would became more difficult.

The Election  system  means  for the  nation very much same as soil means for  plants. It  - dictates which kind of plants will grow well in it, and which kind of plants wither away.

Newsweek listed  countries where people have best life .For ten best countries to live, only  one has “winner takes all” election system. The rest nine had  some kinds of  proportional election systems. This particular one  country is Canada. Canada is rich for natural resources, that makes possible a high standard of living for majority. But because Canada oppress minorities, I would not keep Canada any  model of  agood democracy. Countries with not that much riches on their soil like Finland, and Switzerland still beat Canada for the quality of life.

I still hope that everybody signs the Congress “A Petition Against the Military and Intelligence Agencies Use of Organized Stalking and Electronic Torture”

. 29 years ago,  in 1981 winter,  I made a pamphlet  where I explained my situation. I send this pamphlet for all  the members  of  the Canadian House of Commons. I  asked them to find out what classified information Canadian Police and army had about my case. I nearly succeed. One member of  Canadian 350 members parliament, conservative Bill Domm, asked Solicitor General Robert Kaplan, to investigate my case. 

 I do not know, what exactly happened, after that. but I believe that he was pressured to take his question back. Now when   petition has 500 or more  signatures. We have   much more possibilities to succeed.

4.7.2010  7.50  p.m. My last writing was  at   17^th,   May, when I was a bit worried about  my death.  I did not get killed - not at yet anyway. This does not exclude possibility that my perpetrators will kill me. after year or  two , when things are cooled down, and I am not aware, or afraid for any such possibility. Actually the first week -  after I put my last writing  to  internet, was rather peaceful.

On 19^th. of May There was a start of the week torture. They awakened me at one  o’clock a.m. after I broke my c-pap machine mask. I did not sleep at  this night, partly because I had some work to do, and partly because did not have my c-pap machine. I repaired the mask with glue, and it  did take some time to dry. 

I slept nights well until  23^rd. of May  when  I awakened at four a.m. for a headache, and dizzy feeling.

24rd. of May, they awakened me at one o’clock a.m. I put music loud for shield, and started to do Morse code exercise , to make their manipulation more difficult . Again they threaded to kill me, as a new alternative to cause my death they spoke about hemorrhage. I put my oximeter on my wrist. It does not save my life, but it would show when my heart stops, and  the heartbeat before that.. They also caused pains on heels and left elbow , and neck. I got about two hours sleep this  night. The pain on chest felt whole next day , while cycling or doing some other physical exercise. Next night I did not sleep at all, they used all kinds of pains on back and left elbow to keep me awake.

25^th. of May , I went sleep about eight p.m. They used repetitive voices, I shielded with loud music, and did Morse code. I was that tired , that I slept about four hours. They succeeded to awake me at two o’clock a.m.  They told me that my music, causes them headache, and threatened that they will put me to eat “blodpalt”.  Their headache  means – if they speak truth -   that they have some kind of connection to my brain, that works with sound.

31^st. of May. They awakened me at two o’clock a.m.  I used loud music, to shield their manipulation. I felt smell of smoke, I am not sure was it real, or imaginary. Anyway, in the morning, I changed filter my c-pap machine. In the afternoon, I had a headache, on the forehead, that started after four p.m.

On start of June, there were several nights, they kept me a kind of half asleep, while talking all the time 1-3 of June, where these kind of nights. I am not sure how much I slept, I believe about three hours for night.

6^th. of June  They caused  a strong headache and nausea between ten p.m. and one ‘clock a.m.  On wakeup about nine a.m. there were a mild headache on front of my  head. This means, they have disturbed my brain blood flow on nighttime.  After wakeup there were headache, backache, nausea, and diarrhea, that would actually also come from some natural reasons. I went asleep while sitting on chair outside of house. I slept several hours outside. Later on I went asleep while watching television. I awakened on headache, and was still tired, so I went to sleep, and slept until three a.m.

8^th. of June. I was afraid the start of week torture, so I went to bed earlier than usually. They let me sleep until about two o’clock a.m. After they awakened me, I put music loud on my earphones, and started Morse code exercise. I was not tired enough to get sleep, but this way I made their manipulation more difficult. I slept about three hours that night.

9^th. of June. I went to bed about ten p.m. They awakened me around one a.m. So I slept about one hour this night. I used water-container around my head. Water helps a kind of sharp compression  feeling on head, that their manipulation causes after a while.  There should be no cap between water container and head,  that the method  is effective. Of course one has to take care someway, that water does not change his  head temperature -  by insulation, or by warming the water. They warned me that I should change the water for new  on the containers, because it is old , and would cause cancer. I answered that the water does not cause cancer but their “shooting” through the water.  I added that  if they know that shooting through water could cause cancer for me , and they still continue shooting, and I got cancer, their should get prosecuted for murder, because they knowingly put me in danger to get cancer.

This my speech did not get any major impact for   them, they continued “shooting” like before . Next day  afternoon, they started pain on right side of head, just side of the right eye. The pain continued for night, although mild. The night I went a kind of half asleep, while they were talking, so I was not sure how many hours I slept. In the morning, the pain on side of right eye, started again, this time more painful.

10^th. of June.  I did not sleep at all. I do not remember that I slept a moment anyway. Before ten  p.m. , they started pain on side of right eye. They started torture on one o’clock a.m. , I believe their shift of work starts about  this time. I shielded myself with loud music. They used back pains among other tricks , to keep me awake. The perpetrator, that  once threaded to kill me ,spoke. - I recognized him from  his way to speak. Now he said , that he believes that there comes some kind of investigation our case. “  However we cannot let any, of your kind of artist, to interfere this investigation” he added. In the morning , there was a new kind of sharp pain on side of right eye. This pain continued, with some breaks on the afternoon.

11^th. of June  There was pain on side of right eye , whole night. They also made my right ear sore, that I would not use earphones. I used them anyway. They awakened me at four a.m. I shielded with loud music. They caused back pain, that made me impossible to sleep. That way continued  until nine a.m.  After wakeup , I found dizziness , when I stand up , or take something from ground etc. There was also pain on side of right eye. This continued with some pauses at least two hours.

12^th. of June. I slept about normal way, although I went to bed about five a.m. Before I went to bed they “shoot” me , so  I felt  kind of fuzzy.

14^th of June. Start of week torture.  They awakened me at two a.m. and did not let me sleep after. Next morning there  was a strong  pain on side of the right eye. Later on I felt very tired, and my muscles were sore, like after long physical exercise. I had also some fewer.

15^th. of June. Very heavy pain on side of the right eye It continued whole night. Perhaps the most painful torture of this year.

17^th. of June. The heavy pain on side of right eye started yesterday half past seven p.m. and continued  whole night. I had some sleep, but awakened about one o’clock a.m.  Their explanation of pain on the eye was ,that they are correcting macular degeneration on the right eye. I fear that they are perhaps trying to interfere my reading , so that I got my brain something else that is on paper, or something else that helps their manipulation. Anyway it is extremely painful, like knife on the right eye whole night.

18^th. June. Last night I went asleep, then I awakened very similar pain than night before. Their explanation , what they are doing was different this time. “we are building something, on your right eye” . I am a bit skeptical their ability to build something. They would disable, or break something on my head, but I have not found, that they have built something new, useful. They said that they would use “anesthesia” this time. After I went unconscious, and awakened, after normal sleeping.  On the evening I felt extremely tired, and went to sleep early. I awakened before midnight for headache. Manual manipulation of the head, made me  sure, they were cutting blood flow on the head, and this caused headache.  There was a sore point on both side of neck, and manipulating that point , stopped the headache for a moment.

20^th. of June.  In the morning. Rather heavy headache, like “after sauna torture”.  Manipulating sore points on neck, lets the blood flow into  whole head, that makes fuzzy feeling on while. Besides headache on front head, I have some difficulties walking straight, and little hand shaking.  The headache disappeared after couple of hours, but not  pain on my  head, especially left on front of head. This feeling continued , whole day, especially on coughing. On manual manipulation of head, I found that there is a sore point about five centimeter right on my left ear, that causes the pain on coughing. Manipulating it stops the pain on coughing. There is a similar point on right, but this is about three centimeter down of my right ear.  These someway disturb my head blood circulation. So eating something, or just keeping my mouth on continuous move, helps the pain.

21^st. of June. Typical start of the week torture. I went sleep about midnight, they awakened me after one o’clock a.m.  So I slept about one hour this night. They used also pains on  back to keep me awake. I used loud music, and did some Morse code on my mind to shield myself their manipulation.   While I was on my work , they started “after sauna torture” type of headache on forehead , that continued whole day.

22st. of June. I slept badly , but I believe over three hours. There were some very aggressive verbal manipulation , that disturbed my work performance.  On lunchtime they tried to do “fast sleep” , so I began to nod on library. On evening after six p.m. they started repetitive voices on left ear. I shielded with loud music, and sheet metal. They got the ear only part of sensitive certain frequency of sounds.

23^rd. of June On night ,they kept me a kind of half asleep, while talking me whole time. I am not sure how much I really slept, or did I have real sleep at all.

27^th. of June. I found , that several nights they have someway succeeded, to cause me turn to right side on left side, so that they can more easily manipulate my other side of head, while I am asleep. The side of head that is upside, also feels different on morning, that side that is down while I have slept.

29^th. of June. Sudden attack of repetitive voices on left ear at seven a.m. I shielded with waterbucks on left ear, and loud music. I listened music , and did Morse code on my mind, until nine  a.m. The ear felt different, but I did not become sensitive, for certain frequency of sounds, what happen when they succeed on their attack.

30^th. of June. They started torture when I went to bed. Actually they threaded, that I will not sleep for three nights. I puit loud music on, and did Morse code exercises, to made their manipulation as difficult as possible. This continued about three four hours, after I went asleep. If I had to go to work, they  would   have succeeded, because I would not have many hours to sleep. However for my luck, my vacation started. In the morning they threaded: You do not know our all tricks. We have not used “lasso” for you yet. I do not know what “lasso” means, perhaps some kind of strangling.

First of July, pain on the right temple of the head , continued whole day. On the evening the pain moved on right eye. It continued, when I went to sleep, but was vanished on next morning.

3^rd. of July. On night they threaded:  we do not have  “moose rifle”  now, but we will get it tomorrow. In the evening started pain above the right eye

I wrote about  Afghanistan opium-trade on 31 August 2009. I explained that there were actually no opium production, while Taliban was on power in _AfghanistanUnited States had ethical and moral choice. They can destroy the poppy-field on Afghanistan, which cuts the heroin production, and  freeze growth of  heroin-addiction on world. On other hand , it destroys the only source of income from those farmers, who make  their living from cultivating poppy. It also affects severely Afghan Economics. Smuggled Opium is Afghanistan major export article, and makes about one third of country gross national product.

 Other possibility for Us-Army is let the fields grow ,and this way please poppy farmers, and other people, that make their living more or less on opium smuggling business.

  US-army has made its decision , they do not eradictate  the opium producers poppy fields. Interesting point is that British forces have made just opposite decision

If US-army decision not to interfere opium smuggling business, has made poppy farmers happy on their villages, CIA  radio controlled Predator strikes on tribal villages on Pakistan have made these people on their villages very unhappy. On 2009 radio-controlled Predators had killed over 700 innocent civilians, and only five Taliban leaders, that they were targeted to kill. So for killing one Taliban leader causes death about 140 innocent civilians.. This calculation  does not include  wounded -people who have lost their limbs  etc.

Behind these  cruel atrocities, one can easily find United States decision makers  attitude,  that people in Pakistan tribal villages, are someway cheaper people,  and it is possible to massacre  over  hundred of them , if same time they could kill Taliban leader they want to kill . They would not make Predator strike example Kansas City in Unitd States, even if they know some Taliban leader perhaps is there on certain time.

These Predator drone strikes is  example of very popular attitude in North America. For short time gain people are willing to take long term risks, that usually sooner or later will materialize. Two other examples, fron near history I would mention are  subprime loans,  and relaxed safety rules, and relaxed attitude towards safety  that caused Deepwater Horizon oil spill,   Both of these incidents have caused much larger losses, than the actual gain of taking risks was.

U.S. policy-makers, could perhaps be ignored, all the ethical aspects of killing more than a hundred innocent people in order to obtain a single guilty person murdered.  Still all these people killed and wounded  on Pakistan tribal villages have parents and children, sisters and brothers and aunts and cousins , who most of them  will hate United States and  people from United States. This hate will continue decades.

 Even if United States does not have to  worry about enemies on North Pakistan tribal villages now,  is very probable, that on the next few decades, the support from these people could be crucial, to United States policy on this geographical area.  So the small possible gain , that killing some leaders on Taliban movement could mean, could cause much larger loss in United States policy in future. Very similar attempt to make short  term gain , without consideration of  much larger long term loss, as have realized  as sub prime scandal, and  now recent oil rig accident.

On my diary  note on 17 February 2009, I wrote that United Kingdom fails on litmus test of democracy.  I used example Porton Down criminal  human experiments, which Crown procecutor  Kate Leonard  refuse to charge any scientist for some criminal and partly lethal  experiments.

 I have another example , that makes clearer the problem British have on  their country. On 13 January, 1972, British army killed 13 unarmed civil rights protesters. The Incident got name Bloody Sunday. Now after 35 years Saville Inquiry  report stated, "The firing by soldiers of 1 PARA on Bloody Sunday caused the deaths of 13 people and injury to a similar number, none of whom was posing a threat of causing death or serious injury". Report   also said, "The immediate responsibility for the deaths and injuries on Bloody Sunday lies with those members of Support Company whose unjustifiable firing was the cause of those deaths and injuries."

One can hardly call democracy to a country  where the course of justice takes 35 years, in clear case that has several witnesses. Most of guilty to murder, as well their victims have past away, before the truth story of massacre was verified by the United Kingdom legal system. Like I wrote previously sham democracy, laws are not implemented in the same way the army and police members, as ordinary people. The problem is interpretation and implementation of law. Although United Kingdom legal system does not meet quality of democratic country Saville Inquiry is a positive sign that perhaps country is heading towards real democracy. Canada and United  States have very similar problems for quality of their legal system, perhaps on historical reasons..

17.05.2010  10.55 p.m. I had made my last writing on 22^th. of   April. After I had put my last    diary note on Internet, they tortured me whole night on 23^rd. of April. I did not get sleep at all , . They used repetitive voices, and also caused all kinds or pains to keep me awake. I believe same will  happen when I put this on the net.also.

 Next night, on 24 ^rd. of April, they awakened me at four a.m. and did not let me sleep. After that. I got some pain on the left ear before half past eight a.m. Then the pain changed on the right ear. Later the pain moved on front of the head, left side. Their verbal manipulation was very aggressive.( Actually on my notes stands that the pain was on ear, but usually this kinds of pains are on  eyes, so it is possibly, that they have manipulated my memory, while I was writing on notes, - and changed word eye to ear, on my mind, and got it on writing, without that I have noticed anything odd. These are tricks they try to do once a while, and sometimes succeed.

25^th. of April. Mild after sauna torture. On manual manipulation of head, I found that veins on my  neck were sore. So they have blocked my blood circulation on head, and that way caused headache on forehead.  Pain on the forehead, feels especially when coughing.

26^th. of April. Start of the week torture. They awakened me one o’clock a.m. and later quarter to two a.m.  I put music on my earphones loud, to shielding my ears. After that they caused a dangerous feeling pain on the chest, left side. I believe it was caused  from heart problem.  The pain stayed also next  day when breathing deep.  On last of the night they caused all kinds of pains, and itching, along with verbal manipulation, to keep me awake. They also succeeded to keep me awake rest of the night. Next day, there was pain on the right eye, that became severe on the afternoon. The pain continued until about nine p.m.  At times there were pain on both eye. After nine there were some pains on chest on the left side, and they were manipulating my heartbeat.

27^th. of April. I went to sleep about half past ten p.m. They awakened me after one o’clock a.m. This is their new technique. They let me sleep  hour or two, so I am not so tired, and start torture after. Because I am not that tired, I cannot use loud music that efficiently  do get into sleep. This same happened next night 28^th. of April, I went to sleep at half past nine, and they awakened me after one o’clock a.m. So I slept about two or three hours. Also on 29^th. of April, I went to sleep at eleven p.m. and they awakened me after one a.m. I believe that there is a change of shift of perpetrators,about one a.m. , and the coming group  forced me to awake, and started verbal manipulation and did not let me to sleep rest of the night.

 Also other victims suffer for sleep deprivation, so it must have some purpose.

30^th. of April. They got me unconscious, after I returned home from work. I awakened about midnight, and put c-pap machine on my face, and  - because I did not get sleep from their manipulation -  I started loud music from earphones, to shield myself from their verbal manipulation. On midnight to seven a.m. I got two short period of sleep, about half hour, or so. After both period of sleep, my throat was dry. There was a period of verbal manipulation. After they called my torture with name chemotherapy, ( this is a very essential part of their daily verbal manipulation, to call things with names)  I told them my opinion, that they are a kind of cancer-cells of society, which should isolate, and remove, before the whole society gets sick. They got very angry. Even more angry they got after they realized, that I am not going out of bed, before I get some sleep. They have planned some activity, that requires that I am out of bed. I got perhaps, the most severe backache on this year. Usually they cause me backache, just to make sure I do not get sleep again. This time the purpose of backache  , was to torture me, and to force me out of bed. After ten  o’clock a.m. , they threaded to kill me, if I do not co-operate. This was something,  they have not done for a long time. I managed  to stay in bed, until eleven a.m. After I went out of bed, that  backache suddenly diminished.  This was second time, they tried to get me follow their orders, by threading and torturing me. I did a kind of compromise, and stayed bed so long time it was possible for pain.  Their explanation of purpose of sleep deprivation was that it is necessary for “peeling” my brains -  what ever it means.

1^st. of May. I had improved the shield of my bedroom, by painting some of the walls with magnetic paint. With it , and loud music on earphones, I was able to sleep about four hours. After this, they awakened me, and started again very painful backache, that has just purpose to torture me.  They told me that my life could be easier, if I co-operate with them. I answered that I believe that doing things my way , I would stay in better health.

2^nd. of May,  heavy pain on the right temple of head started about one o’clock a.m. After half of hour, the pain became occasional, but after three o’clock a.m. pain became more continuous and severe.

3^rd. of May. They let me sleep normally until about two a.m.  The perpetrator , explained, this is his  last time. I felt how he somehow manipulated my vein between chest and neck. I was afraid he kill me.  Later on  started normal torture.  They used repeating words on left ear. I usually put a kind of sheet metal shield on ear, and I found it was gone. so they got my left ear sensitive for certain frequency of noise. Later on they started a heavy pain on right eye.

 Because I did not have to go to work, I got some sleep after six a.m. I am happy they did not use backache torture to keep me awake, this time.

4^rd. of May.  Pain on the right temple of head started after eleven a.m. and continued about noon.

5^th. of May. They awakened me after two a.m. After I was not sure, if I slept at all. The next day was similar, I was a kind of half-sleep.

Between sixth and tenth of May , was a kind of easier time. I was not that tired, and I was able to sleep, without shielding myself with loud music.

11^th. of May. Start of the week torture. I believe I did not sleep at all. I felt a bit of malicious pleasure on their behavior.

12^th. of May. Again night without any sleep. I have stayed without sleep for 48 hours. This time they did not do it with pain, but rather they someway caused, that I did not flet sleepy.

13^th. of May. Last night I went to sleep about  half past ten p.m. I put loud music on, from headphones, because I have learned  that it someway disturb their manipulation.  It did take about four hours, before I got to sleep. After I slept about three hours. They awakened me after six a.m. and started heavy backache, to get me out of bed. Because I did not have to go to work, I managed to stay in bed until nine o’clock a.m. I even got about half of hour sleep. After wakeup, pain on the right eye started , and continued whole evening. It even got more severe after nine a.m.

15^th. of May. I got very aggressive repetitive voices on left ear afternoon,  about half past three p.m.

16^th. of May. They caused pain on the right eye between seven and ten p.m. I resisted successfully pain with different techniques, by keeping the area that hurts moving, by massage, and  moving my face muscles. Their try ended after ten p.m.

17^th. of May. They let me sleep about hour or two, after awakened me. I shielded myself from manipulation,  with loud music on earphones, after some verbal manipulation. This caused that the  perpetrator, gave me electric shock on my left heel. He threaded to kill me, if I continue shielding with loud music. He explained that for him, murdering me is easy, example  by causing ischemia, or some other ways.  He also said, that they do not have any use of “ghost riders” , that I became, if I continue to use loud music on earphones, to get sleep. I wonder how many people they have killed by causing  “ ischemia, or some other way”.  Perhaps all the people, that have wounded, or other way became useless for them.. I did Google-serch with words ischemia and mind control, and I found a link between ischemia related deaths, and electronic  mind control, as early as 2002,

This is reason I decided to put this month diary on net so hastily. Perhaps I should do my testament next.The perpetrators  are not very afraid of Internet publicity, but I believe that this writing  could help me  to save my life. I am counting also, that I am useless for them , If I am death.  So I am continuing resistance, because way of co-operation with them would  have no end.

22.04.2010  11.43 p.m.  I had made my previous note on diary at 15^th. of  March . Next night on 16^th.    of  March I got start of the week torture. I did not sleep at all. My scalp felt cold , so they must have interfered to my blood circulation on my head. Next night I was able to sleep on loud music until one o’clock   a.m. After that,  they were able to start repetitive voices. They warned me , that if  I am going to way sleeping on loud music,  that will kill me sooner or later.  They also spoke about making me aging faster.  Perhaps this means sleep deprivation.

18^th of March , I slept about three hours, they awakened me after three  o’clock  a.m. , and did not let me sleep after

22th. of March. Start of the week torture: I am not sure, but I believe that  I slept hour, or two. After ten o’clock  a.m. they started to torture me with repetitive voices, and this continued  until noon. Next night, I got also two or three hours sleep. They started with repetitive voices  after three o’clock  a.m. and succeeded to get my left ear to  sensitive for certain frequency of  noise.   6.18 p.m. they caused a sudden heavy pain on chest, left side. 

There was one night normal sleep but on 25^th. of March,  I slept about  two three hours. They used repetitive voices , and I had to put music loud. However they succeeded to awake me at four a.m.  On next afternoon,  they started to torture me at work with repetitive voices, after  quarter to four p.m.

29^th. of March. In the morning there were some pain on the back of the head. Lunchtime the pain was moved on front of the head. After three p.m. they got me very sleepy on work, almost unconscious. After four p.m. there were some repetitive voices.

30^th. of March. Start of the week torture. I did not sleep at all. They reminded me from odd taste, I felt yesterday, and called  that  taste of bitter almond.  They also told that they would poison me , if I do not co-operate.  Of course they would perhaps poison me, but that they would get a bitter taste to my mouth, does not exactly prove it.  I believe it was just effect to get me afraid.

31^st. of March. They woke me up two o’clock  a.m. night, and did not let me sleep after. So I slept about  two hours. Next night was  first of April. They woke me up, at one a.m. So I slept about hour. This is their new technique, let me sleep hour or two, so that I am not so sleepy, that I would sleep on loud music. On daytime there were shooting pains on center of the head once a while - lunchtime, and five p.m. for example. They also warned, that “stranglers” would come on next day.

2^nd. of April.  On night , there was some pain on the right side of head, that continued  until I went asleep. In the morning, they caused strong continued pain on the back, and  threatened, that they would make me  permanently immobile. I made my routinely manual massage on neck, and found that the neck was very sore. So that “strangling” just meant, that they partly stop the blood flow to my head, on the veins on neck. On wakeup there was a mild pain on the front head. Their term “strangling” would have some specialties, I do not know, but on my view, the torture was very similar than “after sauna torture”, only difference perhaps, heavy backache.

5^th. of April. Pain on the right eye started at seven p.m. It continued until I went asleep.  Next morning the pain felt on right side of head . In continued whole morning, but eased on lunchtime, and started again after seven p.m.  With manual manipulation, I found that veins on neck were sore. Apparently they were blocking the blood flow into my head. This was perhaps the worst pain on this year. The pain eased after ten p.m

7^th April. Pain on the right side of head started at noon, later on it became pain on the right eye. About similar  pain on the right side was on next day. The pain usually continued  hour or two and eased on evening, when there were other kinds itchy pains around the head.

10^th April In the morning was some pain on the right side of the head. Afternoon before four p.m. they  started repeating voices. They  repeated my name.

12^th. April. I got  repetitive voices at night. I was sleepy enough to get some  sleep when I put music on  high volume. However I did not get normal sleep, but  I slept about four hours. Next night was similar, except that they let me sleep about three or four hours, and when I was not extremely tired they woke me up , and did not let me sleep anymore . They can someway cause, that I do not feel sleepy when they awake me. Actually  idea of high volume music is, that it gets me sleepy, by interfering their manipulation.

16^th. April. I did not sleep at all, this night. Anyway I do not remember that I slept at all . Besides of verbal torture, they caused  also backache to keep  me awake. Actually they kept me a kind of half-sleep, where they manipulated me verbally. If I had got fully awake , I had used loud music to get sleep, but a kind of half sleep, I was not capable to do that, before about three o’clock  a.m.  On verbal communication there was one interesting point I remember. I told the perpetrator that on end they will get to  jail for  their crimes.  His answer was “Military personnel are not put to  jail”. For this, and several other similar weak signals, that I have collected during the years, I had started to believe that the people who torture me are members of Army. It is possible, that they make these small signals just to mislead me, but I do not believe, that they would do similar misleading sentences, year after year,  on random frequency.

The next question is , which army do they belong? The simplest answer is Finnish Army, but there are other possibilities too.  Perhaps the next probable possibility is Swedish army. There are three points that makes Swedish army more probable than some  other European armies. The first point is that  Sweden has a  large Finnish speaking population, that makes easy to recruit people for  mind control  operations. Second  point is, that  Sweden is near  Finland. The transmitters, could locate in Sweden out of reach for  Finnish authorities. The receivers would locate in Finland, and communication could work example on telephone lines, or   via Internet. The third point is that, there are other early mind control victims in Sweden, example Robert Naeslund. In both cases , if these people are member of Finnish , or Swedish army (or both) the start of my mind control experiences was in Canada, where is very improbable, that Finnish or Swedish army operates. So the start  of crime, there were  Canadian authorities, perhaps jointly with CIA , or with  other  parent organization, which  provided equipment and knowledge. Later on there must have been some kind of agreement with Finnish (or Swedish) army intelligence, where example parent organization  gives them equipments, training, and me as implanted    victim to train people to use these equipments. In turn Army would monitor, and perhaps manipulate, some interesting and important Finnish politicians, and other decision makers, and provide to  parent organization,  all the information they require.

I hope, I am still  alive, when the investigation starts, just  to find how near the truth is  my theory that Finnish or Swedish army intelligence, is involved  on  my torture.

The  perpetrators  attitude to  civilian  population, is typical to army. They believe that Army is above the laws which  civilian has to obey, and whatever crimes they commit,  they would have no trouble, so long time they just  follow orders of their superiors. Unfortunately they are partly right. Example United Kingdom’s army officials never got any punishment of Kenyan mass-murders . Two exemptions, I remember is My Lai massacre, and torture in Abu Ghraib jail, where both, the  public was provided large photographic evidences. The punishment if both cases were very mild for considering seriousness of crimes.

17th.  April.  On evening, they put me unconscious couple of times. They let me to  sleep about hour , and awakened me, and started verbal manipulation. I put loud music on, to get sleep. They caused all kinds of pains, and example itching on toe, and forehead, between eyes etc. However, I was that sleepy that I slept some hours, I believe four hours

  21th.  April  They awakened me about half past three a.m.  I was able to get some sleep  after that. The same happened  next night. “This time their story to get me awake,  was , that  I am danger here, and Russians are going to rescue me into safe place in Russia.  This made me alarmed. Perhaps this was story,  just to get me awake, but on other hand, this is not kind of  stories they typically tell me. Am I in  a danger to get kidnapped , and forcibly moved in some secret prison on unknown country ?

I have some hopes for  Jonathan Henderson inplant screening technique.  With Thermal Imaging Camera, it is   perhaps possible to pinpoint  some implants, especially if they are near the skin. I would also  extend  the search for  implants all of  the head area, where brain exist - and not just forehead. This perhaps means, person has to cut his hair, before screening.

15 March 2010  11.10  p.m. My first note is on 15^th February. Start of the week torture. I did not sleep at all. They used new technique , which  side effect  my neck feels cold. I used loud music to shield myself from repetitive voices. Next day, on  lunchtime quarter to one, they started to torture with repetitive voices, and called my name , I guess hundred time, at least.

17^th  of February. They made me unconscious “fast sleep” about hour after ten p.m.  After that, they did not let me sleep whole night. I had one hour sleep on a chair, for a  whole night.

21^st. of February. Start of the week torture again.  I slept perhaps one hour, I am not sure. This is a  new twist on their technique, to suppress my sleep. They let me to  sleep about hour, after wake up, and do not let me sleep any more on this night. I used loud music, but because I was not sleepy enough , they kept me awake. Again I got a cold spot, that comes often, when they try to keep me awake. This time the cold spot, was on the right side  of the head.

22^nd. of February. I was tired enough , that I was able to sleep with loud music. Before I fell asleep I heard quarrel. A person who had  name Monica,  was a doctor  and they blamed her for  something. Of course, there is a possibility that this was a planned “theatre” , and they wanted  me to hear that .I never know, if somebody forget his microphone open, or  “leaks”   purposely. Next night , they caused problem with eyesight on 3.30 a.m.  I saw like a kind of shaking hair on the view. It went off after half of hour.

Next couple of night I was able  to sleep, with loud music. 25^th. of February about half past ten p.m. , they succeeded to make my left ear sensitive for certain frequency of noise.

26^th. of February. They awakened me about three a.m. and started to torture. I put music loud, but I was not able to sleep anymore. I slept two or three hours this night.

27^th.  of February. They got me awake , about four a.m.  I lowered the music volume, and they started the verbal manipulation. I started to resist their manipulation, with  translating old songs into morse code. Their response was repeating voices. So I had to put music volume loud again. The loud music,  with shielding over ear, makes repeating voices less effective.  Translating something into morse code, one is able to disturb their verbal manipulation. So loud music with morse code translation, is perhaps the best combination, to get sleep. Of course it is possible only when one is really tired.

When I planned some changes for the shielding on my head, they warned to make any changes. Otherwise as they said “they would start heart experiments”. When I asked why they would not just stop their experimenting, their answer was “cow is  still in good condition, why stop”.

First of March, I got some sleep, but they woke me up after three, and started talking.

Second of March, was again start of the week torture. I did not sleep at all. They used all kinds of pains to keep me awake. As a new form of pain, there was also some pain on leg area. They also used heart palpitations.

Third of March. Pain on the right eye started in the morning, after I remembered , that there were no pain on the right eye as often as before. Pain continued until seven p.m.

Fifth of March. They disturbed my sleep for all possible ways, backache etc. However I got some sleep, although not enough. Next day I felt some dizziness. In the evening there were some occasional pain on the right side of  the head. It  vanished, and came back again. Seven and eight of March, on the evening started pain on the right side of head, that continued  until night. This same happened on ninth of March, but this night they awakened me about four a.m. , and used all the means including back pain to keep me awake. I used loud music to resist manipulation.

11^th. of March night , They awakened me with a kind of shrinking feeling, and pain on head. After I relieved the head, with manual manipulation of head, started pain on the right eye. I put, stainless steel sheet metal on right side of  eye. It relieved a bit. I put also on loud music. I was able to sleep a bit with loud music. I even had a dream. However they woke me up before seven, and started verbal manipulation.

15^th. of  March. On lunchtime around one pm.  they started torture with repetitive voices.  Similar torture continued on work after three p.m. There must be some function to repeat one word, or couple of words for hundreds times. Perhaps they try to locate the exact place of  this word, on brain, by victim’s response. However they rather seldom erase the word they repeat.

Whole month, the  perpetrators have tried  to block out  word Gladio ,  from  my memory, and replace it with word Gaia. Gladio is the name of CIA sponsored  right wing network, of European terrorist organizations. For example it arranged bombing of Bologna railway station in Italy in 1980 , killing 85 people. This was typical false flag operation where aim of the  CIA, was to get Italian  people to  believe,  that Red Brigades organization was arranged that mass-murder.

The reason why I am interested in Gladio, is that, I have a theory that CIA has, supplied some of these right wing terrorist groups,  with electronic mind reading- and controlling equipments, and trained  terrorist  to use them

There are no much  actual evidence,   that this has happened  , only mention of mind control , from retired U.S. agent Edward L. Schooling bitter open letter. Edward L. Schooling was stationed in Europe with top secret clearance.  However  the fact , that there are victims, nearly all of the language groups, and all the other small details I have, fit the  theory that Gladio (or other similar CIA sponsored group) is responsible for European electronic mind-control harassment.

In my scenario, mind control equipments are supplied for portion of   Army or  Police, in these  countries where police, or army has habit for secretly infiltrate, and manipulate the political decision-making, Greece before military-coup ,  was   an  example of this kind of country.  For other type countries, the mind-control equipments are  given for small  right-wing groups, that  would have members from  police and  army too. The victims of electronic mind control, in European countries   are not the actual targets, but simply people, that perpetrators use for training purposes to  gain  necessary skills, to manipulate and listen for  local politicians and other decision makers.

 I believe that the manipulation of politicians, is different than rather rough and cruel manipulation and torture  of us ( actually my perpetrators call us corpses, in their internal communication ). Most of the politicians are perhaps only listened. Very few of the politicians could recognize that they are manipulated.

Even in passive use , only for listening somebody, mind reading devices are really powerful tool for manipulating  the society. Now there are computer programs, that could find words, from brainwave recordings. However I believe - for several reasons -  that device my perpetrators use to read my mind, is not digital. They are invented an analog device, that make  possible to listen for another person thinking.  Actually trying to understand other person  thinking by analyzing his  brainwaves by computer program , is like trying to understand what person is speaking, by analyzing his speech acoustic  fingerprint, by computer program.

 All the  people use words for  thinking. Person can perhaps think without words, but before he can express his thinking any way to other people , he has to translate it to language. This process is, what makes the  perpetrators able to listen, for another person thinking. People that speak themselves actually vocalize their thinking. Also majority of  people that do  not speak themselves,  vocalize their thinking on their  minds. Virtually all of the people use words their everyday thinking, and these words they use, are  possible to listen.

Beside of  passive listening, perpetrators have plenty of tricks that could ruin some unwanted politician career, if so wanted. Blocking the  words from  memory for example. A bit more difficult , but still possible,  are  tricks that could  manipulate people decision-making. The perpetrators could make  ´person  to feel tired, when he reads some particular document, that perpetrators do not want him to read etc.  Even sudden excessive coughing in strategic moment, could change course of  important meeting. All this could be done , without that perpetrators have spoken any words to the victims.

In my theory, people from  different language groups, are  trained to use these listening and harassing equipments, and I am one of the “involuntary stuntmen” - targets that are used for  training of Finnish language perpetrators. After training,  these perpetrators, are let  to listen and manipulate politicians, and other  decision makers. This has continued for years, and I believe that use of mind reading equipments has some role occurrences the foreign and domestic  policy of European countries, and the phenomenon is continuing

Of course, it is possible that the project name not Gladio, and it is possible that organization behind it, is some other than CIA, (example NSA) , but this  Gladio project fits for all the small the details I have gathered, so I will continue to use it as working theory, before something contradictory arrive.

There are over thousand people who  are used as a training targets, so the actual project , or group of projects, must have multimillion dollar annual budged.

Part of  our  problem is in communication - how to express this information for  somebody, who should know this, and who could arrange investigation. How to do it   so that he understands, and also believe  our message, and not simply translate our message, on his mind,  as  a symptom of mental disorder.

Most of the mainstream media, has kept total silence for  existence-  or even possibility of electronic mind control. Exception some   articles about mind-control information,  that I believe is mostly carefully compiled  disinformation, that is tailored to discredit mind-control victims.

One example of such articles,  appear in New York Times 2008. In this article the journalist rely on authority of several high professional  of  mental health, such as  Dr. Ralph Hoffman, a psychiatry professor at Yale, Vaughan Bell, a British psychologist, Dr. Jeffrey A. Lieberman, chairman of the Department of Psychiatry at Columbia University, and Dr. Ken Duckworth, the medical director for the National Alliance on Mental Illness.

All these authorities express their opinion that people who feel that they are harassed or controlled by electronic  equipments are psychotic and mentally sick.

The problem is, that although these gentlemen  are mental health professionals.  their experience  from world outside of  their daily living sphere, comes  probably   from  New York Times newspaper  and other comparable media. I give a hypothetical example, what I mean.

 Lets think that United States -  for reason or other - had wanted to keep secret Apollo  moon program .  So Apollo  11 landing on the moon  is kept secret from public. Lets think also that somebody of the crew members,  example Neil Armstrong after couple of years, became patient of  Dr. Ralph Hoffman ,that I have mentioned  above, and tells his secret moon landing. I am sure Dr. Hoffman would classify him as mentally sick person, who has delusions that he has had secret trip  to moon with spacecraft.

Actually these mental health professionals, have opinion that everybody who has experiences, which existence is not commonly known, has some mental problems. Their common knowledge of world, these mental health professionals get from major news media.

Another example is  from real world. The Gulf war syndrome, was first explained as mainly psychological post traumatic stress disorder, apparently by Army mental health experts. It did take seventeen years, and lots of scientific research before Research Advisory Committee on Gulf War Veterans made decision, that the syndrome is a distinct physical condition.

If Dr. Ralph Hoffman, and other mental health specialists , had made their diagnosis after through medical testing of group of   mind-control victims, where example electroencephalogram patterns of victims, are compared to control group of normal people and group of mentally sick people , and epidemiological study where sicknesses of and lifespan  are compared normal group and group of  mentally sick people that do not complain that they are harassed electronically, etc. I would have  given more value on  their opinion.

I do not have  very high opinion for New York Times editorial honestly.  I take example from CIA project Gladio,  that I wrote earlier. This is perhaps the most revealing article, I found project Gladio, from  New York Times. When one compares it to Truthmove organisation writings, or Edward L Scooling open letter  , he finds that  New York Times article is like a hamburger without the beef. New York Times does not mention  the  bombing of  Bologna railway station, in Italy, that killed 85 people, or shooting on supermarket Belgium, Brabant county, that killed 28 people.

I give another example:  Last January, the news broke out, that some of the prisoners were killed by torture in Guantanamo concentration camp. Perhaps the  best story of this news, is on  Harpers magazine.  I did not find this news on New York Times at all. On case of Gladio terrorism, the new York Times reporting was like a hamburger without the beef. On case of Guantanamo “suicides” The  New York Times readers had no hamburger,  nothing at all.

To say something positive from New York Times, its technical level on Internet is excellent. I like the hyperlinks on stories, and I like, that I am able to make search, for several years back on their news archive , etc.

With Google search one can find that New York Times , was not only newspaper, that did not report the news of Guantanamo cover-up, but there was large portion of other mainstream media also.  The situation was similar, like on start of the Watergate Scandal, when Washington Post was the only newspaper, that reported this case.

The difference between  Guantanamo killings cover-up and Watergate,  is that  there is no Senate Committee , that would start investigations on Guantanamo cover-up , like was in case of Watergate scandal.

Without the Senate committee , also Watergate scandal would have dried on size of Guantanamo cover-up. Perhaps the main difference is, that in case of Watergate, the victim of crime  was powerful Democratic party, and with case of Guantanamo cover-up, the victims were just some  political prisoners from foreign country, that were killed.

Censorship is like a black monster on the dark room, and we are not able to see it. We can find a part of it, only if some light comes to the room.

14.2.2010 9.58  p.m.   10^th. of January . On night I got three hours sleep, before they  woke me up.  After that I did not get sleep.  This is their new technique. If I sleep  hour or two, it is easier to keep me awake, rest of the night. This night they caused also dry mouth,. This is new, it has not happened  for some months.

12^th. of  January  night was typical start of the week torture. I din not get sleep at all. The perpetrators  promised  “underwater life” for me. It is not meaningful to try to encode , their coded message. For me it reminds oxygen supply, lungs, nitrogen bubbles, carbon dioxide level, on blood.  It is scaring.  I have a storing oximeter that could store, how much oxygen I have my  blood while I am sleeping, but it does not measure  carbon dioxide level, or possible nitrogen bubbles  on blood, etc.

13^th. of January was second night, without sleep, on a row. They have some new kind of technique to keep me awake, they do not use pains , like before, but have some kind of new electronic way to keep me awake. I was awake over 50 hours  before I got sleep  on 14^th. of January night. In the morning there was again the dry mouth, and pain on the right side of the head. Also next night 15^th. of January I had dry mouth on wakeup.

17^th. of January.  There were no dry mouth on the morning.  Actually dry mouth ended on 15^th. of January. Instead there were pains on the right eye on several occasions on this day.

18^th. of January there were start of the week torture. I did not have  sleep at all. This time they used repetitive voices , and pains also. Sometimes at night they caused also heart palpitations. I was afraid about  heart attack. On their verbal torture, they promised me “peacefull death”.

19^th of January. They kept me awake whole night with their new technique. I made decision, not to get out of bed before I got some sleep. I got sleep about three hours, by listening extremely loud music with earphones . I believe it someway interferes, their  new technique to keep me awake. . I have learned that some other victims have found this way to resist mind control also. Other possibility is that they purposely let me sleep for a while. This night they also raised my  heart beat  about 100 beats  at minute,  I collected  that to my oximeter, as a evidence, in case I get a heart attack.  Because I slept   on the morning, I was not able to go to work  before  afternoon.

20^th. of January. I was able to sleep about normal way after long fight. I used earphones, with loud music, starting on time I went to bed. Next day ,the perpetrators, were very aggressive ,with verbal torture, and  interfered my work on several occasions  with  verbal manipulation.

21^th. of January. I was able to sleep,  by listening very loud music with earphones I found that for their new technique to keep me awake, has  connection to the  cold feeling on my neck.  Apparently they partly  disable the blood circulation somewhere on the neck area. In the morning  quarter past nine, they caused pain on the chest on left side, that disappeared  after thirty minutes.

22th of  January   I was able to sleep with less music. On the morning there was a pain on the right side temple   of my head.

23^th. of January. Pain on the right eye started on night, and diminished on wakeup. Next day 24^th. of January Pain on the right eye started on wakeup, and diminished  after noon.

26^th of January. Start of  the week torture. They let me sleep couple of hours, and then awakened me. Next night they spoke about  “wedding crashers” coming this night. They also spoke feeling of  smoky air , when they come. I slept normally, but in the morning the lungs were somewhat sore, the feeling continued whole morning. In the afternoon after four  p.m. they disturbed my work with repetitive voices . The words which they  repeated this time were “more valuable”

28^th. of January  after three p.m.  They disturbed my work by calling my name over hundred times.

29^th of January . On night they awakened  me up, after I had slept couple of hours. In the morning they were using repetitive voices. The words of this time were “shut up”.

30^th. of January after ten p.m. They replaced the word meta on my mind with word mega. I found the difference, but because they had erased the word meta on my brain, it did take some time , before I recollect it.  Basically the procedure was similar as I told 19th. August 2009 , when they replaced one number on my bank code with other. I know when they  not succeed, but when they succeed, I do not find at all. I am sure, they have caused,  that I have spoken or written something inaccurate or funny.

1^st.   of February was start of the week torture. I did not have sleep at all. They did not use speech or pains to keep me awake, everything was done some electrical way. The temperature of room was 18^th. Celsius, but spite of this I felt hot. On some occasions they also controlled my heart beat, and made it faster.  They also told that they will experiment  with me until “end” . If I do not get help from anywhere, that means , that they are using me, like somebody would use rat or other test-animal, on different experiments , whole my lifetime

Second of February  after  four p.m.  I felt uneasy feeling on genitals, and some headache on front head.

Third of February . I slept  normally, but in the morning I found that they have got my left ear to sensitive  for some frequencies again. The repetitive voices which they used, felt like pain.  I was able also produce  sound on certain frequency , that  I felt as pain.

Fourth of February , I got couple of hours sleep. They got me awake ,  about three a.m. , and kept me awake rest of the night. I found that my neck felt very cold, perhaps it someway is connected their technique to keep me awake.

7^th. of February. Pain on the right eye started occasionally at night, but continued more severe in the morning. Later on it felt as pain on whole right front head, and also on upper teeth on the  right side.

9^th of February Pain on the right temple of the head. It started on evening, and ended when I went to sleep. Next day after one p.m. , they used repetitive voices on left ear, it was a bit sensitive for certain frequencies.  Next day they started  pain on right side quarter to eleven on night again.

12th. of February The perpetrators made a pain on the neck at night. The neck is now  also little swollen . They cause pain on this swollen area occasionally about five-ten times an hour. This has continued three days, and is continuing

I have learned that  mind control  victim Eric Griffin, who is also member of  FFCHS , was fooled to make a kind of robbery attempt at Wells Fargo office. This story reminds me what happened for me on Toronto airport, when I was leaving Canada (actually it could be also Montreal airport, I cannot remember sure, because it happened  about thirty years ago). 

I had not  slept  at couple of day, and perpetrators (voices) explained me  that there is a radio-receiver on the airport, and it is used as a link to control me, and my task is to take it with me.  They also told me where to walk , to find the radio set.  Indeed  on the airport waiting room on the table   where they told, was unattended  small radio-receiver. However,  I was suspicious, and did not follow their orders, but I leaved the radio on the table. I do not know, what has happened , if I had taken the radio with me, but I believe, I had more or less trouble  with case, if I had followed  their orders.  

Another similar try deceive me, was when they told me that they have arranged unlimited credit for my Visa-account, as I have told on My Story

  I did not go their traps, but I understand, if somebody would do so, after couple of days without sleep, and nervous system, and memory manipulated.  So , when counted the odd  nuances  of “robbery” , that Eric Griffin commit, I believe that he also is  a victim of mind control experiments.   This is Eric Griffin appeal for Senator  Reid . Also  a sample letter, if somebody wants to support Eric Griffin.  On end , link for another newspaper article, where are some readers comments.

Fellow  victims have told me, that mind control related  web site mindcontrolforums, has disappeared. This is alarming, because names, of nearly thousand victims were  stored there.  Fortunately Internet archive wayback machine can restore some of the names. This collection of victims names,  is   a kind of life insurance for  these people. If large number of victims  will disappear or die on short time period, this would raise public interest, and perpetrators are aware of  it  Despite the fact that names are not anymore on public, I hope that mind control victims do not have same destiny than forty scientist that lost their lives on suspicious circumstances,  after anthrax attack to United States Congress

8.1.2010  4.55 p.m. First note since last writing is on    25^th. of November,  There were occasional pains on left and right temple of head on daytime. Continuous heavy pain on the right side of head started  about half past eight p.m.  Pain continued through the night. I slept about four hours.  Next day on 26^th. of November, similar pain started about  twenty to six p.m. and continued to  eight p.m. It started the next morning on wakeup.  It continued a while, and started again after five p.m. and - similarly as yesterday - it continued   for a while.

29^th. of November, they started pain on the right  eye at one a.m.  I got about three hours sleep, before  they awakened me and started their morning talk. I shielded by doing Morse code on my mind, meaning that I translated some songs that I have memorized into the Morse-code. This is very boring for anybody to follow, including myself. They caused some burning pains on the head. However I was able to sleep couple of hours after. Pain on the right eye continued and ended after nine a.m.

30^th. November they did  “start of the week torture” , I did not sleep at all. They started repetitive voices, and used some other techniques, that I felt as a cold head.

First of December was similar, except they also used fast heartbeat. However, they stopped it after I put oximeter on my hand. It collects heartbeat and oxygen levels of body. I used loud music to shield, and got some sleep.

 I found that person can sleep also in loud noise, if he is extremely tired, especially if the noise is harmonic, like music.  I got about three hours of sleep.

Second of December was very similar, except that they caused some  tingling sensations on my head. I slept between four and five hours.

Third of December night, they used pains like somebody is stabbing on sharp item on my head. Also I felt a kind of drying feeling middle of the head. I put loud music, and slept about three hours.

Fourth of December, their torture was so hard, I did not sleep at all.

After that, I started to get some sleep. On 7^th. of December , they awakened me middle of the night. After they tried to keep me awake, with talk.  I shielded with loud music, and slept normal five hours. Next day they succeed to get my left ear sensitive with certain frequency. I could also produce this frequency myself. It kinds of gets ear to resonate with it.

13^th. of December They tried repeating voices after seven p.m. After I put loud music they caused tingling sensation on the left ear.

15^th. of December was “start of the week torture” again. I did not sleep at all. Their new method to keep me awake cause also cold feeling on neck as a side effect.

16^th. of December was similar, except that I got some sleep with loud music, because I was extremely tired. I am not sure, how long I slept, I guess about two or three hours. In the morning, pain on the right temple started about half past seven a.m.  and eased after nine, just to became more severe after eleven on lunchtime , and it continued until I went to sleep.

17^th. of December was short period of similar pains between seven and eight p.m. also a kind of tingling sensation on forehead.

18^th. of December. They kept me awake whole night with verbal  torture, and pains here and there.

19^th. of December. Heavy pain on right eye started five to eleven a.m.  It eased in the afternoon, but started again on midnight and continued whole night for long to  next morning.

21th. of December  “ Start of the week torture”  at night. They used pains on ear and head to keep me awake. I was awake until three a.m. , but I slept about hour or so, between three and five a.m.  On the morning they  started pain on the right temple of the head about seven a.m. It ended nine a.m.  for a while, but continued on lunchtime and ended about five p.m.

23th. of December . They awakened me about two a.m. at night , and kept me awake with verbal torture , until I had to go to work. I slept about two or three hours that night.  Half past one on the afternoon, started  a pain on the right temple of the head , and ended five p.m.

On Christmas time, was quite peaceful, except some verbal manipulation. I believe the perpetrators were on holidays too.

25^th.  of December night, after three a.m.  they tried to close my nostrils. I felt it ,like if I had a flu. I believe they tried to get me sleep without c-pap machine. I breathed with machine and nose, although it was heavy.  They gave up after three hours, and my “flu” disappeared.In the morning my nostrils were open normally.

26^th. of December. There were several occasion, they got me unconscious “fast sleep”

27^th. of December.There was  a kind of mild after sauna torture on the morning. In the morning I found that my forehead felt cold,  a. lot of easier than usually.

28^th of December. They used repetitive voices at night. I defended my ears, with loud music. They used different pains on ears, head, and back to not let me sleep. They also caused fast heartbeat and some nausea. However I slept some hours, because I did not have to go to work

30^th. of December. I went to sleep after one a.m. They got me awake about five a.m.  and started repetitive voices , this time on right ear, instead of usual left one. I did some experiment myself. I shielded voice, with loud music on left ear. I discovered that it does not help.  After I put loud music on right ear too, they caused backache, and ear-ache that made me impossible to sleep. However the ear manipulation ended about hour, after I put loud music on the ear. I believe the music disturbs their feedback, from my head.  The repetitive voice is different nature, that the conversation voice.. The conversation voice is a male voice, and usually it is not one ear. The repetitive voice is a female voice, especially at night is often just on  the left  ear, and it repeats word or two, hundreds of time. Voice is often accompanied with some  tingling sensations on the ear.

1^st. of January they used repetitive voices at night, I resisted with loud music. In the morning they caused pain on the back, and head to get me up. I resisted on the bed until nine a.m.

3^rd. of     of January they got my left ear sensitive on repetitive voice.  I had to listen to music, for most of the day. Next night they used all kind of pains, also a new kind of burning pain on the knee, and also repetitive voices.  However I slept about two hours , I believe. About five a.m. they caused false need to urinate. This was  one their favorite practical jokes, on  earlier years. After that  they started repetitive voices, and all kind of pains, that continued until I woke up.

5^th. of January was similar, except that I was able to sleep enough, because I did not had to go to work , I slept until noon.  Afternoon they tried to get me “fast sleep”, but because I was not sleepy, they did not succeed. Actually the way they do it feels like a mild electric shock, on the neck. If the victim is sleepy, he goes unconscious, If not, he feels it like a electric shock.  They do this often several times a day, and it has some purpose, but I do not know what they benefit for this.  Perhaps whole idea, to get victim sleepy on  night, is just that this “fast sleep” is possible to them.

I have got some background information that make Genocide of Canadian aboriginals easier to understand.   I told the genocide on diary 30. June 2008, and I also made collection of  hyperlinks, on alternative history section.

Everybody knows Nazi Genocide of Jews, but it is less known that much more, 10-30 million people were killed by British Genocide of Hindus in India on 1877 .  British caused at least double - and  with some estimated five times more deaths , than  Nazi-Germany  did for Jews  .  The genocide was very similar than Stalin  did on   Ukraine 1932. In India   the rice and wheat was shipped to Great Britain, causing the starvation people on same area.  The Anti-Charitable Contributions Act of 1877 prohibited "at the pain of imprisonment “ private relief donations, that potentially interfered with the market fixing of grain prices.  It is very odd idea to think, that  non interfered  market price of grain, has greater value than life of tens of millions of people. If one reads Mike Davis book “Late Victorian Holocausts, he would found ideas of social Darwinism and population control.behind the genocide. One motive  was of course, pure economical thinking . Actually, what happen in India 1877, was very similar  thing that happened in Ireland a quarter century before, only difference was that amount of people that lost their lives was multiplied. These two genocides make the genocide of Canadian Indians, more understandable. The difference is that in Canada , when they killed native children , it was done  by  infectious diseases,  tuberculosis, and smallpox.

Perhaps Canadian Natives were considered  “useless eaters” that do not any way improve the life of mankind, but just consume the  Canadian natural resources.  This time, when genocide happened ,was also time of the  rise of eugenic movement.  There would have been fears that natives, when mixing with white race, would deteriorate the quality of white race.

Hitler in Nazi Germany, caused genocide, had victims something between six to  ten million deaths

Stalin and other communist regimes caused genocides on Ukraine  and elsewhere.  The death toll is  perhaps about 10-20 million.  If we include death toll of  Great Leap Forward  campaign  in China, the amount is much higher.   However   I did not find any population control aims, behind this communist organizational catastrophe.

Great Britain   genocides -  were caused by  Social Darwinism, “Laissez-faire”  , and  some other ideas  popular on this time. It meant  death for something  between  twenty to  forty million people.

it is interesting that the  genocide of the Jews, has achieved widespread publicity, but much larger mass-murders   of Hindus, that have more victims, are often left out from textbooks of history. There are several reasons for this. The Germany lost the war, and history is written by the winners.

 If Irish National movement or - Hindus thirty year later-   had conquered London I am sure they have hanged the people responsible , for  crimes against humanity.  That did not happen. End of the Second World War British troops however conquered Berlin and hanged leaders of Nazi Germany for crimes against humanity.

Also   British leaders,  and Stalin killed people “naturally”  for famine. I am sure Nazis had done same way, if Jews were on one geographical area, and not scattered around Germany and Europe. This was not case, so Nazis created  industrial slaughterhouses for Jews, where they transferred all the Jews they found from Germany and other areas on their control.  Nazis tried to kill the  whole Jew population, because t they classified them  for   nonhuman beings, that had demoralizing influence on their sphere, and were dangerous for German strength. British and Stalin in USSR  did not try to kill all the race, but rather to reduce amount and strength of people by artificial famine.

One reason of publicity was that there were lots of Jews on  British Isles and outside of Europe, including some  rich, educated and  powerful  people.  Irish, Hindus and Ukraine people did not have much influence outside their area on time of their genocide.

There were some positive effects of making public  the genocide of Jews on Germany. It became politically unpopular to classify races more human, and less human. On 1967 the  last 15 states on United States gave up on efforts to preserve purity of  the white race and allowed interracial marriages. The racism , perhaps had not lost it's popularity, without the mass-murders of Jews.  

Changes happened in Canada too. Canadian  aboriginal children were killed  in residential schools,  by making environment favorable for  smallbox or Tuberculosis infection  before the  second world war. This diminished after war. The last residential school for aboriginal people closed 1996. I believe that  various provinces more or less forced  sterilization programs of aboriginals are also stopped.

The  British  attitude towards other colored of people, on  their colonies  changed slowly. According  Caroline Elkins fifty thousand people were killed  by British Security forces in Kenya 1950s.  This time conservative government headed by  Harold Macmillan denied  systematic  abuses.  Fifty years has gone. Some victims of torture are still alive, but not had get any compensation. Also their torturers have not prosecuted for their crimes.  The whole chain British legal  of systems that suppose to make sure that this kind of mass-murder does not happen, failed. It is very difficult to come other conclusion,  but that conservative government at least did know- , or was behind these atrocities.

These examples show that English type of parliamentary system where one member is elected in  one geographical  area, does not work properly.  In theory 51 % of voters of country, could get all the seats.   As seen on history, it leads two party systems, where minorities had often no voice in parliament.  So it has happened, that they were killed,  tortured, and their rights were abused.  

Some would think that there is nothing bad in the system, and problem is just members of parliament, who had no moral backbone.  I think that the  British type of  election system works as a filter.  It  filters out majority of the individuals, who have moral backbone, even before they come  candidate on their electoral district.

Canada has similar problems on their parliamentary system that United Kingdom has.  Some  examples from Canada's past: In 1941, time of Second World War, people from Japan origin, were closed into concentration camps, as a threat for national security. They were robbed from their property too. Their only crime was their Japan origin. After war, they got free from concentration camps, but did not get compensation their suffering before 1988, when Prime Minister Mulroney gave formal apology, and announced details from compensation for those who still were alive.

It is very difficult to think, that Canadian parliament was unknown for injustice that these Japan-origin people had faced on concentration camps.  Only possibility is that member of Canadian parliaments knowingly waited that most of the victims past away, just for economical reasons. This did take time  over forty years until 1988. The whole case is a living example that parliamentary system in Canada is not working properly -and this causes that whole legal machinery od Canada, does not work properly especially for minorities,  and non white races ( German people were not closed to concentration camps). If the members of parliament were not elected, from particular geographical district Japan origin people would have come together and  got one member of parliament, who at least have spoken for them..

The sexual abuse of aboriginals on residential schools , and police that did not make necessary investigation  for matter is another example.

 Criminal human experiments is  third  etc.

There are historical reasons for this form of election system. On time when transportation was slow ,and there were no mass-media -  this was the best possible electoral system. The system gives   one member of parliament  on each electoral district.t .  People who had not seen other election  methods , does not find any odd for this method.

As well as election system had pre-selected the geographical  district for  candidates that voters could vote -the election system would make sure that religion of members of parliament equals  the proportion of religion of voters.  On this hypothetical system there is noelectoral districts, but religious groups. Example Anglicans had their candidates that numbers  equal of  the proportion of Anglican members among Canadian citizens, and Anglican   voters  choose their Anglican members of Parliament from them.

 Another possible system is think that the  gender  of M.P.s  is  pre-selected, like now district is pre-selected, to make sure that both sexes have equal presentation. This system has about  half of the seats for female M.P.s , and another half of the seats for male M.P.s  . Female voters, in this system have only possibility to vote female candidates, and male voters has to vote male candidates.

On these hypothetical systems government dictates equal distribution of M.P.s gender, and religion, just like English system government dictates equal distribution of geographical  district of M.P.s. One understands that the most democratic election system is one , where  government does not make any  pre-selections  before election,  to narrow the choice of people .   This leave voters make their choice from all the candidates on this election, and select candidate from  geographical  district, or religion or gender, if they feel  it is important for them.

I am not fully satisfied with Finland’s election system. However in Scandinavia, where several candidates are elected in each area, there are usually more than two parties in parliament. Scandinavian countries  do  not have this kind of crimes agaist humanity, and human rights violations,  that  are common in Canada and United Kingdom .

I found that British genocides are not very known on the history textbooks. So I made a collection of hyperlinks into  my Alternative History section.

24.11.2009 5.30 a.m   On 15^th,  October , I had a nightmare . I believe it  was orchestrated. Before that , while I was awake, there was tingling sensation on the  left side.  Next night they started  repetitive voices  after three a.m.  I used loud music to shield myself. After that I did not get any sleep. I slept about three hours.

On 18^th.of October there were  tingling sensation  whole afternoon, and some balance problems, that caused me some  difficulties to walk. I was  happy it was Sunday, and I did not have to go to work. Next night  19^th. of October, there was start of the week torture, and I did not sleep at all.  They did not used repetitive voices much, but rather pains and verbal manipulation, and some other techniques I do not know. They also told me that my sleep apnea was actually caused reason that they wanted to control my voice, and control of my larynx. This caused that tissues on my throat blocks the airway on lungs , while I am sleeping.  Of course this could be truth or not. I cannot give very much value for what they speak. It seems to me ,that usually they just try to get heavy feelings on me. I guess heavy feelings , have some advantage on what they want to do with me. 

On afternoon of 19^th. October  started mild headache on front head,  it continued until night. On night I did not sleep at all. They used type of torture  I  called “hard head” . They  used same tape torture on Alberta ,  but  not used it for many years, with some exceptions. I put oximeter on my hand at night, and found that my pulse was high above average 112 beats at minute.  On morning I had 36 hours without sleep. They started shootings pains at right temple of head, eleven a.m.

 Next night on 20^th. October  after long fight with repeating  voices, I got some sleep. I guess I had stayed about 50 hours without sleep before that. However they woke me up at four a.m. with repetitive voices. I shielded with loud music. They usually keep in the morning a kind of positive speech , were they promise that everything is coming good again. This morning they were silent. 

On  21^st. of October I got some better sleep, although they started  severe pain on right temple at 9.05 p.m..

On 23th. of October there were tingling sensation on head  lunchtime after noon.

25^th of October  were  pain in front , right side of head , it started  after midnight  , and continued  whole night . I slept some hours. The  pain ended on next afternoon.

 On 27^th.  of.  October  There were occasional tingling sensations  around the head. On social gatherings  like coffee break,  9  a.m and two p.m , and there were pain on the center of the head. Similar pain was on 4.30 p.m.

28^th of  October  there were similar pain ,as yesterday coffee break, on meeting before noon. On afternoon,  pain on right temple started  quarter past one.  Evening  they got me unconscious. When I woke up on chair after ten ,they   started pain on right temple of the head. Pain it ended  at  6.15 a.m. next morning. On evening quarter to ten,  pain on the right temple of the head started again, this time  heavier than usually. Later on, it moved on the right eye, and ended about 5.15 a.m.  I was very tired, and I was able to sleep about three hours.

The next day was very similar. They got me unconscious about   half. past eight p.m. I awakened  after ten p.m. And they started heavy pain  around the right eye that stopped about four a.m.   On the morning  they started a mild pain on left side of the head.  

First of november  They started heavy torture on  right eye 2.30 a.m.  It went of  at six a.m.  after several manual manipulations of the head. I got some sleep after . This was day I was ordered for  sleep-apnea test on hospital . Before the test I was ordered to sleep without c-pap breathing machine three nights.  For curiosity I collected my blood oxygen readings, on these nights. I found that they were just different than readings when wearing the c-pap machine. The difference sleeping with c-pap machine , and without was really big. The oxygen levels dropped  continuously under 80%.

  I went to hospital about three p.m., and I was pretty tired.   On the hospital  when  was  the sleep time , I got  several  sensors  around my body. There was a sensor in nose, that measured my breathing. Other was around lungs, to measure  how deep was my breathing. And then there was a very hot sensor , the staff told me that it measured  my  body carbon dioxide  level..

 The perpetrators  let me sleep about hour, then started to keep me awake, with heavy repeating voices .However I had my earphones, and with loud music , I was able to get sleep. Actually I know , that if they want - they could had  keep me awake whole night , but  for some reason , they did not want to go that extreme torture.  I awakened after couple of hours sleep my  earphones on floor.  In the morning I got result-  they had found that I have severe sleep apnea , and I should  continued using c-pap machine.

After the hospital , there were  peaceful for a while . They  used much verbal manipulation, and often put  me sleep on daytime, but let me sleep at night. On their code language, they lowered  my salary. This means that they have a kind of torture index, and after heavy torture, or wounds , the victim could get some easier times, before the next torture session begin.

They often got me, a kind of half-conscious state, where was very difficult to start moving. One example is 13. November  between 7.30 and 8.30 p.m.  I  simply did not have power to move myself, while  I was a kind of half awake. 

On 16th. of November  night, the new torture session  started  as start of the week torture. They used burning pains on head backache etc. to keep me awake.    I shielded for repetitive voices,  with loud music after two a.m.  They did get my left ear sensitive, and I did not get any sleep that night. They do not call this torture “start of the week torture” , it  is name I have given for it. Their name for  this torture is “roman candles”.

Next night  17^th. of November, they did try to keep me awake also, but  I used very loud music  , and because I was very tired I got some sleep, about three hours.

  On   18^th. of November I got normal sleep, but on night of 19^th. of November , they kept me awake whole night also. I would have perhaps got some sleep,  if I had used extremely loud music, as on 17^th. of November.  However , I found too late, that that, they are planning to keep me awake whole night. Also I was not  that extremely tired, so perhaps I could not sleep on that  loud noise. Next day on work ,  my  neighbor  found me on sitting on the computer asleep. It was embarrassing, and does certainly not  help my career.

On Friday night,  I was able sleep  some hours. I had first time some steel wool  as extra shield. It is a tip , I had learned it from  FFCHS shielding page . It does not stop voice, but it lowers  the quality of their feedback . So it is like driving on the dark. They do not know what their transmitting signal actually does. The loud music has same idea. They have a lot of transmission power, but their receiving signal is rather weak, I believe.

  In the morning the repetitive voices told , that I have “ commercial pilot cap”. Somebody who  does not know  their language,  would have started to guess, what means “commercial pilot cap” . I know that that is exactly the action they want the victim to do.  As well they would have said  that my house is on fire, or that the postmaster has blue trousers. For some reason, the interaction is what they are looking for most of the time. They  tell me sentence, and they want that I think , something about it. If they cannot get response, they would  try call my name. Most people respond some way , when they hear their name. So that is what they do for  me - along other things - for most of the time I am awake. The reason why they try to shorten my sleeping time, is unclear.That is another main goal, they try to do.

On 21^st of November night after nine p.m.  they started pain on the right eye again, for a long time.

23th  of November night  they started with pain on right side after ten p.m. Later on night they started  “start of the week torture”.  I did not sleep at all this night.  They used  first repeating voices, and after I put loud music. They used “hard head technique” to keep me awake. I felt how the center of my skull felt cold, because they stopped  the flow of blood there someway, as they all do for this technique.

I have studied tips  which other people have invented to resist mind manipulation on FFCHS shielding tip pages.I found that everything that I have invented,  the other victims have invented too, on some form. The steel balls I used on summer were neodymium magnets, and anonymous  victim had also experienced with neodymium magnets.  I had used hand held massager for head mechanical manipulation, like Cassandra.  It helps  if there is tingling sensations on head. Also after victim  is  very exited  from their verbal manipulation, it cools down their attack.

Actually I believe that there are other groups of victims, and their perpetrators  in jails, mental hospitals, and other closed institutions. These people do not have any possibilities to protect their brains, and it is very easy , to inspect  the actual   effects the machine causes.

We who are free, are perhaps free just because  they want to  find , what kind  of  shielding, and other  ways  we could develop,  to resist electronic manipulation. So they could make  some working countermeasures for all forms of  people resistance. The study is done for different cultures and languages   also to train perpetrators in different language groups for future clandestine operations in foreign countries.

So while the victims of electronic mind manipulation are desperately trying  to protect their brains from  attacks from this secret machinery,  with steel wool and other home made inventions  -  the United States congress - that has the powers to investigate  victims claims,  and stop the electronic human experiments projects  –  is  just watching the situation in hands on their pockets, and doing nothing to stop  these crimes.

The mind reading machine could have some positive uses, for  example in solving serious crimes. It could have some use of finding if individual  is really quilty for example murder,  before he is executed.  The problem is that  organization which has these machines-  and  controls  the use of them -  is not using these machines for solving crimes, but just opposite. They are using mind reading-  and manipulation machinery   for committing crimes, and other evil purposes. There are some news from machines that could interpret brain language, but the public research is  at least two decades behind, from what military and intelligence organisations are doing.

I studied the history of statue of Liberty monument  in New York harbor . The Constitution of United States and French Revolution, were about same time, and influenced each other. The United States Constitution was formed  1787. French National Assembly made declaration of Rights of Man 1789. And two years later United States made very similar Bill of Rights. This time there were a lot of opinions from Royalists and others, that republic - as a form of state -  would not exist long.

So hundred years after  declaration of United States Independence, some  French people wanted to honor freedom and democracy .  They collected money, and it was used to make Statue of Liberty. This monument was a symbol  of freedom and democracy  and it was placed on  United States , because  the people, who collected the money for statue, felt the United States was country that best represented these values..

Now I feel ,the Statue of Liberty , should be removed from United States , and put some other country . United States does  not  represent the values   of builders of statue, freedom, equality  and liberty. United States    is rather heading towards Orwellian Society

13.10.2009   11.50 p.m.   The September was a very normal. There were standard torture, pain on the right temple of head and  repetitive voices  when sleep.  The manipulative voices continued major portion of time, when I was awake. They are very good at mindreading  for  all thought, that victim has name for things.  But if victim recalls some memory, he has no words, they are eager to make incorrect interpretations. So the mindreading works very much with person vocabulary.

My first note is on second of September. Occasional pains on the right temple of  my head . It started morning at  nine a.m.  Next night there were repetitive voices, that I shielded  with music. Third of  September  there were occasional shooting pains on front and right side of head once a while whole day.

On fourth of September repetitive voices started  on left ear 4.57 p.m.

Next note is on tenth of September . The perpetrators had kept me awake whole night. Beside the  usual repetitive voices , they used pains on left heel , and of course normal verbal manipulation. It is possible , that I slept hour or so, but I am not sure for that. Next  evening after half past ten, they used backache, to force me on  right side sleeping position.

On 11^th. of September I did not have time to put on  my c-pap machine, I went asleep. I was unconscious about hour, after I closed  my computer, washed my teeth, and went to sleep  normal way. They used repetitive voices , and backache to keep me awake. However I slept some hours.

Next night on 12^th. Of September, They awakened me four times, at night , however, because I did not have to go to work, I slept over four hours.  In the morning before ten a.m. There was some headache.  10.20 p.m. There were sharp pains on the right temple of head. They were different  pains than earlier - not continuous but pains that went on and off fast. Next day the usual pain on the right temple started on noon, and continued  until night.

On 14^th. of September  pain on the right temple of head started after   ten. p.m. m and continued about hour. 15^th of September pain started on nine a.m. and ended before noon. 

On 18^th of September the same pain on the right temple of the head started 1.30 a.m. It diminished a while but started again nine a.m.  I found that the pain changes my facial expression. Next night there were repetitive voices, that felt very bad from  head, even they were not louder than usual, so there were something extra with these voices.  I shielded it with music. I had some nausea  after voices. On morning  after six the pain on the right temple of the head started, and this time it slowly changed pain on the right eye, and continued several hours. Next morning was similar, except that pain continued over noon, and it felt also on chin and teeth on the right side, while it was worst. Next day, 21^st of September  pain started  ten a.m.

22-23  of September I  had time to hospital for regular calibration the air-pressure of  c-pap machine. The perpetrators on this time were not afraid, but continued torture with repetitive voices. They also close my nose, that caused that hospital  staff- which monitor my oxygen intake raised the cpap-machine-pressure. Later on the breathing became normal. There were no blood tests  on this time. The pressure on the c-pap machine was kept same as before, but  the doctors ordered me other  kind of tests on November,  where there are the probes  were put everywhere around the body, while I am sleeping. I am suspicious. If the hospital is some kind of contact with perpetrators, or the perpetrators  have a way to obtain information, for these tests, it is leading me dangerous situation. Now the perpetrators  do not have accurate  the information , what actually happen to me when  they do something to me. Only information they get is what they get with their telemetric feedback system. In best it is incomplete, and cannot really compare with information that they could get with sensors attached on body with wires. So the hospital visit that started positive way, is going to dangerous direction. I take the risk, whatever happens,  and hope the best. The most probable situation is that the perpetrators stay silent, and doctors are just interested, what affect my sleep, and what is my oxygen intake while sleeping without c-pap machine.  However all the others possibilities also exists.

24 of September , there were repeating voices, and I protected myself with music. Later on they tried to manipulate my sleeping position with pain. I guess, I slept three hours. 28^th.  and 29^th.of September night s were very similar, repetitive voices and pain, that I shield with music. 28^th. of September  they also used repetitive voices on lunchtime.

30 of September, they  got my so sleepy , I  got me asleep after ten p.m. I awakened before midnight and , went to  bed .  This time there were no actual voice, but uneasy feeling, that actualized itching on left ear, after I changed my position. I put music on left ear, and got some sleep. Next day on work, they started torture  on work after 3.30 p.m.  They kept a pause, while I had a customer, and started repetitive voices torture , after the customer went out.

Second of October  night They used repetitive voice torture and I used music for shield. They woke me up about four a.m.  I slept under four hours. On lunchtime there were shrinking and itching  feeling on left side of head. On work they put me asleep for a while, about three p.m. I hope nobody found it. On evening, I was so sleepy I went bed , without putting c-pap machine on. I suppose to use it every night. I woke up after midnight, and I felt no sleepy at all. I stayed awake, and went again sleep after five a.m.  There were normal repetitive voices , and I shielded with music. I have started to feel , this is the way to sleep , they want. They would monitor the music, and this way easily find when I am asleep. On wakeup  they started  headache on forehead, that changed heavy pain on the right temple of the head. This continued until next midnight and while it was worst,  it also felt as toothache on upper chinbone.

 Fifth of October There were some nausea during the day, and around  11.30 p.m. the lungs went  sore.

Sixth of October  I got a kind of switching pain on right side of head, that got heavier, when I get excited. Night there were usual repetitive voices, and later pain on back, th when they tried to get me sleep on other side. I guess I slept 4-5 hours.

Eight of October 7.29 p.m. There were pain on the chest right side. It went milder  after few hours.

Ninth of October they used torture method , they had name “electric whip”. I t does not  feel  whip like, but is rather burning point. When the victim moves, the point disappear for a moment, but come back, some moments later. The burning point is perhaps  no dangerous, but  when using it , when person is sleeping, it can really drive victim on desperation . I did  not sleep after six a.m.  Pain on the chest   continued to tenth of October.  The next night was very similar but pain was milder. I got sleep after hour or two fight. I used massage on the burning point as a defense.

I did check my Internet site, and I found that my  page  “Organizations fighting to stop electromagnetic mindcontrol experiments was out of date, most of the organizations were old ,and  hyperlinks did  not open. So I did some search, to find the strongest organizations, fighting agaist electronic mind control.

I  corrected hastily  the couple first names. For the first organization I placed  FFCHS ( Freedom of cover harassment and surveillance).  FFCHS is perhaps the largest of the organizations that are fighting against electronic mind-manipulation. Because of victims are scattered everywhere around United states and  the World they use Conference call  for their meetings. They have also newsletter, and even safe house, that is  electrically insulated and works as a shield from electronic  torture (although I do not know how effective it is).

We have gone a lot ahead, from situation we were five years ago, and I am confident, that sooner or later the truth will come out for public. Hopefully most of victims are still alive, when this day comes.

31.8.2009 11.30 p.m.  The major changes, since my last writing is, that daily torture on the left ear has nearly stopped. The night torture continues about each other day, but I feel that there is person behind now and not just machine. Other major change  is, that the torture on the right eye, has changed very heavy pain on the front of right temple of head, and they keep me continuously tired with daily sleep between one and   four hours. That has gone worse than before. The pain on right side of head, occurs usually nighttime, but not always. The veins on right side neck, feels also sore when touching, and sometimes it cause breathing on c-pap machine feel cold, apparently because of weak blood circulation on head. The pain feels especially eating or coughing, when the victim has to move his chin.

First note  on my notebook, since my previous  writing on 14 July, is on 16^th. July - I slept between one and three hours. I felt there was a cap on my memory, what happened on that night, but I remember I was awake four a.m. 

The next note is 18^th July.  Pain on the right temple of head, started on afternoon and continued until midnight. The pain was pretty heavy at time.

  On 20^th July started “start of the week torture” at  9.25 p.m. with high frequency voices, and earache. I did not sleep at all. They told me something, I planned to write on this diary, but they erased it from my memory, while I was on shower. It is frustrating feeling, when remembers, there is something, that is important to make note, but not remember what it is. Next evening there   were pains on the right temple.

 The night of  24 July, I slept about four hours

. 26^th. Of July pain on the right side of head started after midnight. Veins on the right side were sore. Breathing on the c-pap machine felt cold in the morning. The pain ended next night about ten p.m.  This night they used repeating voices, I shielded my ears with loud music. I knew I was awake on after three or four a.m.  On the morning they about five a.m.  they told horror story machine they possess , capable to kill person, by stopping  his heart, and of course they threatened to stop my heart. I believe this is very possible.

28^th. of July there were occasional sudden shooting pains especially left side and back of the skull.

30^th. of July they used repeating voices and I used music to shield my ears from it.  They used also backache, and earache to keep me awake, but still I managed to sleep about four hours.

31st. of July the similar shooting pains like 28^th. of July continued. They were not like electric shocks, but felt somehow similar like electric shocks.

On second of August, they “shoot” me unconscious. When I woke up again, I had a fuzzy feeling. If I did put my head town - for example tying on my shoestrings -  I lost my balance.  I measured my blood pressure, and found that it was oddly down 116/77. I believe, this could someway relate. that I cannot put my head down, without loosing consciousness. Next night they used repeating voices, and I shielded my ears with music. I slept about four hours. On next day repeating voices started quarter to four p.m. and continued while.

On four of August they started pain on left temple at eleven a.m. it continued over three p.m. Next day was very similar, pain on right temple started four p.m. and ended after six p.m.

On eight August were occasional short electric shock-like pains, mostly on the left side of skull. Veins on the neck were sore. On night repetitive voices started, and I used music to shield myself. I slept around four hours.

On tenth of August there were pretty normal “start of the week torture”. It has purpose to put me on tired condition after weekend sleep. They woke me up after hour of sleep. This is their new technique; it is easier to keep me awake, when they have let me sleep short time. They used repeating voices, pain on back, and on shoulder etc. I used loud music to shield myself from their manipulation. I slept about two hours. On the morning, there were some occasional pains on the right temple. The pain moved right eye, and continued whole day, over six p.m. at least. There were also pains on upper chin,

Next note is on 12^th. of August, Occasional pains on the  right temple of head, starting about six p.m.

 13^th. of August they woke me up at three a.m.  by causing sound that was similar of sound of my alarm clock. I got some sleep after, but in the morning right temple was sore. The pain on right temple ended about eight p.m. However it started again three hours later, and continued while.

Next morning, there was a very heavy pain on the right temple. It started about nine a.m. and continued while.

Next night on  15^th. of August, they started repeating voices. I used music to shield my ears from manipulation. They started also a heavy pain, this time left temple of the head, on the same place that they usually have pain on the right side. I got some sleep, because I was very tired. However I woke up at three a.m.  I guess I slept three hours. On morning, the pain was moved on right side of head, and diminished. However I found that they were able to freeze my right side of head. They did it sometimes, if they did not understand, or did not   like what I was doing. The freeze caused also change of my facial expression.

Next night, they started a heavy torture on the right temple of head, about three a.m. at night. This companied with verbal manipulation, where they threatened to cause me crib death type of death. They let me have some sleep, but somehow managed me to turn on right side on my sleep, so they got my right temple on upside. The result was on their expression “they shoot my head wide open”. The actual torture ended before noon, but the head was sore a long time, especially eating coughing, other way moving my chin.

17^th. Of August was pretty normal “start of the week torture” that purpose is to get me tired, start of workweek, because I cannot sleep long  like holidays, -so for them it is easier to keep me tired condition, as they want. They let me sleep about hour, then woke me up, and started torture with repeating voices. Unfortunately, I had run out of batteries, of my mp3-player, so I could not shield with music. So I did not sleep any more for this night.  To make my condition more painful, they caused also heavy pain on the right temple of head.

Next night I slept normal, but on 18^th. August evening before ten p.m.  they started rather heavy torture. The torture started first on whole head, and later on right side.

19^th. Of August , they awakened me between three and four a.m.  by false alarm. This time it was a voice , somebody banking on the door. After  started heavy pain on the right side of head.  11.45 a.m. They tried to make another practical joke. They changed one number on my credit card code, on my mind. Actually they succeeded this , but on the bank-automat , I had a kind of optical memory which number I should press, and  I followed it , and not my number memory. I was right , and got money. The technique, they changed the number looks stupid  on told , but on practice , it works pretty well. They block my memory someway, and “secrretay” whisper the words , the victim is looking for memory  - this time credit card code. Only one number is changed, so that I do not reject the information.   Because only information that come from brain is outside, there is no other possibility than accept the information,  even if it feels a kind of odd. They cannot put  to the victims mouth long sentences, but swapping word or two often succeeds. 

There were some more peaceful days, but on 30^th. August morning 8.45 a.m.  they started repeating voices on morning. I believe that they tried to get me up earlier. I put some loud music, and stayed on bed couple of hours more.  After noon they started heavy pain on the right side of head , near right eye. That pain continued on next morning.

I have read my old writings,  and I have found some matters have vanished,  and some moved a bit ahead. North American Union,  I wrote on 11.1.2007 was newer accomplished. Also United States has not had  military takeover, not yet anyway, so multimillion build concentration camps are now empty.

On 3.7. 2007 I suggested quality control for democracy, and  also told , what is wrong on American Auto-industry.  On the Quality of United States democracy there are some signs of improvement,  since change of president, but the auto industry problems have realized  ia form of  closed factories and high unemployment of auto  workers.

Finally 11.9. 2006 I told  mass-murder of 3000 Afghans on Dash-e-leili.  I had also a link for youtube video, that told the cruel way the murders happened. Now Physicians for human rights.organisation has opened some mass graves.  They have called investigation of Dash-e-Leili mass-murders. Unfortunately General Abdul Rashid Dostum, who is responsible of atrocities, is on a powerful supporter  president Hamid Carsai.

There are more and more similarities between Vietnam war and war in Afghanistan. One of them is United States support of corrupted leaders, and closing eyes of their human rights violations .  Another similarity is drugs. Vietnam war caused epidemic problem of heroin usage among soldiers, that spread whole United States.

Taliban’s were able to stop opium  poppy growing,  when they controlled the country, but now opium is Afghanistan major export article , and makes about one third of country income. Western media connects Taliban resistance movement for smuggling of heroin to finance their organization.

It is difficult to filter truth out of war-propaganda.  If United States and  it’s allies forces control Afghanistan area, why they  not  to eradicate  opium poppy-fields. Another possibility is that hat  hundreds of millions dollars that comes from drug-addicts  all over the world are used to bribe local law-enforcement, Afghan  army, top Government officials, and perhaps even some key people on foreign peacekeeping forces.  If  US-army or United Nations peacekeepers destroy the  opium farmers  poppy-fields  -  poppy fields, that suppose to make   farmers  next winter  income – they do not get very popular on Afghan villages.

 Besides the poor peasants -  also local police , Afghan army, and other Afghanistan  civil servants, would loose substantial amount of money, and whole  the Afghanistan economy would suffer, for lack   riches , that major exporting article, opium brings into Afghanistan economy.

The religion based control of villages, that made Taliban’s able stop opium poppy-growing on Afghanistan,  is very difficult  to  recent ,  rather corrupted Afghanistan  leaders.

These are moral questions:

                      - Do we open investigation on General Abdul Rashid Dostum arranged mass-murders, even if he is our ally on Afghanistan – and even if we do not have very many allies . Do we eradicate  opium poppy-fields in Afghanistan, even if we know everybody on Afghanistan, who  gets more or less living on opium trade will hate us.  

There  were-  and  are and   similar ethical  questions also United States domestic policy. The subprime mortgage crisis is one example.  Everything went fine, as long as housing prices went higher . Important is that there were no one institution that failed to act properly, but  whole control  chain of financial institutions - that suppose to take care that nothing like this happen - failed . Underwriters, rating agencies etc. – None of them did their work properly. It was  very similar phenomenon, that makes Afghanistan Opium trade big and profitable business. Only difference is that  on Afghanistan there are peasant, and police on place of underwriters and rating agencies. Also both cases, those who suffer most, are not  those greedy people, that have made profit their corrupted acts.

If we want give name of the matter that causes all these problems.  We could call it bad ethics  , or low quality of administration, even if they are not the same thing.  There is low  work ethics l that causes low quality of work.   If Administration, lowers quality of work  and  command chain has  somebody who insist  to work properly,  administration  will expel  him  for one reason or other. That is the way , how quality control chain , that has every link failing , is build.

Very harmful is the low standard of  law enforcement administration. Old things get new definition.  Murder by nuclear radiation, becames legal medical treatment, torture gets new name enchanted interrogation , terrorist suspect  are called name “enemy combatants” and then argued that they are not under protection of Geneva Conventions, and put into US. Military base area, and  then ruled that the area is outside US. Legal jurisdiction , and whatever is done there is not crime.  The  low quality of  legal institutions, will show clearly interpretation and implementation of law. One does not have to be a legal professional to find that there is much wrong on the basic attitude how law is interpreted in United States.     The interpretation of law is so “creative” that more important  than what is on the law, is  who has the legal powers to interpret it.

Illegal human experimentation, and murders of suspected or real United States enemies around the world,  are also results of  low ethics .Everybody should have right to defend himself in court, before he is executed.

There are now some promising early signs that higher ethics, and better quality of law administration would come effect in some future. Attorney General Eric Holder has made decision to start investigate CIA interrogation techniques. However it is too early to say what happen to him and which forces will rule in the future.

If evil forces will keep their power in United States,  country  is going to have similar problems than  it’s  southern neighbor  Mexico has. Even replacing 700 customs agents , will not stop cocaine trade.  It is very painful to improve quality of organization, if many members of organization get some benefits from present situation.  Lost quality of work and  diminished work moral is painful to gain back.

14.7.2009 1.00 a.m.  On fifteenth of June, there was heavy torture, with high frequency female voices on the left  ear. I put the bullet (small steelball) on ear to get the noise down. They caused earache on left ear,  to get me to take the bullet out. I chose pain.  I slept about three hours. On noon while I was  on the library female voices were on left and also right ear one ear at time.

Next day on sixteenth of June, the same voices disturb my working starting 10.30 a.m. The night on eighteen of June was very similar than fifteenth. Heavy torture, with high frequency female voices on the left  ear. I put the bullet (small steelball) on ear to get the noise down. Again they caused earache on left ear,  to get me to take the bullet out. Again I chose pain. And similarly as day before,  I slept about three hours.

Next night on 19. Of June , the torture started before six a.m.  so I was able to sleep four or five hours. The difference was that I felt that they have got  somehow improved signal .It pierced better through steel ball.  The torture continued with some breaks on afternoon, and evening, and went worse near midnight. . I used bullet on left ear, and tried mechanical manipulation of  head..

Twentieth of June  , when I woke up., there was  wound like sore point above of my left eye. It felt irritated  whole time.  The high frequency voices started  seven p.m.  and continued torture midnight. I had  bullet on my left ear,  and I tried to ease the exposure by manual manipulation of my head.

Next day on  21. Of June, was  “after sauna torture” meaning of headache, and cold feeling on the forehead.  When I manipulated my neck, I found that the veins on my neck were sore. So they had stopped the blood flow on forehead someway.  I got my feeling a bit better after manipulation. On the afternoon they got me unconscious , “fast sleep”  . After wakeup the headache continued hour  or two, before  diminishing, and after the perpetrators started heavy verbal manipulation.  Evening before nine p.m. the high frequency voices started again on the left ear. I found that any metal sheet over the ear, can weaken the signal. The more important than heaviness of metal is that it very near  the ear. I found also that the actual torture  is probably done by computer program ,or compatible robot- manipulator. It can receive feed back from brains, and if it gets, word it send, the next signal  is stronger. One could sometimes also cheat the machine, by making on mind different feedback from source. Example if the victim could make  change on his mind  mind word” latter “  into word later, after some feeds  the next feed from signal  is “later” etc.

The next night  22 of  June, they openly tried to get me take out the bulled of my ear. I had also  metal sheet over the ear. They gave  electric shocks on  my ear . On daytime  ther was  some  high frequency torture from  eleven am.  to one p.m.  After some pause  it started again on four p.m. and  continued  some hours.

On 23. June, they tortured whole night on  left ear. They tried to get the steel ball out of the ear,by electric shocks, they gave my ear on some seconds intervals. I slept about two hours. They also told me that I will die for liver problems. This would relate pains on the right side of chest, they caused me day before. I just cannot give any credit for these speeches.

On night 25. Of June ,  was very similar than before -  except I  did not get shocks on left ear. This would cause for reason, that I but the bullet on my ear, after  high frequency voices started. On evening they threaded  to wipe out my memory, so completely I will not be able to speak anything.

27. of June I did not have steel ball on my left ear. This because I had invented  that sheet metal over  the ear, and high volume music from earphones,  between the ear and sheet metal, is somehow more efficient way to  resist high frequency voice.  This made them , do make some fundamental  changes on their behavior.  They insisted that  the music, makes  them impossible to make “flue gas” measurement from blood, and I would not sleep before  I stop the  music. This attitude was fundamentally different than before. They have done  all kinds of tricks, to get me behave, way they want. If they want me to change the side I sleep, they would cause pains on the sleeping side. They would cause ear ache, to get me to get me to  take the bullet out of ear etc.  This time they simply threatened to torture me , so long that I behave the way they want.  I kept the music all the night, and I did not  sleep at all. Anyway, I do not remember, that I slept. They also started the pain on the front of the right temple that was very much similar, that pain on the right eye before.

Next day was similar, except that pain on the right eye started after ten p.m. and continued  whole night. I used sheet metal  over the left ear, and  loud music  from earphones. I slept more than yesterday – about four hours.

The next day  was very similar, I  slept about five hours. They suggested , that I keep sleep diary.

The last day of June was different. I did not sleep at all. They used some kind of device, that did not signal words but rather sounds, that were much like water bubbling, or noise that come from large group of people. There were - of course - also normal high frequency voices, that repeated some words , thousands of times, and pain on the front of  the right temple of the head, that ended in the morning. They were prepared to keep me awake whole night, because I had slept night before.

On  first July, I slept normally. Pain on the front of right temple started  about two p.m.  and continued while. It was just a bit  different than pain on the right eye.

Next night started a pain on the right eye that   eased after ten a.m.  Next night was similar  pain, but also high frequency voices on left ear, that I somehow   eliminated with loud music. They also wake me up with cough, that is difficult, if  one is breathing with c-pap machine. I got also some backache, that they use to control my sleeping position.

On fifth of July morning  the torture on the high frequency voices started  eight a.m.  They were disappointed , because I had holiday, an d did not want to wake up, when they awaked me. Apparently they  had prepared something, for me on this time.  They did   very heavy torture, on left ear. Besides high frequency voices, they used  also some kind of machine, that did not produce voice, but  rather irritated feeling on the left ear, like some small insect had crawled there. I resisted with laud music and manual manipulation of head, and stayed on bed  over ten a.m.  The pain on the right eye that started on the morning, continued whole afternoon  and was heavier than usually.

Next day pain on the right eye started at noon, and continued on afternoon.

Near every night since, I invented loud music , with sheet metal  over left ear resistance, has went very much with same template. They start high frequency voices, I put the music from mp3-player high on left ear, that eliminate much of the effect of their signal. I go to sleep ,and mp3-player stops  when it has gone end. If I  am awake, I put mp3-player on beginning  again. On the morning I wake up, for some reason, usually backache, when my perpetrators  feel , that I have slept enough. If I have slept less than five hours, I stay in bed , and put loud music again , until seven hours, or so has gone.

 On night of nine of  July, they tried a kind of amusing trick, that worked  a while I was not fully conscious, but rather half-asleep. They wake me up , sometime on night. The music was playing, but  they started the high frequency voice torture, that the music for some reason did not shielded this time.

It took a while , before I realized, that the music was not coming from my mp3- player, but for their signal.  After I realized it, I put my mp3-player on, and the effect of their voices, did not go through anymore.  Actually It was not same music, and quality was much poorer,  so fully awake, I had felt the difference on seconds, but  half asleep it did take more time - ten minutes or so.

Night of ten of July, they kept me awake three a.m. I started to write this diary. After five a.m. I went back to sleep, and was able to sleep some hours.

I went that interested on my nightly oxygen intake,  so  I bought storing oximeter, that I  have tested on  some nights. My heart-beating on sleep is very slow under 50 beats  on minute. There are some moments  on night that oxygen saturation is under 85. Usually they last under  five minutes.  Interesting is that the heartbeat, stay same, under 50 time also on these low- oxygen saturation  periods, and heart does not try to compensate the lower oxygen saturation with  increased frequency of heart beating.

So  among other things,  they have wounded  my respiratory system  . If I correctly interpret what is happening now, the organs  next on line that are on danger ,  are  left ear, and right eye. After that  I have  still will have  working right ear, and left eye. The bad thing is, that they do not stop that.  Anyway they do  not stop, if any power  that can stop their experimenting , does not stop their experimenting.

There  are  several hundred others victims of mind-control experiments , who are similarly ruined from their body and mind, slowly and economically. And similarly as I, they do not have possibility to defend  their physical  and mental immunity. When I look past of American history, similar things have happened many times  before.  The ruling elite, has victimized minority one reason or another, and majority of people  has  let it happen, partly because they have not get objective picture what is happening,  but more because they are not used  to  do  something, and are rather object of  others  action , than people that would do coordinated action. And some minorities or individuals , the government could became  a bloodthirsty monster, that  wants and takes their lives literally.

The Canadian Indians that get their children taken away from them to put residential school, where  half of them  did not  get out alive, had no possibility for defend their children.  As one of them told  RCMP surrounded  the indian villages, and simply robbed the children away from their parents.  If half of the Indian children were  not killed  before their fertility age , the majority of Canadian population at least some provinces  would now be Indians, and this would mean that this could  have cause changes the political decisions  of House of Commons.  Now with aggressive immigration policy, and causing death of  a part of Indian  people on child , made Canadian white population majority possible. Actually it was somehow  similar , what Serbs tried to do their  Muslim minority, or  majority Hutus did their minority of Tutsi  population -  only difference that  the white Canadian succeeded , and those responsible did not go to human rights tribunal, as   Serbs and Tutsis responsible  did. Clear majority of Canadian people , and people in the Canadian  house of Commons, are now white.

Very much could not do also those people,  who happened to come wrong hospital on wrong time , and became victims of nuclear research. They trusted their doctors, and did not understand that doctors did study  on  their lives, how much radiation person  could take before he dies.  .  Those who want a better picture of what happened  , I would recommend Carol Rutz book “Nation Betrayed ” . It costs twenty dollars  from ordered Fidelity Publishing,  but nearly ten times more, if one wants to buy it from  Amazon com.  I do not know if  there is just a mistake on their prizing,  but my suspicious mind finds there could be some kind of conspiracy behind it. Perhaps  somebody has got paid to make “prizing  mistake”.   Similarly I am suspicious  if there are unfriendly pop-ups, or  other  problems,  on some politically active sites.Are these pop-ups made their owners, or just “dirty tricks”, from somebody, or some organisation, that does not like their site ?

14.6.2009  11.55  p.m.  Since my last writing on 25. May, the next note about torture was on 27 of May at 11.30 a.m.  High frequency voices started the torture.  The sentence they repeated several hundred times was   “K iron has K”. In Finland it has more sense than somewhere else, because there is hardware store chain that has name K-Iron (K-rauta).  However there was not any sensible message. I do not believe that perpetrators repeat the sentence that many times, but rather there is a some kind of mechanical repeating machine, they record the words, and after, play it again and again. This cause the ear they torture, to become very sensitive on same frequencies.  After torture example traffic- noise feels very annoying.

28 May there was pain on left side back of the skull at eleven a.m.  Half hour later, the high frequency female voices started again.  They continued verbal torture with heavy headache that started about eight p.m. This headache continued whole night, with occasional difficulties to breath through nostrils( Some days later, I learned that they can close my nostrils, so that breathing with c-pap machine became very difficult.  I guess they do it simply by rising blood pressure on nose, but this is only my guess)  They started also electric shock type pain on the right temple of the head. It later continued on front head  at 7.14 a.m  and right side center of the head  on 1.21 p.m.  This all happened on 29.  of May.  For next day there is only one note: "Continuous pain and sore head on left side of front- and center of the skull."

The torture continued even more aggressive on June. I believe there has come some new people that have different attitude for torture. First of June 2009 They started to disturb my sleep, and woke me up between 3-4 a.m.  They used also uncomfortable bed torture, to get me sleep on position they want, and aggressive verbal manipulation, that kept me awake.  On afternoon, started the high frequency voices on left ear. I had to put the steelball on my ear channel about 4.30 p.m. while I was working.  After two hours 6.43 p.m. I took it off, and high pitch voices started again. So I had kept it on ear whole evening and night. There was a kind of sharp pain on the right side center of the head, about five centimeters from right eye. It started about nine p.m., and continued over midnight.   There were also high voices on left ear, starting of the night.  They also closed my nostrils, so I had difficulties to breath through my  c-pap ,nose mask. It was like breathing through the nose, when one has flu.  After I got some sleep, they tried to manipulate, which side I am sleeping, by pain.  The pain on near right eye started nine p.m. and continued in the morning. I slept less than five hours.

Next night pain on right temple of head started 11.36 p.m.  The night was very heavy torture; I was not sure how much I slept. They used high pitch voices on left ear. Closed my nose to make my breathing difficult with c-pap machine. Actually there were pain on right side whole front head, and it felt very cold. I guess they circumvented the blood circulation there. This accompanied with uncomfortable bed torture, and very aggressive verbal torture.  In the morning there was still pain on the right eye. On afternoon 4.30 p.m. There was occasional pain on left eye. And shrinking feeling on the center of the skull. Later the freeze and shrinking feeling went left side of the head.

The next night on fourth of July, was perhaps heaviest torture on couple of months. I slept about three hours. There were high pitch voices tortures on left ear. The name they use for this type of torture is “cleaning recording heads”. Ihad to put the steelball on ear channel. They tied to get me take the ball out of ear by causing pain on the ear. I chose pain, instead of voices. I know that if they get to yell my ear by this high tone, I get sensitive for all certain frequency noise. Even the traffic noise, get me sick.  I did not get breathing difficulties this night, so I realized that they have closed my nostrils earlier, to get me take the breathing .machine out of my head (I did not take it off).  The daytime there were pain and freezing feeling on left side  of  head , during seminar on work between one and three p.m.

Next night, on fifth June, They used everything to keep me awake, high frequency voices, closed nostrils, and of course verbal torture. As a new form of pain they used pain in the toys. They did not use that much ear-ache as night before, when I put the steelball on my ear. I slept perhaps two hours. On day pain on the right temple started in the morning.

Next days were easier.  Sixth of June, was one note on pain on the right temple of head about noon.  Seventh day was high pitch voices on right ear 9.30 a.m.  They stopped after heavy massage of head. Ninth of June there were old type of pain in the right eye 8.29 a.m.  On the night there were high pitch voices, but they stopped after I put steel ball on my ear. Actually the ball does not stop the voices, but somehow I do not have my ear sore, same way that without any protection. Tenth of June were pain left of the center of the head 2.12 P.m.  11. June there was pain on the right temple of the head. I asked if this is a substitute of eye pain that I had before. The perpetrators answered, that they can give me eye-pain too, if I want it. After that pain on the eye started.

13. June morning, they started torture session about five a.m.   They used high frequency voices, like before, but this time with higher volume.  The torture ended a synthetic sound. After I went sleep. In the wakeup the left ear was sore and sensitive for all noises, because I did not have steelball on my ear-channel, while they tortured me with noises and sound. I had to put the steelball on the ear-channel for all day. I kept it also there for next night. I heard the voices on left ear, and other voices also right ear, but this time there were not that feeling that make the ear sore and sensitive. They were just voices. So this morning when I took the bullet out of ear-channel, my left ear felt better, and there were not also that high frequency noises.   I am happy I was able to resist their “project thunderbolt” as they called it. How ever I know that when ever they want, they would make my living very painful with nausea, headache, “hard head”, and other torture methods they have.

I have kept following what happen after Bush Administration torture and human rights violation revelations  that, I wrote on my last note on 24. of May.

 Senator McCain, along with  Sen. Lindsey Graham and  Sen. Joe Lieberman  have sent a letter to the president  strongly urging him not to press charges on previous administration officials who provided legal analysis in regard to detainee (torture) interrogation. Senator McCain warned president Obama to not prosecute John Lee, and other s from Justice Dept. office of legal council. "If you criminalize legal advice, which is basically what they're going to do, then it has a terribly chilling effect on any kind of advice and counsel that the president might receive”.

If Justice Dept. legal council gives advice that waterboarding-, putting person on uncomfortable box with insects-, or keeping person a week without sleep - is not torture - the chilling effects of this kind of advices are very welcome.

The same Justice Dept. itself prosecuted a Texas sheriff who had used waterboarding.  The sheriff was sentenced to 10 years in prison.  

The people on United States Justice system, have unique practice to switch    words, depending who is involved on case which they are dealing. Torture became  “enhanced interrogation” and human experiments that cause the victims deaths became “medical treatment” instead of murder.

Because Justice Dept.  has advised that waterboarding and some other torture techniques  are not torture, the  actual “interrogators” who did  the dirty work will not  prosecuted.

  So there is a new tool that can be used for administration to commit any kind of crimes without penalty.  The department of justice just gives advice, that president administration asks them to give, and after people, who commit the actual crimes are safe for prosecution. If the staff of legal council of Justice Dept. cannot also prosecuted (as Senator McCain suggests).  It means that everybody   involved planning and executing torture or other legal- and human rights violations, is safe, for consequences of their   crimes.

 This new instrument to commit crimes “legally” would have as devastating consequences on legal means, as subprime instruments have had on financial means .Both are inventions of   United States legal profession.

There are several mind control victims that have tried to get justice from United States Courts.  I have not found any, who has succeeded.  This case is on Norman Rabin . The files of human experiments crimes are secret, and judges are not willing or capable to reveal them. This is another way for   state administration to   commit crimes without penalty.

24.5.2009 11.55 p. m. I have got out from hospital. Because my note before hospital on 17.5.2009, was done on haste; I cover the torture since 16. April, just to make public more complete record what has happened to me.

 The next note since 16th. April is on 20.April. They got me unconscious on work between 6. p.m. and 6.30 p.m.  On 22. of April , a whole day, I was extremely tired, and my body was sore from everything ,like after extreme physical exercise. Next morning on 24. of April, the feeling became normal, just dry mouth on the morning. However after wakeup, I got asleep again, and I got dream, or their fabricated dream, which I call movies.  I lived somewhere odd town, on a rented apartment. There were cranes and some kind of factory that has a large moving block outside. Next night on 25. of  April,pain on the right temple of the head started after midnight. The center of the pain was about five centimeter above the right eye.  Before that they had got me unconscious about ten p.m. On daytime there were more itching on the head, as usual.

On 26 of April they did uncomfortable bed torture on the morning. They have again started to manipulate, which side I am sleeping (which side of my face is up). They do it, by making sleeping on "wrong side" painful. On 27. of April, on the morning , they started a heavy torture on the right temple of my head. On 28. April the torture on the right eye, started on 3.16 a.m. and continued long on the morning. Also they caused a dry mouth. Same day  while I was on the library,  after noon, they tried several times to get me unconscious, and succeeded on some minutes. There is a kind of electric shock when they do not succeed. If they succeed, I do not feel shock, but Ibecame unconscious. 29, and 30 April, there is just note for  torture on the right temple that started on the morning.

On May the first note I have,  is ofnsixth day. They manipulated me with earache to get my earphones out of my ear. I did take them off, but I put them back again, after there were no pain. Next note is on tenth May, pain on the right temple at 3.59 p.m. It continued until eleven p.m. On fifteenth May the pain on the right eye started after midnight about one a.m. I got sleep, but they woke me up about three four a.m. I got sleep about three hours. Next day there were headache on the front head, very similar, like their after sauna torture. It started on wakeup, and continued about noon.

Seventeenth of May I went to hospital. As a whole, the hospital was a positive experience. The first night they put me to sleep a kind of monitoring device that automatically tried to find the right pressure of the air flow in to my lungs. On same I tried fit if the design of the mask is suitable for me. The torturers were not bothering me much on hospital time. They kept some verbal manipulation, and the "secretary" was pronouncing my thinking, but the volume was more like whisper, rather than bone feeling voice, they use usually. Next day the hospital I got some blood tests, breathing test, and chest x-ray.  I did not find anything odd on the procedures. On the afternoon starting 3.15 p.m. The perpetrators caused some occasional shooting pains on the front side of the head. Next night on the hospital the staff gave me my c-pap breathing machine. I should use every night rest of my life. The night went for their fixing the suitable air pressure on the machine, so that the blood oxygen saturation  level does not fall too down, while I am sleeping. 

After I went to home -pap machine with me. The first nights the torturers were quite silent, but on 22 of May night with about 1.30 a.m. they woke me awake and tried to disturb my sleep, so that I had to put a steel ball on my ear, after I got sleep normally. Next night I got a dream, that my neighbor’s cat that became so violent, so that I had to strangle it. After I woke up my perpetrators insisted that the object that I strangled on dream, was not cat, but a human, and this human was on my room. This is of course impossible, because the doors were locked.

The perpetrators have started again use uncomfortable bed torture, to manipulate, which site I am sleeping.

There are some differences on life, I have noticed, before I started the use of c-pap machine, and after it. The machine is a kind of nuisance, so I sleep less hours, with it than normally. However I kind of get more energy, at least I feel so now. The perpetrators get me sleepy on daytime, but I have not found they do not put me unconscious same way. There is not this familiar electric shock that put me asleep. Not yet anyway. Also torture on the right eye has stopped, at least for time being. On daytime they are perhaps more aggressive than ever. Example on this morning between 9-10 a.m. They tortured with high pitch female voices. It looks like it works only one ear at time, this time they used it for right ear. The sentence they repeated hundreds of times was something like "knock knock triangle" on translated, which does not have very much sense.

As I told on my diary on 17th. February 2009, the perpetrators, had actually found the sleeping problems, and told me I will die for this problem. Because  their talk is usually a mixing of possible truth and lies, where the concentration of truth is very minimal, so I cannot give any credit for their stories. Apparently they have found, or  they have even  caused the brain damage that makes this problem.

I have followed with great interest Bush administration use of torture as an interrogation tool. The copy of original documents is on ACLU pages. It nice that some organization let people to read original documents, and not just journalist reference of them.

 It looks like army has abandoned the electric shocks on teeth tang and genitals, which were popular on thirty years ago. Now the people that teaches army-torture specialist (theyt are not called torture specialists, but interrogation specialists),  to use common tools, which one would use purpose other than torture too.

  Besides of much publicity got water boarding torture, among Dept of Justice accepted interrogation (torture) techniques is putting the person in small box (confinement box) on uncomfortable position with some insects. I do not know if it is specified, what species of insects are acceptable as a prisoner’s confinement box companion. Perhaps interrogators could use insects available on season. On warm climate, they  would put prisoner on box with scorpions, but on Northern climate, the angry bees could be the best choice. On wintertime and North, this particular itorture method is not usable, if not imported insects are used.

The sleep deprivation as a torture tool has still kept is popularity. According the army instructions the interrogators (torturers) could keep the victim without sleep maximum 180 hours at row. This means one whole week. After that the victim must have let sleep eight hours, and after the torture is possible start another 180 hours. I was kept without sleep with perpetrators on Canada about hundred hours, before I was able to get Finland with plane. The sleep deprivation was done with technique; they called name "hard head”. It is an experience, I do not wish even my worst enemy, and I am sure it made some brain-damage for me.

The decision of use of torture, came for foreign minister Condoleezza Rice, and Department of Justice made necessary changes for definition what word torture means , so that some torture techniques became  "enhanced techniques of interrogation" and  "legal" and acceptable tools. I would understand if  Myanmar  or comparable country, uses this kind of cheap tricks, but it is difficult to believe that this happened for 300 million people civilization, that has got men in the moon. If this kind of things comes out from dept of justice orders, one would just imagine, what would happen on courts of justice, jails and police stations.

President Barack Obama does not support legal proceedings against Condoleezza Rice and others responsible of use of torture, because the legal action against them is not "United States interest".

Decision leaves us on situation where some of the people are prosecuted for their crimes, but others not – example Condoleezza Rice, and department of Justice decision makers responsible for torture orders. This means that people are not equal - or as George Orwell put it on his book The animal farm "All animals are equal but some animals are more equal than others".

However President Obama supports revealing public what has happened because”United States should look itself on mirror". After army officials resistance he also did not let the torture videos come out for public. I have different opinion that President Obama, but I understand him in the way that this particular time there is some danger of military coup, and he needs the Army support, to stay in power.

 We could roughly divide countries according army position in government. In this classification there are three types of countries. First like Scandinavian countries, army is a servant of rest of the government, and gives the country necessary shield of security.

On the second type, where example United States, and  Thailand belongs –armed forces or military industrial complex  lives in symbiosis with rest of government both have some political power.

In the third class is Countries like Myanmar,  army rules and rest of the people is just a kind of support class, necessary to supply the army for it needs.

Because United States  has military budged size of same as the rest of the world,  an some other weak signs , there is a great danger for United Staes for  becoming Myanmar type of dictatorship, where civilian population has put on the role of support class that must produce supplies for army, for  it needs.  The physicians would use analogy of normal  white cells of body, transferring into dangerous cancer cells.

 Barack Obama has a dangerous bomb in his hands. This particular bomb could easily explode, when try to dismantle.

17.5.2009 11.35 a.m.  According doctors, the pulse oximeter  showed ,that I have  some drops of oxygen consentration on my blood , during  the sleep , so they ordered me to hospital, where they study matter better, and try to find me suitable c-pap (continuous positive airway pressure (CPAP) machine .  The hospital they ordered me, is old tuberculosis hospital, Paimion parantola. The tests should take two or three days.

I am a bit worried. I am helpless on the hospital, with no protection. I do not have much controll , what the doctors actully do for me. However I go there, just because they have ordered me , to go there.

I feel a bit like a Jew , in Nazi Germany that has got order to  go ”work camp”. They did not know where  actually they  were going, but just obeyed orders.   I just hope the hospital is ordinary hospital, and my treatment is ordinary medical treatment.

16.4.2009 11.20 p.m. After last note on my diary, the main difference for earlier torture experiments, are short unconsciousness moments, "fast sleeps". They have clearly increased from earlier months. They do something for me, while I am unconscious. Often the whole body is shaking when I wake up on this sleep. Other differences are short electric shocks on somewhere exact are on head. I call them stabbings. Increased pains on the right eye started about on twentieth February. They start usually about two or three a.m. and last until seven or nine a.m. 

 On 22. February 10.53 p.m. I have a note that they tried several times to get me unconscious. It feels like a small electric shock when they do not succeed. I f they succeed the victim goes to sleep.

Next day on 23. February, there was a pain exactly center of the head, between left and right side of the skull. Later on 6.47 p.m. the pain moved on left side on the center of the head. During night they awakened me about two a.m. and kept me awake rest of the night. Next day on 24 February, I was very sleepy, and made a lot of mistakes on my job.

I have a note on first of March. “High pitch voice to the right ear on ten a.m. to one p.m. they try to get me unconscious "fast sleep”, this continues also on two p.m.”

Second of March 4.24 p.m. I got a kind of different type short electric shocks, that later became familiar. I started call shocks stabbing. Half an hour later 5 p.m.  there was a pain on the right side of front head, which later moved on left side of the front head.

On fourth of March 4.24 p.m. They started pain on the right eye, and actually front, right side of skull on whole. The difference was that the pain was magnitude stronger than before (and lasted much longer than pain on the right eye, that I faced after this pain). This pain stopped after ten p.m.

On fifth march at four p.m. there were occasional pains on right side back of the head. 5.57 p.m. whistling sound started. Volume depends heavily where my head is turned. The highest volume is when my left ear is towards the Aura River.

After that ,  seven, eight and night of March there were mostly dry mouth on wakeup, and pain on the right eye that usually ended soon after wakeup.

On tenth march they ended my sleep before four a.m. by "stabbing" electric shocks on left side front of the head. The next night was even worst; I just slept three hours or so. They did take advantage of my tired condition. Stabbing "electric shocks on the right temple. The perpetrators have other name of the shocks I call stabbing - they spoke it as sticking with hairpin. 10.30 p.m. there were very long lasting "sticks under nails torture" it continued about half an hour.

On 12. Of March I got even five hours sleep, but the torture on the right eye, was rather heavy, on wakeup.

The next morning on 13 of March was similar. On evening 6.12 p.m. There was basically   stick under nails torture, but the difference was that it was magnified about ten times stronger than usually. So it felt like high electric rods were put on my left forefinger. This continued 7.22 p.m.

 After that, on next morning at wakeup, there were magnified pains on the right eye. They suggested that I put icepack on the eye, because it would otherwise show outside. I did not put icepack. The pain went off after nine a.m.

Fifteen of March there were pain on the right eye, which started before five a.m. and ended about eleven a.m. On the wakeup there was a dry mouth. On the evening 6.05 p.m. there was stabbing type pain left side of the front head.

16 March 10.14 a.m. there was pain on left side back of the head.

17 March Torture on right temple around the eye started 5.30 a.m. and ended about seven a.m.

18 of March dry mouth on wakeup sticks under nails torture about hour later.

21 March Sticks under nails torture started midnight and continued about ten minutes.

24 March. They put me fast sleep after ten p.m. I woke up on front of television set about three a.m. Feeling was like I had ants on my head. and I was not able to sleep at all. I got some sleep however, after I got my protection clothes over me, and put a steel ball on my left ear. I have talked with other victims of this steel ball on ear protection method. They have not found any help for it. For me it is really big help, a kind of last trick to get sleep. The ball is actually from GEOMAG children magnetic construction kit. The same kit has magnetic rods, which are great help to get ball out of ear-channel in the morning.

25 of March There was another stabbing type pain left side front head at. 6.11 p.m.

26 of March Pain on the right eye started before eleven a.m. and continued long for the after noon.

28 march several fast sleeps example 6.45 p.m. On awake, the neck feels different, which means they have "shoot" on the neck while I was unconscious.

First April there was pain on the right eye on wakeup

Next day, second of April, the pain on the right eye started about seven p.m. and continued after eleven p.m.

The pain on the right eye continued a whole week. On next week Monday I had a regular checkup on my employer doctor. I had complained about short unconscious moments and he had a theory that I have obstructive sleep apnea syndrome. I had a breathing test, and pulse oximeter test on two nights. Pulse oximeter is a smart small device that measures indirectly blood oxygen saturation level, from finger by the color of the lighted finger.  On first night of test, the perpetrators did not let me sleep, more than two hours or so.  Second night I slept more, but the device, went off from my finger sometime on night.

I try to avoid unnecessary tests, because the less medical information my perpetrators get on my physical condition, the less they can measure what changes they have get done for me, with their torture.

On April the “Sticks under nails torture” was going more and more frequent and severe. Example seventh of April two notes 4.41 p.m. 5.55 p.m. and next morning 5.45 a.m. This continued eight and night of April with usual pain on the right eye usually morning, or night after two a.m. On tenth of April, I invented a trick that gets most of the pain out of “sticks under nails torture”. It is so simple; I wonder why I have not found it before. If I rub the sore finger something – that moves off the most of the pain. It is very important that one does this rubbing nail side on the material side.

Most of the pain transforms a kind of feeling of heat.  My theory for this cure of pain is that mechanical vibration of fingernail causes errors on receiving of their electromagnetic torture signal. This means that there is some kind of micro miniature “bug” on the nail. After my invention, they did try “sticks under nails torture” very frequently on many different forms. Now they have not done it, for some days. Instead they do all the other forms of torture, more aggressively. 

On night between eleventh and twelve of April, I went sauna, and they put me “fast sleep” there for a while. After sauna while on resting on the chair, they put me another fast sleep for some hours. On five a.m. I awaked, and I was so sleepy, that only with very hard effort I was able to go my bed, and put my protection on before I went to sleep.

I slept longer than usually, about seven hours. After wakeup my head felt odd on couple of hours. It was not actually headache, but more like feeling being too long time on direct sunlight.

On 13. of April night  was usual  pain on the right temple and right eye. Actually the center of the pain was about five centimeters up on the right eye. The pain vanished before noon.

I have got my hands on the “See snake” micro camera. It is actually made for investigation of water pipes, but because it is so small that it fits into my ear channel, I did study my both ears with it. I did not find any implants. Instead I found that my left ear differs from the right one. This is a picture of my left ear- channel. And this is picture of my right ear-channel

17 February 2009 11.55 p.m.  This look like a kind of waiting period now. They are planning something, and not do anything very special with me. I can only wait , and hope that things go better, and  not more evi,l so I can save my life and freedom. I have slept more than earlier. There were only a handfull  of severe disturbance of night sleep on that period.

My first note since eleventh of January is on 15. of  January at 2.24 p.m. Occasional shooting pains once a while. On next day was similar note 11.35 p.m. sudden shooting pain on the center of the head. Eighteen of January was long small pain on the right temple, that continued with some breaks whole afternoon. Actually it went heavier and focused around the right eye, and continued a whole next day. Next night was a start of the week torture; I was not able to sleep at all.

After one day break, On 21. January evening 7.30 p.m. the pain on the right eye , started again., it ended on next morning on wakeup. This continued nearly every night  with occasional dry mouth when wakeup, a whole January. I am pretty sure, that this eye pain is not their purpose, but rather, a side effect something they do.  I have a theory that it is because I sleep on  left side, they do something on right side of the brain , that is towards the earth.

 On night 27 of January, they disturbed my sleep by getting my getting me feeling high temperature, althought it was 18 celsius, quite cool., next day pain on the right eye started on morning.

 On  29 of january about 4.30 p.m. they got me trance, while I was working. I felt as sitting on the car, and I was danger to get shot, so I tried to put my head so down as possible, that nobody would find me.  I wakeup reality and I found, I was on as low as possible on my chair behind my desk. I was happy I did not get caught.

On 31 of January was nothing else but pain on the right eye on wakeup, that ended about hour.

First February started a kind of electric shock on center of the head about 2.51 a.m. It was not very painful, or long lasting, but it was very dangerous feeling. Couple of hours later started after sauna torture, with heavy headache on front head. It continued , with some pauses on the afternoon.

Next day , second february, again headache on forehead started afternoon 3.40 p.m.

There is a week pause on notes. Nothing special happened, just usual wakeup speeches on morning and occasional pains and itching, and some minutes unconscious states on buss, or at table, and about half of the time there are some verbal manipulation. Their wakeup speeches have before been hopeful, but no there is some new kind rather threatening manipulation also. In one morning about two weeks ago they example told me, that I will die for lax of oxygen, in one of those "short sleeps". The brains simply do not remember to give lungs order to breathe. According them this happen nearly everyone, who has manipulated long.

On eight February morning, they caused a pain on right ear, to get my earphone, off from ear. I did take them off for a while, but put back when pain vanished. The ear was not sore anymore. but they caused a heavy headache on front head, like after sauna torture.

On twelve February 4.03 p.m. is a note: Pains left side of  back of the head.

 Next note is on 15 February 9.28 p.m. Pain on the right eye, for a long time again.

I have added a new entry, on my human experiments pages. . Porton Down has British Army Chemical research and experiment Center, where Army has conducted years of illegal and partly lethal human experiments with British Soldiers.

On diary entry on 30 June, I told a kind litmus test, that a show, if country is the real democracy or just totalitarian country with appearancce of democracy. On real democracy police and army is equal for other people in legal system. Fake democracy, although police and army personnel have egual rights on theory , the laws are not implemented equal way in legal machinery. So  as Porton Down example, army personnel are not prosecuted for human experiments. On army experiments the  victims range for other soldiers to civilian population.  I used on my examples on bacteriological tests. Similarly police is not prosecuted murders and other crimes, they commit on their duty. This has gone into language, which has got some Orwellian expression where crimes that police commit are represented by   media as "wrongdoings" where as ordinary citizens crimes are called with crime real name - murder arsen or whatever they are.

The United Kingdom failed that democracy litmus test. Senior Crown Prosecutor Kate Leonard has refused to charge any of Porton Down scientists on criminal experiments, that have caused several servicemen life.. If one thinks that Porton Down case is not typical, where people are not equal before the law., he would example study Jean Menezes case , where  London Metro police was not executed unarmed Jean_Charles_de_Menezes) . Actually one would simply find all the cases, where police or army has committed crimes, and after careful study, find if they are equal of civilian people  under the law. Behind the Police and army are hiding the political decision makers responsible of   inequality Minister of Defense, Minister of Interior affairs etc.  Very seldom any of them were put  on any political responsibility, the  crimes -the  organizations they are  leading - are doing.

While  I was searching information about Porton Down experiments, I bumped a mystery case of  forty death  biological war experts. The whole case somehow reminds me Agatha Christie novel And Then There Were None . On alternative history pages I wrote what I think  is behind these odd mystery deaths.

I am very tired , If I do not put this out, they are torturing me whole night to keep me tired, so that  their is easier to manipulate me to make mistakes. So I put this on the web, and check it later, after I have slept.

11. January 2009  11.55  p.m.  After my last writing on ninth December, the next note on my notebook was on eleventh December, 5.35 p.m. pain on left side back of the head.

 After this the next note is on thirteenth December 3.59 a.m., but it actually talks what happen night before on twelfth December night: They disturbed my sleep that night, I had to put the steel ball on my left ear channel. I got pain on my right eye too. Also as an odd effect, I got something like heavy electric guitar music on my right ear. I am not sure how many hours I slept on this night, anyway on the next evening I was so tired I slept on my chair, and broke my coffee mug, that slept on my hands. On this night I woke three a.m.  with pain on the right eye.

Next week   on 15 December Monday night they put up their usual start of the week torture, that purpose is get me tired condition on whole workweek, when I am not able to sleep my tiredness off. They used high pitch voice, and I had to put steel ball on my left ear. I slept hour or two. Next night was usual fight for sleeping. The interrupted twice my sleep, and forced wakeup four a.m. I put steel ball on my ear, but they have managed it sore. On the Afternoon 5.15 p.m. I got a sudden heavy shooting pain on the right temple of my head.

The next note is on twentieth of December. On nineteenth December was mild nausea and sleepiness whole day On twentieth December morning there was a mild pain on the right temple of the head, which turned heavier around the noon, when it ended.

21 of December was usual start of the week torture, with sore ear, and backache and mild nausea. This continued next night I did not sleep at all. The next night was pain on the right eye whole night, but I was so sleepy, I got some sleep. The pain ended after wakeup seven a.m.

The Christmas was a kind of peaceful, maybe they were also on holidays, but on 26th of December they kept me awake until four a.m. They caused dry mouth on sleeping on 25 and 26 night - for some time three four hours - but not the whole night. That continued nearly every night example on 28 December, when there were also small headache on front head.

29 December night there was a fight about sleeping, and dry mouth on morning some hours.

The Year 2009 Started pain around the right eye on evening on first of January. It lasted two hours, and ended about 10.20 p.m. On night they suggested that I do not close my doors, in case of emergency, if ambulance has to go in. The Next day 9.30 p.m they caused a kind of heart attack 9.30 p.m. The actual attack was not very painful, but my chest was sore, when coughing, or taking something from floor etc. The pain went slowly away and after two days I did not feel any special. I did take my blood pressure, it was normal 81/126, but my pulse did not go under 80 even on rest. The later talks, they used their experiment term”stopping the heart”, and said; they have done it to me several times before, when I was young.

On third day of January, in the morning I was so sleepy, I went to sleep without my usual emf-protection. I slept about five hours, on wakeup there was heavy headache on front head on afternoon, similar like after sauna torture, except it was before I had went to sauna. The headache ended seven p.m.

Fifth January was usual start of the week torture, except it continued last night. Next night I have note at 2.11 a.m. and I have not sleep at all, they have even thread to force me out of house, similarly, they did Edmonton about 30 years ago. In the morning, when I had not taken the steel ball out of the head , and I manipulated head way they did not like, and behave some other ways uncomfortable for them. -  their tension came a kind of hot.  I heard  - true or not -  that they are in residence which owners have diplomatic statue, so no danger of police interference, although they themselves do not have diplomatic statue. The perpetrators speak fluent Finnish, so I believe they are Finnish origin. They spoke a lot more, example that I have a dehydration problem ,on my body. I did not wake up to drink water, after their explanation, because I do not want them to be able to make me do something, by providing (false) information   about how things are.

On eight January they put me unconscious, while watching television around ten p.m. I got awake on chair after midnight, and they keep me awake until about five a.m. I got two hours sleep, and went late to my work.

The rest of the week, they kept me sleepy, while I should stay awake and other way around. They also cut my thinking very often, when I planned something against  them. How it actually happen, is that , when I am thinking something they feel dangerous, they would example say ”you are flying too high” , and if I stop, or argue with them am I ”flying” too high or low , my memory is emptied from what I was planning or thinking. So they have a way to empty short term memory, if they get my attention somewhere else, for a second or two.

If nothing surprising does not happen, the time of President Bush leadership of United States is ending. On these years while he was the President of United States the average household income has decreased amount of  1273 United States dollars by this source. This is not all. On the start of his first presidency the exchange value of European common currency Euro was 70 cent against United States dollar. On the end of President Bush presidency it is other way around –The worth of one United States dollar is 70 cents against Euro, . That also shows the weakness of U.S. Economy.

On the time of Bush Presidency the definition of many words have changed “enemy soldier”, and torture for example. Now the Attorney General cannot say is the water boarding torture, actually a torture or not. This is a failure of United States legal system, similarly as inaccuracies of election voting system, which perhaps made George Bush, nomination possible on first place.
 

In Finland we have saying “If the head is dummy, the whole body will suffer”. Similarly I would say, if the head of the nation is a dummy, the whole nation will suffer. I wish better heads for the heads of the nations on future.

9.12.2008 2.38.a.m. After 26 of October the week started with “start of the week torture”. I estimated that on Monday, I slept three hours. On Tuesday they woke me up on three a.m. I slept under four hours also this day, and about same amount on Wednesday, when they woke me up around three- four a.m. On the rest of that week I slept a bit better, but there was pain on the right eye. Example on Thursday pain started after seven a.m., and continued several hours.

On November, the first heavier torture occurred Thursday on sixth November around one a.m. They started again torture with high pitch female voices. This time the voice was barely heard, but I felt the high volume of the voice. I put the steel ball on the ear-channel, but they continued. So I pushed the ball on deeper on the ear channel. After that, they purposely lowered the volume. I usually take the ball out on the morning, with magnetic rod. The perpetrators say that they do not like the ball, because it widens the ear channel. I have a theory that they do not like the steel ball, because, when I take it out of ear, it works like a vacuum pump, and could move the possible implant on  channel, between eyes and the nose. As a detail,  usually they wipe out, from memory, the word that the high pitch voice repeated hundreds of time, so I could not remember it on the morning. They are pretty good , for erasing singular words from memory , or suspending recalling it, but for a larger portions of matter, it does not work that well. If they want to erase a larger portion  than one word, they use different technique. They make twenty or so different stories of case, and the idea is that the victim does not find the real story, from twenty fictional stories. On my experience, this technique does not work as well, as erasing single words.

Some kind of disturbing sleep they  do nearly every night. On eleventh of November, I have a note, that they caused me a dry mouth. On Thursday 13 November I was able to sleep about two hour, under hour pieces. Along other techniques,they used high pitch voice,” sticks under nails torture”, backache, and as a new form of torture, itching on the toys. 

Saturday 15th. of November there was pain on the right temple of the head, starting 9.30 p.m. usually this is a kind of pain, they cause in the morning. The pain moved on the right eye and continued until next day noon. There was a dry mouth on wakeup also.

The next week I had a very little sleep. On seventeenth night, they had start of the week torture and they used a high pitch voice again. I slept about two hours. The next day was similar, except there were also heavy shooting pains, on the right eye. However I was so tired, I slept about four hours. Again they erased the words they repeated with high pitch voice during the night. Same happened Wednesday, they started "hope talk" about three a.m. where they explained, how everything will became better, after this night, torture will end, and I get a lots of money as compensation. Fortunately I made a note of word, they repeated hundreds of time before that  . It was “satavuotias” (hundred year old)

I got about three hours sleep. Nothing that they promised their “hopetalk”  did not; of course happen.  The torture changed pain on the right eye type, that started on night before I went to sleep. This rather heavy torture continued, every day with some breaks. Monday on 24 of November they started with start of the week torture also. Even on day, when I was working they caused on heavy pains on the right temple while I was on meeting on my job. My facial expression must have changed. They also caused me to disturb others speech, with caught they caused.  This is a trick they did very often for my embarrassments, some years ago.

 Torture on the right eye stopped for a longer time after Sunday 30th of  November for a while.  Instead there were severe shooting pains on left side front of the head 8.40 p.m. This caused pains on several hours after it, when coughing, so they must have caused at least temporary damage. On Monday first of December, there was a headache on the front head, like “after sauna torture,” but perhaps milder. Wednesday and Thursday was a dry mouth on wakeup.

Now they have started again the pain on the right eye. As contrast of earlier, the pain starts now afternoon, or evening, and stays in more time as before. Yesterday night they keep pain on the right eye whole night, combined with some of the time backache etc. I slept under two hours - so it was more severe than usually “start of the week torture”.

About mass-murders, and other crimes of Indians in Residential schools I wrote on 30 June - I was skeptical about truth Commission ability to find out  truth what has happened , because with  the 60 million dollars funding comes also the  control from Canadian Government. Now the chief of Commission Indian origin Judge Harry LaForme has resigned, over dispute   between him and other members of Commission, so there is reason to believe the work of the commission, will not be as good as it could be.

I have got as a feedback, opinion that native deaths of tuberculosis and smallpox on residential schools were natural deaths, and not intentionally caused on purpose to decrease Canadian native population. I have put Alternative history section a document which shows that as early as 1760 British authorities started killing native with smallpox infected clothes. Also on 20^th century was well known how these diseases spread, but still healthy children were put to sleep same room with smallpox and tuberculosis patients on native children residencial schools. The vaccine against smallpox was developed around 1800, why every student on these schools was not vaccined against smallpox disease? Finally as comparison ,the Death rate of very brutal Japan prison camps was about 29%, but the death rate on Canadian residential schools were nearly twice higher  than that - and these were schools of children and not concentration camps.

There were disputes between members of Canadian Parliament also. Not about  mass murders or pedophilia on native on residential schools, or not ongoing brutal Canadian mind-control experiments - but for economical situation, and money. In fact the Prime Minister Harper has closed down the whole House of Commons, because of disputes. This has happened with the aid of Governor-General, who apparently gets his powers from Queen of England. Apparently his legislative powers come from ancient times when Queen of England really ruled Canada.

I am interested, how long the Governor-General can legally keep the doors of the House of Commons closed, with his legal powers. Month? three months ?, or forever, if necessary ?

26.10. 2008  11.37 p.m. On ninth of September night, there was a start of the week torture. They woke me up at  one a.m. and kept me awake until about three, or four a.m. So my sleep was very short, when I went to work. Only good thing was that there was no pain on the right eye as usually.  Very much same happened in next night, only difference that I was so sleepy that they woke me up two a.m. and after seven a.m. started pain on the right temple, that went after noon, before ended. The next night they put me unconscious on evening, so I slept without protection of my head. I woke up about four thirty, and head was like I had not slept at all. Friday on twelve September was pain on the center of the head.

On Saturday night, they made me unconscious, so I slept four hours without protection. After I slept six hours with protection, and my head felt about normal, except that they cause similar headache on the forehead, as in "after sauna torture" but perhaps not so heavy as usual.